By the end of my junior year and beginning of my senior year of high school so many things were going through my head. Also at that time my high school ex had broken up with me. So much confusion because she was my first love, we cared about each other tremendously, and she was all i could think about. But when she told me that she didnt want to be together any more it shattered me a bit. I played it cool for a few months, but just seeing her hurt even more. A year has passed and she graduated already. I remember visiting […]
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Hi, so this is my first post. I stumbled across this website when i was googling how to cope with this world that i hate so much, all the answers were bogus and I think that this website will maybe make me feel more alive? Basically I’m very sad with reason, i guess? I know that people have it so much worse than i do, but that doesn’t excuse the fact that i want to commit suicide or leave society, which would lead to me being picked up by a middle-aged psychedelic man looking to fume me with drugs.
I want to runaway, and i have […]
walking down cold halls stone of the underground
waxing the words strate out of my head the candel burns
the blood red pane in my forgoten sole
did i see this comeing a life of pane and hurt
was there a time i was happy
were my heart didunt explode in to fragments with the wakeing of the sun
was there ever a time were i was hear at all
was there a time were people looked at me full stop!
was there a time were i was saine!
was there a time were i was loved…
the world falls in to darkness and i with it fall
people try to fix me look in to […]
well lastnight whent… well when i landed it knocked all the wind out of me i gave one hell of a yelp should of kept my trap shut chould of bled out cos of my arm insted mum came out and you can just imagin how much she freeked out i feel so sorry for her thay wiped all the blood of my arm and bandaged it up couldent beare the imbarisment of a suicidel son how whould that efect them and there reputashion “oh my” takes the piss im not upset i didunt die any more im up set cos my mum and dad […]
It all begins with a scream, the scream of an innocent kid who was born in this life of sin .. that kid is me ” Ahmed Mansy”
and this is my story *well it’s not the whole story, i’m kinda bad in english so it’s a summary* , the story of my suicidal trip who was filled with good and bad days.
I grew up in my grandpa house because my parents got divorced when i was like 7 or 8 years i didn’t care or i didn’t know what’s happening i was just a little kid and everything was just too pure and lovely […]
I honestly believed I would never feel suicidal again or cut mysef, but lo and behold both started again today. Its been two years since I cut and 3 since my last suicide attempt. Also I was positive I would never feel like this because of a chick, but as im sure you can guess, that is the reason. It might be because I had to talk her down from suicide 3 nights ago. She just got “raped”, maybe(pathological liar), and i was the only one she wanted to talk to, I spent two nites with her just holding her. But we hadnt even seen […]
i am a type 1 diabetic who has scoliosis of the spine. I am actually allergic to insulin and it is extremely painful to take also i have my back condition which causes me severe pain. I am 16 years old but i have suicidal thoughts everyday i have attempted to commit suicide numerous times but stopped at the last minute the only thing that stops me is the pain i feel in that moment. I self harm alot as it stops the thoughts for just a second, i break my bones now.I used to abuse my diabetes as its the easiest way to cause […]
Love makes my life horrific, I’m an Indian, I didn’t get love from my family when I’m younger it’s becaz of my father domination & I couldn’t able to tell to my father anything, I spent my childhood in my grand ma home, after death of my grandfather i came to my father’s home age of 13, upto that time I spent a silent life, after reaching my home suddenly it became violent, so I thought to have a love life but unfortunately I didn’t get that too instead of love i was been cheated twice.
I can’t able to tolerate the pain so long, this […]
so im socially awkward and im losing friends left and right,, im probly gonna die in a few months when i save up for a gun ..i lods my girlfriend of three years had to move out of her place (now shes a heroine addict) i was recently told by a pscycologist from my town that i fit the symtoms of adhd innattentive…which makes so much sense but im 24 now i feel like my life is ruined..i cant pay attention in conversation so now i avoid everyone…im afraid the doctor will think that im just out for drugs to sell..this is my last shot […]
I’m an 19 year old boy who goes to college. I cant complain about my professional life. However, my social and specially my sentimental life is a mess…
Every girl i ever loved rejects me. I was bullied during my childwood so my self esteem never was very high, but all these rejections are turning it into a whole lower level.
