I am so sick hearing the words “stupid, I hate emos, LOOK AT THE GIRLS PANTS, that person is weird, he is ugly, they are never going to find love…Maybe I am never going to find love, by just one person that truly wants to love me for me. But I have friends that care enough about me! They say they love me and that is enough. But…why do I get so mad by their words if I have the people that care for me?
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And all the stories you can say, All the ways that you deceive, Will never stop me getting through, I will fight my way to you….
by Nat....
written by Nat....
So this week has been pure shit. I mean, Suicidal thinking shit. Obviously.
First, I just haven’t been my self this week. I’ve been a blend of the the bad Nat’s that we know and love :3 Secondly, Thursday was 27/9/12 (The ‘day’ that the voices have been talking about for months) Nothing bad happened on that day because I didn’t go into school… Friday however was by far the worst day of the week.
So Friday- Woke up feeling okay, did all my routines. Did break down a bit third lesson but I brought myself back from it. Cue fourth lesson. I got a facebook message […]
The only reason I am living is for others. My family, friends, and people I dont even know. I would have committed suicide by now, but ive told my friend not to tell anyone so if i end up doing it the burden will be on his shoulders. I dont know what to do. I havent told my parents or anything because i cant face them. I am a coward they would feel terrible, they would feel failure as parents if i told them. My life seems to have no meaning. Seems that nothing can make me happy. When something does make me happy it […]
I can’t take it anymore! All that’s left for me in life is a gun. I’m never going to acomplish anything in life, and even if I do, I won;t even begin to compare with my dear sister’s acomplishments. I don’t see the point in living if all that goes throught my head is depression and confusion. Confusuin to what I am. I know I like other girls, and my friends have accepted that, but am I bi or Lesbian. Bi is one thing, but would they accept lesbian? Not only that, but this is my last year of freedom. I’,m pretty much out at […]
A battle, a fight, another day. Every morning I wake up and the first thing I do is check to see if I still remember how to smile, I’m not sure when it happened but piece by piece my emotions were shattered and I slowly started faking them to get by.
I guess it did have a beginning. I once had a dream, a direction in which to aim for and look forward to, but it fell to pieces and went from being a realistic future to a childish night time fantasy. I tried to fix it, I tried to create a new dream, but every […]
i wanna leave this “world” aka my hell
i dont like walking round school and hearing people talk about me and laughing or writing shit about me on facebook or girls toilets,i dont want for everyone to look at me like im no good for anyone.
i couldnt help what happen to me,people say to me why didnt u scream help or rape,unless u wanted it to happen but i cant say what i want to say,i want to tell them why i didnt scream,cos when your so scared you try to scream but the words wont come out,inside your screaming so […]
I try to tell others how I feel….
But I just get ignored.
Fine, you can.
I wish I was PERFECT.
I wish I had a BOYFRIEND. But I am not good looking like the other girls.
I wish I was SOMETHING to somebody.
I wish I was better than OTHERS. But I am not.
I wish I had real FRIENDS. But I don’t.
I wish somebody would kiss ME. But who would want to?
I wish I was somebody ELSE.
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I am crying everyday… I don’t know why.
Blood is everywhere on ME.
I have so many problems, it’s hard for me.
I am […]
It feels like I’m always alone  now that college has started. My friend is telling me all of his experiences and how he’s having a good time at his university. My friend has always gotten things his way from girls grades etc. I feel like I can never get things easily  I get nervous around girls and people. Why is my life so different from his? Why am I like this
i am only 20 pounds overweight at 6’8. i have really high cholesterol though. I’m in college now and i workout for 3.5 hours on average everyday and a lot more on the weekends. so Why in the fucking hell can’t i stop sweating when i walk to class on a 5min walk. Girls come up and flirt with me all the time and I’m always sweating. like its so fucking annoying. help
I used to have a few really good friends that i go to school with. They’ve either moved or we’ve had a falling out. Now i’m stuck by myself, with no one to go to… Today was the first day of senior year. It’s supposed to be the best year of your teenage years, right? Well. I could tell you otherwise. I walk in the class.. and i’m alone. Everyone’s in their own little cliques and i’m sitting in the back, alone. I’m not the most outgoing girl ever, i’ve been this way since i can remember… always the “quiet girl”. I didn’t really know […]
dear anyone who would like to read this
today i went to school, and as usual, was tired cause it was a monday and feel a bit timid towards others. though, as a part of the yearbook, i was required to talk to or introduce myself to 6 students whom i was going to take pictures of. today, one of those students, a girl, was one of them, came to school. almost everytime i tried to talk to her, just to see if she was doing okay in school, (is new) she wouldn’t notice me, or i was interrupt by people tht needed to talk to me.
