My life is the worst. Whatever i do i feel sad. And the thing is that im not supposed to! I have a great family, good grades, going to a high school that is the best in town, i have friends, people sometimes think im interesting and many people would say that i look just like a regular teenager. But… even though i have all that im suicidal. The thing is that i can’t find any joy whatsoever in my life. I hate school, i hate every subject, i hate watching TV, i hate playing games, i hate my friends, i hate all people at my school, i hate my […]
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I consider myself very blessed. I have a good job, I am somewhat successful even though I am not wealthy. My family is did functional but who’s is not. For the last month I have been feeling down. I had a bad break up a while ago and I was doing fine, seeing other people and just having fun. But lately I cannot break free from this hold over me, I hardly eat I am easily angered and I lost interest in my hobbies. I feel as if I am lost in a crowd. I feel like I am doomed to loneliness for eternity. I […]
People think I’m happy, but I’m not. I never tell anyone about my feelings. So i just wanted to share my story here, and say what I don’t have courage to say to people around me.
Apparently, I have a really good life. I have a loving family and lots of friends who care about me. I’m shy but I always try to be nice and people tend to like me. I’m a university student and get good marks, I have a part-time job and I still have some time for my hobbies. The problem is, I’m not happy with that. I don’t know why I’m […]
Hello all,
I joined this site because I wanted to find an anonymous way of writing down what I felt over the last few years without causing anyone I know (especially myself) any more issues. The last thing I need is my mother committing me, she already thinks I’m in some real trouble psychologically.
I have more to be happy about now as opposed to when I was 25, but it seems as though things are worse than ever. I have a real job, and Iagave some hobbies I’m active in. I worked hard to accomplish that. But I’m consistently crushingly lonely. I can’t […]
August, 5th will be my 28th birthday. My previous deadline was my 30th birthday, but I just can’t wait that long. Now I’m struggling to wait even my 28th.
I can’t find a reason to go on. I don’t care anymore about my future or work or studying or hobbies. I thought that I could at least be useful to people with the same kind of problems, and that if I can’t help myself, helping them could be my purpose in life. But who the hell I’m going to help, I can’t get close to anyone.
I feel so hopelessly alone. I don’t have real […]
I feel so completely alone. I don’t see the point in living.
Almost all of my family is fucked up, they love me but they’re mostly alcoholics and/or deluded. I know my dad will miss me, I hate to do this to him. My mom will too, and I care about her but not enough. Neither of them are enough. I’m sorry.
My boyfriend and I are “taking a break”. But I know what the end result will be. He’ll probably find someone else better than me. I don’t think he cares about me anymore. We used to be so in love… I love him so much. […]
It started out small. I would feel sad and tired and utterly hopeless for a few hours, maybe one night at the most. I would self harm or cry myself to sleep or rant in my diary until 2 AM. The next morning I would tell myself that yesterday was “just a bad day” and that everyone had them once in a while, so it was totally normal.
I went from having a “bad day” once in a while, to having a “bad day” once a month, to having several “bad days” a month…and before I knew it, I’d become the person I am now. I […]
I have kind of an odd question.
First, let me preface that question with a little information. I have smoked on and off for the last three years. For the last year or so, it’s mostly been on. The reason I started was because I figured that it could replace some of my less-than-desirable hobbies (ie, cutting and burning myself). And surprisingly, it worked. That’s not to say I don’t still harm myself, but it’s definitely less often then before. I think it may be the combination of the calming effects of smoking and the fact that it is just a different (albiet long-term) means of […]
I’m catching the bus before the new year, but I’ve been keeping up with the posts and wondering. Many mention finding hobbies to stay busy. What’s the point of being alive if you’re just existing? Chasing down hobbies to keep your mind off of offing yourself doesn’t seem like a very fulfilling life. So out of curiosity…what’s the point?
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