Wings of healing, wings of health,wings of love, Angels embracing me keeping me from myself. O holy beings i’m sending a message in despair, enfold me in love.surround me in light. Let no darkness through not even at night. Archangels protect me ,devine angels reveal a path that is plentiful in love,bliss, and cheer. Don’t leave me to wander in this barren estate. Surround me, protect me, love me. And if this can’t be accomplished in an expeditious way, separate me from this vessel, this body, this pain.”
I don’t understand why I always manage to mess things up i found someone who understands me loved me and was there for me but I sabatage the relationship that there is no coming back this time I can’t for give my self I would rather just disappear it’s almost been a year and time isn’t healing anything how can u let go of a person if u love them
I am sure we all know the stages of grief….
I am having trouble though. I have gone through them all except one.
I just can’t get angry… It won’t come….
I have every right to be furious with K, but that anger just won’t come.
Maybe because I know that once i get angry its done and I am not really ready to let go yet.
I don’t know….I love her still, and no woman will ever replace her
i write the moon for you
the sad silver part
you thought would never shine
for you
i write the waves for you, soft currents
i know your pain is so immense
the moments they rejected you
let the waves wash healing waters
over all of you
let the moon cast away the darkness
with its silver beauty
forked tongue not of death but licking you clean
let the honey wash and heal you
i know this road is bitter
trust me, my darling
and some day let every word you could never utter
be spoken
like beauty
pearled
I think it’s healing. It looks somewhat better than when I first got it. Btw, It’s been covered up the whole time. I put band-aids on it so it doesn’t get infected or just so it can heal faster. I don’t know. I don’t want people to start asking dumb questions.
Sorry for all the posts today.. but i needed to write this down somewhere…
I’ve been having these slight and subtle flashbacks to who I was and how my character was before all this mess took over.. I can almost feel that person trying to lighten my spirits.. it has me in tears
Is it real? Or another hallucination.. I’m afraid to let it lead me. I don’t know if it’s the devil in disguise, waiting for me to let my guard down.
How did I even get to this… why did I ever come here? And when I’m not here, why am I this […]
Music flowed from my hands
at one time
but no more
Love poured from my soul
at one time
but no more
Sunshine, warm and healing flooded my window
at one time
but no more
Someone delighted in my touch
at one time
but no more
I was paid fairly and respected at work
at one time
but no more
I could chase seagulls and climb sand dunes
at one time
but no more
I could follow my dreams
at one time
but no more
I had something to give to my fellow man
at one time
but no more
My life was an adventure, not a nightmare
at one time
but no […]
Wonder if anyone will ever read this? Long story, short I’ve been severely crippled in a motorcycle crash. Life for me has been changed drastically since I awoke from the coma. Life like this seems pointless however I have 2 children. Shit I can rant and rave about what the last 3 1\2 years have been like but what good will it do? I should have died that day, I don’t want to continue this way! I have guns but am too much of a ***** to pull the trigger on myself and would like to obtain ******** but I’m still trying to find a […]
Our eyes met,
and for some reason I just couldn’t resist you,
I fell fast and so did you.
But then the sweet words you called me turned sour,
the touching wasn’t so gentle anymore,
you left bruises and scars,
but somehow it felt better to go through this pain with you,
than without.
I never believed in God,
but I started praying for death,
hoping some greater power could take me out of this misery.
Your mean words became my reality,
and my bruises you left on my body never healed,
they were permanent.
I left you, with swollen eyes and a heavy heart,
never knowing if I would find someone that would make me so miserably happy.
For so many years now I have relied on simple pleasures. To help me to get through a day, there is coffee, music, aromatherapy, chocolate, a walk in nature, a refreshing bath…but nothing has long term efficacy. There is some therapeutic value in so many things, but it is not always feasible to rely on a multitude of pleasant distractions each day.
The trouble with this approach is, of course, that these simple pleasures afford me a measure of temporary relief but they do not cure me, though their influence is healing.
Documentary promo about depression and Lee Thompson Young’s suicide.
Weve been there…we aim to help…
www.youtube.com/watch?v=6F1e2SO1TZk
Found a place to stay in Northern of Arizona, in a nice little place with another individual, whom accepted my inquiry with my personal background detail (from Craigslist room-rent ads). Anyway, I hope it works out.
