I hate pretending like I’m okay when every little thing reminds me of you.
I feel like a horrible person because I’ve tried finding someone new.
I cry myself to sleep at night and I’m afraid to turn off the light…
I’m afraid that I’ll see you, I usually do…
I miss everything about you…
I miss your eyes so blue…
I miss your smile and the light in your eyes,
I miss the way we talked all night…
I miss how our hands, mine so small compared to yours, still fit perfectly together…
I miss how you seemed so excited, when you found out […]
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Horrible Person
I left alot of stupid posts on here but ignore them if you see them. If anyone on earth needs help at all or to talk to someone because they have no one on earth to talk to or ANYTHING and youre not a horrible person like if you need to call someone or email someone or ANYTHING i completely understand and I would help anyone who needed it just throwing that out there. I dont think anyone needs it but I realize that sometimes people do. Ive helped people before that I didn’t know. If anyone is in that situation I would help anyone […]
Sometimes I physically cannot talk, I build up words into something huge in my mind and I try to speak but just can’t at times. This usually happens when someone higher up in the social hierarchy of my school greets me, just a simple ‘hello’ pulls me into this panic and I try to reply and I open my mouth and I feel myself sweating and no sound comes out at all, even though the ‘hi’ is on the tip of my tongue and I know that it won’t matter in just a short while. It scares me because it’s rude not to smile and […]
I want to die, i hate my life my family is terrible my brother is crazy ,a thief and a horrible person, his purpose in life is to annoy people, and my sister makes me feel bad about everything you come home happy she opens her mouth you want to kill yourself, school is awful, the only reason i am going is because my parents abuse me and i can’t say no to them also my father won’t give me a dime so i have to go to sell people answers to tests, homework and exams so i can get enough change to combine into […]
My life has been so unhappy for the short time I’ve spent here. I was diagnosed with depression and PTSD when I was only sixteen. My high school experience was horrible. I remember starting high school, I was so happy, excited, full of life. I remember one day walking up the stairs talking to a friends and they asked me how I could smile all the time for no reason. I can’t even remember the last time I truly smiled. I had an amazing group of eight girl friends, we had been close since middle school, then everything changed when I started hanging out with […]
I went to my old high school today. It was awful. I arrived and I couldn’t find anyone for a while so I just decided to randomly walk around the building for a while. I got made fun of for wearing my sunglasses indoors by some random dude (really? REALLY???) who apparently thought I was ‘trying to be cool’ (in reality I was just really fucking stoned… how sheltered are these people?)… I eventually ran into an old teacher of mine who found one of my old friends and I went to sit with her and two other visitors (apparently, she’s really popular??). I was […]
Hi. I may seem like the average teenage girl, but I’m not. I may seem like the popular girl with a perfect life, but here’s what I really feel like. I’m a horrible person. In 9th grade, I had a best friend named Carly. She was funny, talented, and pretty. Then I started spacing myself from her and I hung out with the popular crew. Biggest. Mistake. Ever. They started bullying Carly. I didn’t do anything- I just stood there and watched it happen. They would harass Carly on websites such as Facebook, twitter, etc. Then, on December 19, she got sick of it
I don’t know what to do anymore. I feel so helpless and I feel like I can’t do anything right. No matter what I do, I feel like I’ve done it wrong. Does anyone else feel like this? It’s like I bully myself constantly — Whenever I make a mistake, I feel like a horrible person who doesn’t deserve to live. How can I learn to deal with my mistakes without feeling so badly about myself?
I just feel so tired and so worthless. I want to learn how to feel good about myself, without depending on the approval of others, but I just don’t know […]
All my parents do is make me feel like im not good enough. im sorry i cant be their perfect child. It’s hard trying to keep them happy.
My friends have all became distant. I sit alone on the bus and at lunch. None of them understand. I’ve tried telling them but they dont help. Only i can help myself, i understand that. but i dont know how. im lost.
I told my boyfriend my whole story once. the reason i started cutting. why im suicidal. why im always crying when he calls me late at night. I told him all of my secrets. He made me […]
Hi guys! How have you been? I have some good and then again some bad news… I have girlfriend : ) She is like all I ever wanted, and I couldn’t ask anything more when I have her by my side ♥ We have been together almost two months now, but we have secretly been in love with each other over half a year.. so we are happy that we can finaly be together now!
