My whole body mind heart craves and yearns for death . Â Sweet death. Â i need it like I need air…. Â Help me pls
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I wrote a quick draft & saved it! Where did it go? What happened?
Is life really worth it? I’m honestly curious. Because for me, my life isn’t worth it.
My dad and I had an argument last night… He might split me and my girlfriend… He said he’s gonna find me counselling for my suicide… If I lose her, I’m gonna need more than counselling and to stop me.
I’ve never really seen the point of self harm, but a few days ago, I started biting my hand to take my mind off things. I could concentrate on the pain instead of worrying. It just occurred to me today that what I was doing was self harm. I never bite hard enough to draw blood, but hard enough to leave a red mark by the end of the day, and I can’t seem to stop. I know I should stop, but I don’t know how. I don’t want to be a burden on my friend anymore. He helped me when I was recovering from […]
My wrist lifelessly dangled off the edge of the porcelain tub; a stream of red tracing the lines on my hand. A pool of crimson waited below. The bath water looked like a distilled merlot. I lay silently, salty tears racing down my face. My mascara sat idly under my eyes tired of running. With the little will I had left, I turned my head to look at the self inflicted mutilations. The word “ Help†was carved into my soft, white, flesh. Under that, “Save ME†screamed for some attention, fresh blood still dripping down from the bottom of the E. My head jolted […]
So basically this is my first post and it’s going to be shitty sorry.
…buuut yeah, my name is Brianna and honestly, I don’t want to be living here on this bullshit planet any longer. I’m tired of getting judged by the music I listento, the clothes I wear, what I look like the next day, and so forth. My life to me is honestly completely useless. I wake up everyday feeling like a mistake, and that I should’ve never been born. I’ve been called names like slut, emo, ****, *****, and been told that no one likes me, I’m depressed all the time, I […]
I don’t really understand the point of this site. I am not being shitty or anything like that….just wondering how all of this works?? I NEED help in finding some easy way of getting “the job” done without ANY chance of survival and in hopes of finding answers since I posted early yesterday I only had 2 comments and they were to help me as in “I am here for you” and that type of thing. Thanks, but no thanks….I just am going crazy here wracking my brain and nobody understands that I WANT an END/ just an END that is all!!!! Why do I […]
Please, I have no reasons for staying alive. The problem is I’m either too coward to commit suicide or too stupid for believing something good will happen to me.
What should I do? I have no real friends, everyone just talks to me when they need something. I’m good at nothing but school, and that’s not even worthy. My parents don’t support me. I feel my life is a waste. I feel like thrash. My only real friend is in a worst situation than me. If she dies, I’ll have no real reason to be alive.
The worst part is how people tell me “You just […]
Today at photography class something weird happened, the teacher made us close our eyes and relax.. the she asked us to imagine the things she said: “imagine your walking ,peace and calm, through valley.. you”re walking to a tree, the only one there… your sitting gown the tree until you see a shadow, a white one. You stand up and noticed that the shadow wants you to follow it… you get close to the shadow and you take it hand and..” then she continue but i couldn’t. As everybody saw a white and friendly shadow.. I saw a shadow that terrified me to a point […]
Oh, I forgot. Nobody’s there.
someone help me out. i feel so mad and depressed all the time.  my mom Gets into these fits of rage and when she is mad , I’m her main target.  My brothers and sisters never get into trouble, And they’d probably kill me if they had to. The last time they hot into a fight with me , after that i sat in the corner with my grandma’s old doll.😓😓I probably must sound like a  baby, but its feels really depressing to me and Im to the point of cutting and/or  killing myself . It’s like nothing is happy or fun anymore, if I […]
A serious suicide attempt is not a cry for help.
It is a cry that started when we emerged from our mother’s wombs. How happy did any of us look then? And the sickening thing, the beaming smiles on the faces of our owners, I mean “parents”. How greedy parents look when that new child emerges. “You are mine”, they cry, “mine forever”. And how the child screams, shrieks and squirms to get away from them, to get away from all of it.  All of it a grotesque, bloody, display of ownership and enslavement; a foreshadowing of what is to come.
A suicide attempt is a cry for freedom from […]
I fell in love with this guy I met online. This all started in the summer of 2013. We would talk for days on end, and he made me feel so happy. We are 1,200 miles apart but that never stopped me. Well, in September I get my phone taken away and I don’t get to talk to him. In January  I get my phone back and I try to talk to him, but he ignores me. So I gave up. Its been hurting so bad. On top of that my parents, ooh don’t even start. Last week I attempted with 15 prescribed pills (idk […]
why does no one love me? i want to feel liked and different from everyone else. i feel like im living the same day over and over again and nothing is changing. im still the aggrisive upset person that people know me as and i want things to change, but its just so hard, so bloody hard. i want someone who can lift my mood. someone who really enjoys my company and is interested in getting to know me. but its me thats blocking that, because im the same grumpy person i was 2 minutes ago, 2 months ago and 2 years ago. i need […]
I have been in a battle with myself for about 2 years. Ever since I was 9 my family has told me that I need to lose weight because im fat. Yeah a 9 year old should lose weight. I’m actually not fat at all but I’m still in a battle to lose weight. i strain myself to work out. I know what you’re thinking just find someone to talk to. Well guess what I don’t have anyone. My mom never listens to me when I try to talk to her about my day or something she completely tunes me out. She has some “mental […]
greetings,
well where do i start?
Im 17 and in my last year of school. i didnt know i would ever make it to year 12 but i have and this could possible be the worst year of my life. i feel tired all the time, i’ve began to cry over simple things like it being too hot while walking home. at night i think about how i could kill myself so i dont wake up thinking about how much im going to fail this year. everyone tells you year 12 is the most important year and at the moment i dont believe in myself […]
It’s 2 AM now in chile.. I just can’t sleep, these days I’ve haven’t sleep well. I noticed that I’ve been on 4 differents schools in the last 3 years.. and the last year and a half had made me the person I am. I just don’t get why i’m empty inside.. why smile its becoming harder or why I feel like I’m going mad.. I just can’t tell anybody what’s happening with me.. im just stucked in the centre of my life drawning my tears and showing me happy as usual am I.. nobody suspects that something is happening
I’m scared of keep like […]
I have what’s known as a Floating Support Worker, who I love dearly. He’s an Oxford graduate (Classics) in his early twenties, he’s doing a Masters in ‘Early Intervention in Psychosis’ at King’s College, London. He’s quite posh – he’s from Wales but has no trace of a Welsh accent. Super intelligent.
I told him I come here, and I told him that I was recently sent a free sample of (supposedly) ******** after an exchange of emails with some guy in India. I took a little just to test it. It tasted foul, but did make me a little groggy. Without a tester kit (you […]