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Graduate School

why?

by all for nothing 5/7/2013

written by all for nothing

Hey everyone.

I am so unbelievably unhappy that words cannot describe the myriad of emotions (or perhaps lack thereof) which plague me with an intensity that is almost incomprehensible. However, I currently have the urge to try to do so for reasons that I do not know. Â I am not begging for attention, sympathy, or pity. I am merely using this post as an outlet for my own thoughts and emotions which I cannot express by any other means than by writing them down. Then again, perhaps I am subconsciously attempting to incite empathy, to offer others a glance at my own perspective with the intention […]

5/7/2013 13 comments

I’d like to end the pain, but I need to pick up my car tomorrow

by Tapestry 1/16/2013

written by Tapestry

This has been such a bullshit day. I have no idea why I woke up in such mental pain…could it be the recent separation, the two kids that are grown and on opposite ends of the globe, the fact that my life is just completely fucked….Or maybe its hormones. A drug reaction to the antibiotics i’ve been on. No, I just wanna die. I have to wait until my daughter is out of college and I know she is happy or settled or something, so that she will have her own life situated and can go right back into her own life, after my death […]

1/16/2013 8 comments

How can i tell him?

by marchingkitty 12/13/2012

written by marchingkitty

This past month ive had a relapse of depression. I was depressed as a kid (age 7-10) and now I’m depressed again (age 15). The reason for my relapse is frustration and stress at school with grades and such. It has escalated so quickly. I think of suicide most of the time. Today at school when i was walking in the hall i saw a sign out of the corner of my eye and one of the words read “Suicide” and did a double take and the word was gone. I guess i hallucinated. Anyway, i was never diagnosed with depression and i want to […]

12/13/2012 5 comments

by Dallas 11/12/2012

written by Dallas

Here’s the suicide note I’m thinking of using:

Iâ€™m through living a life whose defining characteristic is being depressed.

I have what would appear to others to be a good life. I have parents who love me (albeit from 3000 miles away), good friends (albeit almost all of whom are married and so not as available to their single friends anymore), and a good job (albeit one I no longer have any interest in because I donâ€™t have any interest in anything). In short, I have what appears to be a good life, albeit, it isnâ€™t.

Iâ€™ve been depressed for ten years now (give or take), and Iâ€™ve […]

11/12/2012 7 comments

I’m just really sad

by dmart 3/5/2012

written by dmart

It’s been a rough few years, and not sure when to expect something better. Soon, actually, but it could end up not happening. I finished graduate school and moved in with family to help raise their kid. I didn’t have anything better to do. Of course with the economy, a job was hard to come by. I temped, but that ended. Two years after graduating I got a professional position, but it ended up not working out – for me or them. And now my old boss is trying to hire me. I just got a bad feeling about it as I got ready for […]

3/5/2012 1 comment