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i need rest

by toxicluminoth 10/27/2014

written by toxicluminoth

I am so tired. My method so easy. It’s just so unfair how easy, painless, and certain it will be.

I keep coming to the same two doorways. Both lead me here.

Behind one is that I am right and I am in fact good for nothing but working day in and day out. That I’m worth no more than what could be traded for money and in the long run, a comfortable place to enjoy loneliness in a body with genes that nobody would prefer to pass onto their least favorite kind of mushrooms.

Behind the second is that I am wrong and in fact crazy. That […]

10/27/2014 1 comment

Hurt

by HurtMe 10/26/2014

written by HurtMe

A week ago my girlfriend told me that she found something out. She said she’d found a new fetish. I didn’t ask what, I asked how. How did you find it out? She said I didn’t want to know. I hate her. She hurt me so bad. That night I cut my wrist up bad and there’s still blood all over. Traces of the pain. Now whenever I look at her I suck it up because I do fucking love her. She hurt me so bad.

10/26/2014 1 comment

Muck-slide

by Bisban 10/26/2014

written by Bisban

The Muk, back and forth

Approaches from the dark

It approaches coming at you

Why doesn’t it stop

Side to side

Who or what, does it try to find

Butterfree, Caterpie

Nidoran, Nidoran

Waiting for the day that I can be alone

But then, I need somebody to help me breathe

The labyrinth, the spiral

Maybe one day, my electric one

Will I fly but I need to now

Bicycle, bicycle, auto-vehicle

10/26/2014 0 comment

I can’t cope with it anymore

by smileemptysoul 10/26/2014

written by smileemptysoul

I’ve realized that the pain has been growing inside me for the past two almost three months since my cousin death. Everything has been falling apart to me. Everyone says that I’m going to be fine I’m a couple of days but I always knew they were wrong. My cousin was killed in a car accident and ever since then I’ve been having the gut feeling in my stomach saying that it is my time to go. She is waiting for me wherever she is, and that she needs me there. The thing about her being gone is knowing I can’t talk to my best […]

10/26/2014 3 comments

What would I say?

by serenityseeker 10/24/2014

written by serenityseeker

What would I say? What would they want to hear? What would they want to know? These are a few of the questions that I have about what will happen after I’m gone. Other than that there really isn’t any telling what will happen to whom and how. There are of course the general predictions that we make about those that we know both in our families and out and about what our children will be like when they have fully grown, but aside from all of that, I really don’t care to find out.
In all honesty, I am not too eager to find […]

10/24/2014 1 comment

Society is a prison

by ClairDeLune 10/23/2014

written by ClairDeLune

Do what your supposed to do all day long; job, education or whatever else. You do it because society wants you to do it. There’s no true freedom if you’re told from the first second you’re on this earth that your life is already planned out ahead of you and you only have to live through it and then die.

Freedom means creativity, means purpose in doing something. A true act of freedom is drawing a sunflower on the back of the essay you’re working on, is wearing a pink hoodie to your bank appointment, is going to sleep without setting the alarm, is saying hi […]

10/23/2014 6 comments

Helpless and lost

by Ending 10/21/2014

written by Ending

Love to me is the look in my families eyes, my Mothers regrets and pain stab me through my Iris and cut through my heart when I glimpse into her aura. Bipolar has take over the family since the beginning, and my family still wonder why they are all so confused yet so content. I cannot lie to another, it burns my soul if I have to deceive another.

Every day is a reminder of my childhood, sitting against the cold damp step, hugging the bricks hoping to generate bodily heat. Alone and cold. This was my earlier realisation coming into action. “I am alone in […]

10/21/2014 2 comments

Who really is selfish?

by transition 10/21/2014

written by transition

I often hear those affected by a suicide talking about the one who committed the suicide being selfish; and often those people are caught off guard by the suicide because they were taking for granted the presence of the person who committed the act. Many of those people got too caught up in a life that was quite a bit less painful than those who committed the suicide to ever notice there were little things they could often do to help prevent such measures. Examples might be: Inviting those struggling out to a cheap social event, making a small connection that might help those find […]

10/21/2014 8 comments

Just saw a crap movie yesterday

by kontinkatink 10/18/2014

written by kontinkatink

…it was my life. So yesterday I had to spend the day going through mum and dads things, mum died recently and dad’s off to a nursing home, and came across all this childhood stuff. Do you think I could find something that didn’t remind me of some kind of hell growing up? Nup. Then I found stuff mum had kept with my cancer diagnosis and treatment, all this paperwork (I was 17), disability and deformity and yeah it was like reliving a nightmare. Yep I remember the hardship, the death defying years, decades, the taunts, abuse, stares and ridicule…hang on they’re still happening in […]

10/18/2014 1 comment

i dont know if you still visit sp

by fall out buizel 10/16/2014

written by fall out buizel

but they didn’t find anything, you’re safe. good luck to you.

Edit: it won’t let me turn off comments, so don’t reply. thank you.

