I’ve found self-confidence through the military, but the depression is getting to me. I need to get out of the army, last 3 more weeks, but I keep making mistakes. I keep falling down. I need to go home, the sergeant hates me now. He thinks I’m an idiot and I’m messing up because I can’t handle the stress. I don’t want to tell him because I’ll be stuck here longer. I just need to wait it out and get home safely.
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So friendship is something we all have and go through the laughs the vets the betrayal. So why is it that me being an idiot doesn’t want to get close Im afraid of getting betrayed and hurt. OS that just me when I’m in a friendship or do you guys and girls have it too. I don’t want to feel like I’m the only one who pushes people away when they try and get near to you.
This life, which had been the tomb of his virtue and of his honour, is but a walking shadow; a poor player, that struts and frets his hour upon the stage, and then is heard no more: it is a tale told by an idiot, full of sound and fury, signifying nothing.
William Shakespeare
It rained here in Colorado. Only for a bit, but for those few minutes, I was actually happy. Everyone looked sad, and I stood out in the rain grinning like an idiot. Rain smells good.
I can’t take it anymore. How can I be such an idiot. I let the love of my life use me and take advantage of me once again. After a year. Of him running back and not knowing what he wants, and me somehow always being there for him anyways. How can he so this to me. I never felt such pain from one guy. i love him, Â but all he does it throw me around and take me for granted. When will he realize one day I’m really gonna be gone and I won’t be there to fall for his games anymore. Where is […]
What is a “life”, because this constant state of nothing in which I live in cannot surely be qualified as a life. Every single day I wake up and I wish to enter an eternal sleep. I am not quite sure whether or not I truly want to die, but I most certainly know that I do not want to live. If I could just enter a state of unconsciousness until I was ready to either make my decision, and off myself, or to continue living, then things would seem better. I have attempted suicide in the past, only to fail, or to have someone […]
I’ve felt this way for a long time. It rings true in my mind, everytime I think it: I’m a real asshole.
I don’t have any friends. Well, besides my sister, I guess. (I feel lucky to have her.) The flat out truth is, I am just awful with people. I’m wildly insecure and have a huge inferiority complex, so I constantly say things to piss people off or hurt their feelings. I’ve tried stopping, but then loneliness takes over, and the realization that nobody likes me. So I lash out at people, resentful that they […]
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