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Traumatized, you say? Nah, I’ve been worse…

by Alexther 12/5/2014

written by Alexther

How wonderful!

About a couple months ago, my dad tried to kill my mom. I stopped him, then he tried to kill himself by drinking the acid he wanted to throw in her face…

To make things even better, ever since my dad returned home from the hospital (a month and a week ago), there’s been constant fighting between my parents.

And for some reason, I ”need” to get counselling for this ”traumatic” event… As if this was the first time my parents try to murder each-other, or to my dad tries to kill himself…

Oh well, life is good, ain’t it? Fuckin’ tired of this shit…

12/5/2014 5 comments

I don’t know what to do

by track 12/1/2014

written by track

I was always bullied because of my race. I never done anything about it and I never told anyone because I was afraid. Everyday in school I get racism, pushed and even physical damage. One day I told my parents but they never done anything about it. It’s like they don’t care or want me to settle it myself. I want to settle it myself but I’m too weak and I always think about how everyone thinks about me. Like how I look or how good am I at sports. I did try to settle it but I became emo at an early age when […]

12/1/2014 4 comments

Procrastinating

by patrickbateman 11/29/2014

written by patrickbateman

One day I’ll have to do it. It’s a fact at this point. The pain has gone on for so long and worsens every day. It feels so hollow and nothing fills the void.

I don’t recall what it feels like to really be happy. Only that I once was a long time ago. It’s so exhausting trying to force everything every day. It’s not my fault. I didn’t ask for this.

There’s something tearing away inside me and I can feel it starting to take over after all these years of fighting it.

One day I’ll have to stop it the only way I know how. The […]

11/29/2014 6 comments

My Life

by TheTreeOfMyLife 11/28/2014

written by TheTreeOfMyLife

I am really nothing…

hi my name is **** *****. i am 1?-years old… hehe i don’t know how to start telling my life, but I’m not really good at English… I writing this because I think it will make me feel better… umm… I grew up in small city. When I was 3-8 years old, I have painful days and happy days of course. my parents were drunk, fighting, every Friday, Saturday, it was never changed 5-years, always drinking, fighting. me and my big brother and my lil sister, crying in room, our word never changed our parents, we always tell them to stop […]

11/28/2014 8 comments

it’s never too late

by L0STgirl 11/26/2014

written by L0STgirl

You may not know it but so many people care about you… I’ve recently attempted suicide and when I woke up in the hospital only then I realized the awesome people I would have left behind. Yes life sucks and sometime it seems almost unbearable but nothing last forever not even emotions. Tough times don’t last, tough people do. Get the help you need and try your absolutely best everyday and you will find some sunshine in what seems like an awful storm. It’ll be hard, I won’t lie, there will be days when getting out of bed seems like a chore but never whatever […]

11/26/2014 5 comments

Empty Cold Dark and Hollow

by HereticBlood 11/25/2014

written by HereticBlood

A constant question I ask.. How did I get here? How did I get to this empty dark place? A few ppl have said that I am not to blame for my past. But what if I fought harder to prevent all this torture I have now? What if I could’ve prevented the nightmares and seeing his face feeling his hands and his breath. Smelling his disgusting sweat and hearing his disturbing voice? What if I am the one to blame? I feel as though he shouldn’t get away with all he did while I sit and remember every last thing.. Yet he has no […]

11/25/2014 3 comments

Why Can’t My Mom Understand

by smileemptysoul 11/24/2014

written by smileemptysoul

Every time I ask for help all she does is laugh. All I need is her advice, but instead she would laugh. She doesn’t look at my arms anymore because she thinks I’m normal but really I have razor cuts all over my arms. When I started to cut she always thought It was a break up, but It was always her. She made fun of me and my friends. Always blamed me for her and my stepdad fighting. I’ve been cutting myself for over a week because of her. I just need her to accept me and know that I am my own person. […]

11/24/2014 0 comment

Funny clouds

by Toruda 11/23/2014

written by Toruda

Sometimes I’m so tired. I can’t focus my eyes. I barely sleep. My days are a chain of endless blurs. I don’t remember much. I smoke because it makes me feel tough like a soldier fighting a war. Every moment is a battle. It is sometimes perforated by bits of light or a funny moment. I cling to it as it fades and slips through my fingers like the vapor of something once solid.

11/23/2014 0 comment

I hate when my mom is drunk

by Lovebug4142 11/20/2014

written by Lovebug4142

I hate when my mom is drunk or when her stupid boyfriend is drunk. ALL THEY DO IS FIGHT. I’m so sick of it, its been going on for 5 years, the alcohol the drugs the pushing the hitting. I’m done. They add so much more stress to me. I already have issues without them. I’m tired of the fighting. I hate seeing my mom crying, I hate seeing her drunk. I hate it when all her an her boyfriend want to do is drink. I stick around because my baby brother is 3 and someone has to be there to take him to the […]

11/20/2014 5 comments

why do I try

by bringkenziethehorizon 11/20/2014

written by bringkenziethehorizon

My sister doesn’t know y I sleep so long.. I literally have no reason to get out of bed especially when all she does is make me feel worse accuses me of everything blames me for her nd gordy fighting tells me I’m useless that I’m not shit lik y the fuck would I wanna get up if that’s all that’s gonna happen I’m starting to break Idk Wat to do tbfh Idk how to make my fucking life better