10/16/2014 0 comment

That person

by Syse 10/16/2014

written by Syse

Have you ever met that one person you just can’t stop thinking about? Well, i have. And in my case it suck balls. So, let’s start evert ‘good’ story as it always starts, with alchohol.

It was in the summer, in the local park everyone was drinking, everything was great. I was there with my friends, wich i now got and they are the best. But that dosen’t matter, because this is about a guy that haven’t felt love in many many years. Let me give you some bavkground. Okay, so there was this 14 year old, and that boy met a girl when he started […]

10/16/2014 2 comments

My luck

by Kailee3 10/15/2014

written by Kailee3

I honestly cannot find the words anymore, nothing to comfort others. I’m just blank, more or less like something that’s been erased. As i sit there constanly with the thoughts of suicide, it moves down my spin.. hurting more and more, like ice onto an ocean. I technically cannot classify myself from an ocean. Because in my mind: I see an Ocean as peaceful, full of life, moving to keep the life going. It’s like we are here to be here? If that makes sense, but unlike others we feel it all, we feel it more and more & it dwells in our minds that […]

10/15/2014 1 comment

Update

by EvilKitten 10/13/2014

written by EvilKitten

Hey guys,

Firstly, thank you all for being so awesome to me these last like 6 months. You have seriously been the best people and are always so encouraging and helpful and try to make me and everyone else feel better about whatever crappy situation has us bummed out.

Thank you to all who have donated money, shared my link to spread awareness, and/or offered encouragement. You guys are awesome, and I can’t thank you enough. I would hug you all if I could. You have restored my faith in humanity and proven that people can help one another in times of need. Amazing. Seriously gonna cry […]

10/13/2014 6 comments

by Slowly_Fading 10/12/2014

written by Slowly_Fading

Day 18 and my fingers still itch for the blade. Will the urge to cut never go away? I’ve found that when I get a papercut or trip and fall scraping a part of my body brings the same kind of relief that cutting did. Mary’s boyfriend called me a whore when she brought me up in conversation. He doesn’t like me very much… I came out to my schools GSA under oath no one would say anything outside the group. When my parents find out I’m afraid of what is gunna happen to me. My family loves very conditionally. I hate it. I can’t […]

10/12/2014 2 comments

Why?

by nozmoking 10/12/2014

written by nozmoking

I don’t understand why some people are so comfortable in their own skin and others (like me) would give just about anything to climb out of my body and beat it to death with a stick? I mean right now, if I had the most gorgeous and intelligent female on the planet hitting on me or begging me for attention I would cower away because as lonely and touch-starved as I am I creep myself out.

The thing that makes this all so illogical is that when we are comfortable and confident with ourselves we actually attract other people regardless of how imperfect our physical presence […]

10/12/2014 6 comments

Whatever

by GaiaLiongate 10/10/2014

written by GaiaLiongate

I’m sure now. I bought a ticket to another place, I don’t want my parents to find out. I live in a very shitty country, so they won’t know this way. I’ll go to the mountains and eat some mushrooms, alone. Bye.

10/10/2014 2 comments

stop the world, please

by lovemyshihtzu 10/10/2014

written by lovemyshihtzu

how can you say those three small words to me again for the first time in four and a half years? I’m vulnerable. so fucking vulnerable. I’ve known you going on ten years, you were my first love, and we never fully got over it and always find our way back to each other in the most random of ways. I love Ryan so much. but now here you are again. ever since we were fifteen it’s been there. you have me so damn confused. make it stop, make it stop.

10/10/2014 2 comments

Last post

by No12run2 10/7/2014

written by No12run2

I am grateful for all of the advice and help in my life but it was not enough. I hope that in death you will find my last deed a great one. I don’t know how they will find this page but I hope it sends the message. Suicide Savers is what I’d like the project to be call. I’d like the funds to start a company that will fund, clothe, and shelter those who have lost everything to depression and/or mental illness. Peace and love my friends.

http://www.gofundme.com/ff5xg8

10/7/2014 2 comments

I just want to find hope again

by smorzando 10/7/2014

written by smorzando

I’m failing school.

The past few days have been really, really bad. Whenever I study I feel this sense of hopelessness and I am unable to bring myself to believe that I CAN, that if I work hard enough, I CAN get an A…

I tried to stop binging and purging. Well I stopped purging but I couldn’t stop binging. That sucked because I got fatter. I guess you have to get worse before you get better? Maybe I don’t have enough patience in myself. But it really got me down. Because I feel like there’s nothing I’m good at anymore. Not music, I don’t believe I […]

10/7/2014 2 comments

Making friends

by fairmount 10/7/2014

written by fairmount

KK so im a shit person because i find it so stressful to make friends and when im in the process of becoming friendly with someone all i want to do is cut cut cut cut CUT so they can see and then they can’t reject me lol.

how fucked is that.

i fucking hate myself for even thinking like that

10/7/2014 3 comments

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