when i […]
When a guy tells you he loves you, he really means it. Unless he’s just a complete jerk. When you break up with a guy, he might seem like he’s ok with it, but he’s really dying on the inside. Girls seem to move on to the next guy after a few days of crying. Guys will feel the pain for the rest of our lives. There isn’t a day that goes by when you aren’t on our minds. Nobody could ever love you more than the way we do. I just wanted to let you know. The pain hurts so much, that I just […]
I’m standing up on the plane in the half stance one does as they wait for the aisles to clear. I have to stand like this, instead of sitting and waiting for my turn to depart my aisle, because I have to let the people behind me know that there’s a goddam order to things and they are not allowed to step ahead of me in that order. A few aisles ahead of me is the tight-faced humorless broad, on the flight with two kids and a frowning middle aged sap. She keeps readjusting her hair on top of her head in the sloppy fashion […]
Why god Why take my unborn Childs life away?
It was so innocent not even bigger then my hand.
not even knowing what the sex was..
why do this to me and my little family?
why why why!
It was my little miracle and you ripped it from my heart and took my gift away from me, why?
Their are other girls with baby’s , girls who don’t even want them!!! I wanted mine!!! other girls get so scared , but I didn’t , I was excited and the most happiest girl , but u took that from me! Why why WHY!!!!!!
I just made this so I really don’t have anyone to get
Things off my  chest. Im just confused . I’m  13. I guess you could say I have a pretty good life or as people could see it . Nice house , family, boyfriend , all the friends . But nothing is never good enough. Me and my boyfriend are going through a rough stage and I’m really afraid of loosing him. I have to go and act like everything is find because I’m too embarrassed to tell my parents what’s going on. So I just have to suffer . I have big trust issues […]
Honestly, this is killing me. Everyday, I wake up..
My mom is on drugs and she wants nothing to do with me,
My brother is in prison.. And dad’s getting older. Nothing easy anymore.
Guys, (girls) This isnt a cry for help. This is an honest statement.
I can’t go on much longer.
I’m in a relationship with someone I’m so in love with, but I get ignored on a daily basis.
It hurts more than anything. I could be happy. I really could, but not like this.
I’ve attempted suicide 5 times
I have scars, and I’ve be committed into the hospital 3 times.
Note: I am home now, I wrote the following earlier this evening.
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I am glad I did this test run. I encountered a few issues. Technology related issues. I had hoped to make this post on site, but I think I have broken my phone. It won’t tether to my laptop. :\ I will have to get that fixed. Then, there’s the little issue of very sketchy mobile coverage. I am basically in a hole in the ground.
I am writing this on site and saving it to upload when I get home. I am listening to my final mix tape. The first track, “The Other […]
Hello all,
I joined this site because I wanted to find an anonymous way of writing down what I felt over the last few years without causing anyone I know (especially myself) any more issues. The last thing I need is my mother committing me, she already thinks I’m in some real trouble psychologically.
I have more to be happy about now as opposed to when I was 25, but it seems as though things are worse than ever. I have a real job, and Iagave some hobbies I’m active in. I worked hard to accomplish that. But I’m consistently crushingly lonely. I can’t […]
I don’t really know why I’m here. Just to vent I guess.. Well I’m 17. I’ve been depressed for god knows how long. I don’t really get along that great with my dad or mom. They both abuse me. I cut myself sometimes. I recently had to get stitches cause I went to far with the cutting. My boyfriend of 4 months was really the only reason I wanted to be alive, and didn’t kill myself. But tonight I received a text from his sister.. it said “Hey my brother is talking to other girls and my brother says that he loves them to you […]
Nobody in my town or my age seem to understand the idea that their actions effect other people as well. It has been a year and a half since I attempted suicide, yet nothing has gotten better. My final year in high school was complete hell. I was tormented by a group of girls who used to be my best friends. Day after day they told me how no one likes me or wants me around. They repeatedly shouted names down the hallway at me or spread rumors about me being pregnant. This summer they have peanut-buttered/egged/balognied my car twice. Then, try countless times to […]