Couldn’t resist.
Epoch time 142000000 (seconds from 1-1-1980, being used in computers a lot) is Wed, 31 Dec 2014 04:26:40 GMT
Best wishes and I’m glad you are still alive!
Today i am feeling happy and its been hard lately, but i want to share my happiness with all of you because every single person deserves and has the right to be HAPPY! You are strong and you are worth it, keep fighting <3
***Spread the happiness***
I just want to wish all SP folks a happy thanks giving
and I like to stress the HAPPY. Enjoy the day and time you might
have to spend with others.
Peace and love and good times for all of us!!
if you were reading me i’d be scared because then you’d really know how bad I get without you how bad I’ve been but I guess I enjoy the satisfaction that even if you read how crazy I was you’d at least find out how you were the only one who kept me sane for a little while. Sane is probably the wrong word HAPPY? HEALTHY? I don’t know lively to say the least. You see without you I see how filthy the world has become you were the best distraction you were the only good man my only good man. Oh how we talked […]
I’ve had my first full proper meal in front of my family instead of on my own and i haven’t purged it nor do i have any intention to
this is a crazy achievement on its own but coupled with the fact im finally okay with eating at all its crazy im still not okay with my weight but that can take a back seat.
i can’t believe this one thing has changed my view in life so dramatically. it might only be for a few hours or days idk. but its a kind of happiness of pride id forgotten i could feel. and […]
Hey there. Did you miss me? Probably not.
A friend of mine convinced me to talk to him rather than post stuff here… That worked out for about a day.. and then I realised that I had too much shit and too many problems to just dump it all on him. The offer was nice at first, but.. I don’t even know how to begin talking to him.
I don’t know how to talk to anyone any more.
I don’t know how to begin telling my story, or even where to. I don’t know who’d care enough to listen or who’d just laugh in my face. I don’t […]
Most of the time, I feel alone. Only 1 or maybe 2 friends understand me, or they are faking it. I just want to be happy. I’m 20 years old and I’m verry communicative person, I made others happy when they are sad, but when I’m sad and alone, most of them doesn’t care, few of them say “It would be alright” ,but that’s not what I need…I just need a person that will talk with me, help me to get trough this hard time that I’m in now…ahh, I just need a person that I can hugg,know that there is someone to help me […]
Today marks the first day i wrote my first entry on this website. I read through all my entrys and cried at who the person i was a year ago. i still feel horrible, but im slowly learning how to deal with these emotions, and beginning to become a happier and grateful person. most definitly i wake up some day wishing i wasnt alive but at the end of the day i some how find some sunshine in the grey days.
The thing what really made my cry while reading over my entries, was the comments from such amazing people that i have no connection […]
Hope you had a nice day. I on the other hand, I’m suffering from what I think is Klonopin withdrawal. While watching the fireworks I almost passed out and now I feel very short of breath and just… out of it. That’s okay, it’s to be expected, I think.
I think we need a day to celebrate freedom from this illness. If we ever become free.
The contains of this life are far more extraordinary beyond the four walls I’m imprisoned by. The expansions of my sight reign from corner to corner, not from valley to green field after family of song birds. I aspire to be, not to see, but to hold, not to flutter past. I anticipate the flight – flight to passage. Not the body working, but the heart impaired with soul. The emotion and pain far too great to subside with overjoy. The sun – what is “sun?” A large, yellow, imperative – to – life element? But if not there, would we partake in adaption? The […]
For me Valentine’s day is a day which I love. Why? Because I, myself can give out love. Can make the people around me know that I truly love them. That I’m here for them no matter what. That I will help them. That we will fight together on any issue they have. But in a way I hate it. Why? Because all I want is to be loved. Loved by someone who won’t break my heart. Loved by someone who will help me through this. Loved my someone. Just loved. Is that too much to ask for? It’s all I ever […]
Just because it’s Valentines Day doesn’t mean you need to celebrate with a significant other. Take the time to tell your family & loved ones how much they mean to you. Sometimes I don’t feel like I tell them enough so this is just another excuse because, let’s be honest- it’s just another day of the year so technically it’s Valentines day everyday. Most of all, remember to continue to LOVE yourself . Take care of yourself. Take care of your heart. I’m gonna take the moment to tell you guys right now that I love you guys… *big hugs*.
Maybe […]
I have been so pissed off all day and i’m not over exaggerating. Im getting sick and tired of people using me, abusing me, and making me feel like nothing and im sorry.. yea.. im sorry. im just gonna like.. emotionally detatch myself from everything. you know, my depression is getting bad again. I am regressing into a deeper depression than i was before. and i can feel it not only in my mind but in my heart.. and its killing me. my meds are making me crzy… and .. i just dont know anymore.I wanted to try and be happy but everything just keeps […]
It’s been a tough few months for me lately.
Some days i hide it well, others, not so much.
Some days I am sat on my own in my bedroom and I feel so low I have no idea where to go or what to do.
I consider whether my next breath is worth taking dozens of times a day.
Some nights i go to sleep and admit to myself that not waking up; well it wouldn’t be so bad.
Sometimes i will try to talk family or friends but they are always seeming so happy that I don’t want to spoil their day so I […]
I’ve been depressed for 3 years now and I just can’t do it anymore. I can see my life falling apart day by day and go to bed crying every night. Nobody cares about me and probably wouldn’t even notice if I left. I have no friends because whenever I make friends they leave me shortly after. I have never had a boyfriend and guys only use me for my body and take advantage of me. EVERYONE I know has used me over and over again. Every weekend I sit at home by myself and eat my emotions. All I want in my life is […]
I finally have had enough with the emotional and physical abuse with everyone in my life. It is not like I have a best friend to tell all my problems to and receive advice from so I have decided to take a step forward and see a therapist.
I am partially excited about this decision because I can finally allow myself to open up without worrying about my secrets getting out but I am also afraid to tell about my feelings and emotions because what if he/she thinks I am a freak? A nothing.
This is my first step towards freedom from the dreadful memories that bind […]
So this is my first story here…
I’m 20 years old and have been thinking about suicide since I was about 7
(yes, for real)
Thing is, back then, I was also happy… The biggest problems I had were
“my brother ate my chocolate” and so on… And well, now, with getting older, encountering other *more severe* problems in life, they still don’t get to me in a way that I would want to kill myself because of them. As said in the title, I’m a quite happy person.
But in all these years, all this time, there is a constant need to end it all…
My urge to […]
When I’m feeling the most down, I try not to look sad.
I absoultly hate when people pity your life.  It has to be the worse thing.
Which is why you smile.
“Are you alright Elisabeth?”
“Oh yeah absoultly.”
Just smile, and hope that one day everything will actually be aliright(:
I said hope, I don’t know if that’ll actually happen.
I guess I didn’t notice I loved you until you held my hand. I didn’t know you loved me until my friend told me what you said. But you don’t know me. You know me….but you really don’t. You think I’m perfect because that’s how I display myself. I make sure I smile and laugh. I make sure not to show any emotion I would regret latter. You just think you love me. You don’t, truth me. Once you find out, you’ll change your mind…they all do.
But if you want to know the truth, fine:
Yes, I do have scars I hide.
No, I’m not the girl […]
I envy everyone who has a nice life with no problems. I want to say fuck you all but I used to have a great life. Shit just happened and well…what can I say, here I am. So everyone reading this that has a happy life, take advantage of it because there’s a lot of people, including myself, that their life sucks. So do me a favor and live my life for me. Okay thanks…