But there is one problem I haven’t talked with her about yet.. And it’s her ex. Her exgirlfriend, who died last year. I know that year is very very short time […]
I want to cry. I feel so horrible- yet so okay. But I’m not okay. I’m not happy. I’m a horrible person. I’m unhappy. I’m stupid. I’m worthless. I’m done.
Will tonight be the night I jump off that bridge? Will tonight be the night I run away? Will tonight be the night I finish myself off? Will tonight be the night I cut so deep that I bleed to death? I don’t know. But I hope so.
I don’t know why I feel like this- but I guess I do. I have so many questions.
Why me? When is it my turn to die? What’s my purpose?????? […]
I’m pretty sure I am mentally ill. I can’t explain exactly how I feel other than it hurts all the time. I’m just losing my mind. My wife of 11 years left me and I don’t know how to keep going. I know that I’m supposed to want to live for my kids but I can’t help feeling that they would be better off without me. Â I have been made out to be a horrible person, and maybe I am. Â I don’t know how to deal with how I feel and she didn’t either which is why we are apart. Â I just don’t see the […]
Today me and my boyfriend got in an argument. When mean things come out of his mouth it hurts me the most. Like I’m getting stabbed in the heart, and my throat starts to get a knot. He basically sad our relationship is shit, that he’s not happy and I’ve left him traumatized.
I know I’m not the best girlfriend but I don’t deserve to be told those things. I’m so upset he makes me feel so low, my life is already fucked up with other problems that I have. But I just want to leave this world. I hate myself. I hate everything I’m a horrible […]
I am tired of my life. I am tired of looking back at my past and looking into my forward. I have a feeling of complete hopeless. I have been suffering from depression for 7 years of my 20 year life. I am usually always depressed about one thing or another but sometimes my depression explodes and hurls me into a scary state of mind. I am currently in one of these states of mind. I have a ugly past and I have obscene tattoos that remind me of it daily. I wake up and wish my tattoos where gone but they are not they […]
I’m doing a project about suicide awareness in school and it bothers me how many people really don’t understand suicide and think that you must be stupid and a horrible person to attempt/commit.
You’re supposed to protect your best friend, right?
Make them feel better.
Help them get through the bad times.
But it can be pretty fucking hard to do sometimes.
At least, that’s what I tell myself. Im just absolutely ashamed of myself.
My best friend is dead.
I was supposed to protect him. Why couldnt I?!?!
They say God only gives you what he expects you can handle, but how am I supposed to deal with this? One of my best friends has cancer, and the other one is dead! God expects a fucking ton from me.
How could I let this happen? I let my friend slip through my fingers. He’s gone. and […]
I am ugly. I am fat. I am everything you say I am.
I am a btch. I am a slut. I am nothing compared to you.
I am stupid. I am horrible. I am worthless and a fat cow.
I am a horrible person. I hate myself and want to die.
All because you told me I was these things.
All because you bullied me. I can barely speak.
I have lost everyone. I believe it’s because
I am small.
No one would want a stupid btch like me.
No one would care if I died.
No one would mourn if I died.
No one would see me if I cried.
Everyone caused me to not […]
What the hell am I goiing to do next time I have eye surgery? What am I going to do when I’m badgered by my grandparents just because they care very little about anyone but themselves? I hate them to the point of murder. I nearly got locked away the other week because of that shit. Maybe I should go hang in their place just to fucking scare them, but unfortunately I won’t be coming back to witness their destruction from grieving over me.
But then I remember the fact that I have people who actually care about me. I guess I can get them to […]
I found myself revamping my suicide note without realising it. I had written one in summer last year, but it was horrible; I couldnt translate how I was feeling properly, and also write it so my family could understand.
I had a best friend Katie, she was suicidal at one point and I thought she was just looking for attention. Im one of those horrible people who dont believe things until I experience it myself, we’ll call it a learning curve.
I was horrible to her, I always have been; people who love me have always been my outlets…
Its a shame though because I really love her. […]
And as my pain settled over feeling lost, I started talking to my friend again. And I guess I got a bit pissed. I made her believe she hurt me 🙁 It hurt her and now she hates me xs
Why can’t I just deal with people the way I should ? Why do I always have to push away the people I care about. I’m a horrible person. I’m a horrible drunk, stoned, carving motherfuck. I hate myself. I hate myself. I hate myself!!! I deserve to die 🙁 and if it weren’t for other people I can’t betray like that, I would 🙁
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