11/20/2014 3 comments

I Want It..

by misterunknown 11/19/2014

written by misterunknown

I’ve been fighting this for years. Trying to be happy in spite of it all. It’s always worse in the morning. Feelings I’m sure you know all too well.. Such an intense mixture of negative emotions, feeling hopeless and hurt. Every morning I wake up to suicidal urges. My family keeps me from it. I cry when I imagine the pain I’d leave behind. So I carry on. Not so much living, but existing. I try to live, but how can I? Happiness seems like a myth. And yet I continue to reach for it. But the most frightening thing is that I think, deep […]

11/19/2014 1 comment

Searching for someone

by shadows 11/15/2014

written by shadows

Nobody seems to understand what I’m feeling, even if someone know what I’m fighting. I’m desperately searching for someone in which I can confide. I want to talk about my feelings ’cause they’re too heavy for only one person. I feel stupid when I try to talk with someone about all I’m thinking.

I feel like a fool. Sometimes insane.

I’m so afraid of everything. I don’t want to be alone in this, but it’s so complicated and I feel like it would never end. I want to finish this story, this black long chapter of my life. It’s me that I’m really fighting?

I want someone which […]

11/15/2014 4 comments

as I stroll through everyday life…

by RealTalk30 11/14/2014

written by RealTalk30

Some people think life is so easy.. so easy to take.. to live.. life is so fucking easy when you are speaking your own language… but what if I can’t hear it? What if I can’t see it?
Think positive?
Thinking positive isn’t the same as what some would think… A positive notion to me would be if I just so happened to not wake up tomorrow. It’s not that I can’t make my life better (which I probably can’t) it’s that I don’t want life. I hate life. People can’t understand that, and I’m so confused as to why everyone isn’t born with […]

11/14/2014 1 comment

I don’t want to be here anymore..

by azmichael 11/2/2014

written by azmichael

This is my first post to this site and I’m a little apprehensive. My soon to be fiancé and I broke up yesterday. I’ve been crying ever since. She and I met online. She was going to be the last person I talked to before I ended my lifei . SHe and her boyfriend had broken up and I wanted to make sure she was okay and make one last person happy before I ended my life. We started dating and I was planning on proposing. It all came to a stop yesterday. I’ve got bad PTSD as I am a volunteer law enforcement officer. […]

11/2/2014 1 comment

All Saints Day

by RealTalk30 11/1/2014

written by RealTalk30

After the dawn has come, and the moon no longer crest..the shadows on the walls still don’t seem to rest. Could be a day to forgive angels and saints..but the blood I’ve drawn is purely symbols for the pain.. and though it seems these ghosts should rest..they wait in the corner for me like a silence breaking breath.. take a single breath, followed by a three..double back to gasp for more, while choking down a fourth, and a fifth.. a day I won’t be fighting for..a day that won’t be missed..
Bring the morning sun, as to show I’m not too far.. far away from […]

11/1/2014 2 comments

The Struggle

by Jumper97 10/28/2014

written by Jumper97

I’m still feeling lonely, like a failure, and hopeless. I have a big project tomorrow and I have to present for over 5mins and my social anxiety is making me stressed. I tried hanging myself today and I did for about under a minute and I was fighting to breathe, unfortunately I was able to hold up on to a tree with my legs and lift myself up. Before I was to much of *****, but everyday I push myself a bit more.

10/28/2014 1 comment

Happy Birthday

by octoberdragon26 10/22/2014

written by octoberdragon26

My birthday is always a difficult one for me to swallow. I’m always alone, depressed, thinking of what it would be like to be released from such a hell.

I see people my age hand in hand, laughing hanging out having a good time, enjoying life. I’m alone and in pain that has become so familiar it’s like an adopted friend I can always count on to be there. The familiar sting, burning sensation I almost swear is right under my skin as the pain wraps it’s arms around me in a loving embrace.

I had a girlfriend who recently broke it off and told me, she […]

10/22/2014 4 comments

Back home

by anaboyred24 10/20/2014

written by anaboyred24

After spending 4 weeks on a Psychiatric unit/ward I don’t feel much better then I did before I went in, feel a wee bit better but not much.

I really don’t know what I’m going to do with myself I still want to die but at the same time I want to get better, As anyone fellt these emotions at the same time before? I feel that it’s too late for me I car’t see my life with out depression and psychosis.

I see all the people that are fighting for their lives with cancer or other terminal illnesses, And who wants to live. Then they […]

10/20/2014 2 comments

Only 12 more days

by greyrainbow 10/19/2014

written by greyrainbow

I am done. Tired. I’ve tried DBT. I’ve tried & i’m tired. I love Scott!! I can’t tell him that though. I dream about him & wish he was in my life, other than being my therapist who I can’t & cannot appease. So, I’ve decided that death will finally take me, as I’ve always felt it would. You see, I have no friends. I can’t & don’t keep them. This world sucks!!! All you see is hate & killing. People who think they are owed, who don’t shoot for the moon themselves. They just want everything handed to them. So, my Suicide is planned […]

10/19/2014 2 comments

not long

by heliumhood 10/19/2014

written by heliumhood

My trial begins in a couple of weeks. I’ve just come back from a weekend away with my in-laws and had an amazing time.

Obviously the discussions moved round to the allegations I will be fighting, and have had a resounding vote of confidence from everyone.

10/19/2014 2 comments

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