Also now, I am seeking out a vagabond-comrade that wants to journey with me and train, to help combat my current strife in life; to abate my symptom of debilitating “sinus-inflammation,” amongst other stricken factors, by wholistic healing, to train to be healthy in it’s highest sense and level. If you’re down, you can come along to the place and stay as a personal guest and friend, I should be […]
Can I convince myself that I’m fine? For a while I’ve been relatively ok. Not majorly depressed, and not happy….just existing.
My kitty had a seizure this evening, and my mother got bit real bad (cat is diabetic and her sugar dropped to practically nothing). I’ve had this cat since I was 3. So she’s 17 now. It was awful….I’m going to lose my buddy in a few months. I have no choice. But death is a part of life.
Tonight’s stress seems to have made me relapse. I don’t want to cut again, but I feel like I have to simply because I haven’t for almost […]
An Overall Feeling Of Untapped Anger Ludicrous Expression Of My Burning Nauseous Stomach And Dissociation That Pierces My Soul And The Lust Of The Universe A Sedated Feeling Of Sorrow Contempt And Hatred Low Octave Starvation And Slow Sweet Whispers Of Foreboding.
I’ve lost it. I’ve gone completely insane. I had stuff here, now it’s gone. Maybe it’s for the best. Maybe it never happened. I have a hard time thinking. It’s impossible not to sound like a whiny, punk ***** when I try to explain my situation. I come off as pretentious, hypocritical and mean-spirited. Maybe I am. Sorry for the spam, but I just […]
I’ve seen this same sentiment expressed using the example of crumpling a piece of paper up, then smoothing it out…..I like to think that by taking the extra step of smoothing the paper out, or gluing together the broken plate, an act of healing occurs. True, the damaged object is visually and physically changed, but the healing act of restoration keeps the object whole. And there is something precious about the act of coming together to achieve restoration….understanding from where the tools to achieve the restoration come.
In the novel The Nun’s Story, the Superior General […]
Memoirs of Suicide
June 19th 2013. That was the day I tried to kill myself. Yeah. Not what you’d expect from a nice girl, right? It’s hard understanding what drives someone to want to kill themselves unless you’ve been there, but I’ll try to explain it as best I can.
It’s like you’re a speed above or below everyone else, you can see them but they’re moving too slow or too fast for you to catch up. I was with people but I was always alone. It’s like I was in a bed in a really deep ditch and I had to try and crawl out of […]
I’ve been in hospital psych ward for two weeks now. I self admitted to try and regulate my meds. Things aren’t going as smoothly as I had hoped. There are clearly people worse off than I. I have been witness to some aggressive personalities, situations that have occurred beyond my wildest imagination, and today my roommate made an attempt on her life that has struck me to the core. I have come to realize that any healing has to come from within. There is no one out there to help you. You are alone in this mess you find yourself in and there are two […]
Imagine a map, it’s a map of the world, a giant map, placed on the wall.
There are lights on the map, some of them blue, some of them white,
some of them glistening more, some of them flickering faintly.
Each light represents a soul.
Your light is on the map and I don’t know if it’s blue, white,
if it’s shining or if it’s hiding, if it’s bruised or healing.
(If it’s healing, it’s purple.)
Then something horrible happens; a villain steals the lights.
Not the souls,
just the lights.
Blue, white,
purple.
No indication of them on the map.
The map’s plain now. That’s not nice, is it?
A plain map. A plain map that didn’t use […]
Most of you probably already forgot me. Â I got kicked off here a while back. Â Excuse me, my “posting” priviledges were removed. Â I only came back to post a link.
A nice young lady from Maine saw my last post here with the admin and kindly asked me to come administrate on her page. Â We are going to launch a web page later on.
If anyone here wants to come join the party, we will make your daily life a little brighter.
This is for self harm, depression and suicidal thoughts.
Chris (healing in his wings)
https://m.facebook.com/mainesuicideawareness?ref=stream&soft=jewel%3D2
I hope that this will help to open minds, save lives and will help other families from the struggles that we have had to endure. Â Thank you for watching.
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