Hi. I’m new here. I found the site about a week ago, and I decided to join today. I’ve been depressed since the age of 7 (after my parents divorced and my dad’s girlfriend abused me), and I’ve had severe generalized anxiety disorder since the age of 15. I’m a 20 year old girl. I tried to take my life for the first time last April and again in early May, both by overdosing on ibuprofen. I got myself into counseling, and lied to myself that I was fine. I got on anxiety/depression medication. God knows why, but I stopped taking it in August. Flash […]
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Generalized Anxiety Disorder
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I won’t be mentioning much of myself, rather I’ll just mention what has been on my mind for the past few hours. I’m in a loop of wanting to end my life and waiting for myself to get better. My thoughts aren’t pleasant right now, though. I was recently diagnosed with GAD (Generalized Anxiety Disorder, you can look up what that is), and everyday is me worrying about skewing up even more than where I’m at right now. I have no motivation to do my homework, and when I do, I fail it anyway because I put no efforts into my current major I’m stuck […]
Full-alert here, if you are going to try to bash me, insult me, or talk me out of this, please leave this thread. I am not asking for your judgement or opinions. You are not me, you have not lived my life, and so you have no right to decide what I should do with it Second warning, this is a very long post. Please bear with me.
Okay, after getting that point across, I was wondering the certain fatality doses for prescription medications. I am trying to garner as much information from people as possible, so if you know any other websites/forums where I won’t […]
Trying to kill myself was the best thing that could’ve happened. Because if I hadn’t tried to and if I hadn’t failed, I wouldn’t feel the urge to change how I felt and I wouldn’t have gone to Four Winds. It was tricky, I had just enough of the Nortatryptaline to go into coma but I just ended sleeping for a straight 48 hours. I then didn’t leave my house for an entire week and was drinking so much, I decided physical pain would have been the answer to everything. I cut the word help into my arm and cried myself to sleep that night. […]
One year and 40 days ago I started a diet.
That diet quickly took over my entire life, exposing mental disorders that had been hidden before.
One eating disorder showed so much more… generalized anxiety disorder, a mild form of ptsd, cyclothymic disorder (mild form of bipolar).
My family had been perfect, but when it fell apart i didn’t know how to express the pain. I pushed it down for over 4 years.
All of that pain suddenly came out in the form of starving, throwing up, and cutting.
Slowly, I lost myself.
I had to pretend I was okay, I had to be perfect.
I lied to everyone.
I fought help at […]