When i entered college i said to myself that i will never fall in love during that time. that i was there only to learn and have fun. That promise didnt last more than a couple of months. i met this wonderful girl, a tiny little […]
well, mhh, lets get this started, im 22 yo male and i have been trought depresion since i was 15 yeah this have been very hard 7 years, im not goig to give details about that because if you are here you may know how i feel rigth now, the fact is that im a transgender, so yes im kind of a girl in the body of a boy and i have knew since i was 12 that is like the age when you can ge treatment and stuff to “solve” that trouble so rigth now im in a dead end i can either become […]
Being 17 is such a crap age, so full of anger and hate towards everyone. People always ask me why i’m so angry, i can never explain why because i don’t know where all my anger came from. I blame my parents!
I’m have no idea what i want to say here, all i know is that i wanna write stuff down because i’m sick of making the most important person in my life feel like he has to help me deal with my past and problems, it’s not fair on him!
Anyway, I think i’m just going to list a bunch of things from my past […]
hi i guess , im new here , i guess im will tell you my story , sorry if this gets boring. im here because i needed something to let out everything thats bottled up in side of me . i dont have a sad story and people may think that why do i do this because i havent gone through enough , i havent been bullied or abused or any strong like that. ive been self harming for about 1 and a half years , the reason is because im in love , i cant have him , he is my best friend , […]
My ex boyfriend raped me coming close to 2 years ago.
I haven’t told the police because its just so complicated as i was still going out with him after it happened
Now, i just don’t know if its worth going to the police for.. anyone help?
i waited,
and waited.
for a day i would be picked.
for a day i could play with my friends.
but the day never came.
and when they all left.
i was left alone,
with only my shadow to fight.
A sharpener,
will hurt
a little lesser
than
this loneliness.
-brokenprincessteen
i was doing great, my life was going in the right direction just got a new job, i was moving up in the world but of course the universe had to laugh in my face and take away one of the things that mattered the most in my life. 2 weeks ago my best friend and i had a difficult talk. long story short she told me that we couldn’t be friends any more because it would be better for both of us and it would save us a headache in the long run. its funny how when you think your life is great it […]
I’ve been gone for a while. i was better, or i thought i was better. i guess not. i went to training this summer to be a camp counsellor. i met so many friends and i stopped self harming. i was happy for the first time in years. but now, it’s suddenly hit down like a pile of bricks and i dont even have the energy to leave the house or talk to anyone. i have absolutely nobody to talk to and no friends left who care. i started cutting again. i feel so completely alone and this crushing feeling of sadness won’t go away. […]
I met her on this thursday … My best friend and my friends given me suprise by taking her at my home … when i seen her , i get shocked. I was too happy and excited when i seen her , it was just like i get my breath, i get my life… i cant tell how much i was happy…. And then she ran to me and hugged me tightly.. i just get another big shocked… it was like i get my life ,i get my everything…. and then i hugged her tightly…. and holded her hands …. we were walking together by […]
Hey. Here goes.I did not want to talk about this to anyone ,because in my family no one understands ,its just the way they look at me when i try to talk to someone.Its that look ,when u feel,people are listening just because they have to,not because they want to… I was born in a family with rooted alcoholism.My mothers father was a heavyweight drinker and so was my father.So the fights,physical and psychological were on daily bases.I started to develop this person in my own world.i used to lock myself in my room,put my headphones on and got lost in music.I was talented musician.In […]
I guess most people here have a reason to be depressive, either their hard childhood or a disease or whatsoever.
I was bullied all trough highschool and all but after highschool life was pretty good, from abou 16 to 19 my life was somewhat normal, had lots of relationship and sex, i was passionate i had friends, all that jazz, but then came hypothyrodism and it just went downhill from there and now im almost 25 and its been a damn hard ride with about 10% good time and 90% horrible aching depressing inside pain. For a while the huge amount of hair loss from thyroid […]