We dated for awhile then we were just friends things got messed up we hurt each other helped each other we met on here and you’ve been wanting to die just like I before we ever met I think. You really did it this time and i hope you didn’t im crying so hard I know you were in so much pain and I couldn’t fix you I tried so fucking hard and you even said you can’t be fixed I love you I hope you’re feeling peace for once
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why do i feel so bad? my life is perfect so why do i want to see all the pain ooze out of my wrists? i love my girlfriend and shes why im alive, yet i beg for the feeling of not feeling anything. should i man up an live with it and keep it hidden or tell her my pain? why do they tell you it will all be ok when you get help? that the magic pills will save you? that the people will remember and continue to care when they eventually forget? why?
Sometimes I really wish to disappear for a while
I feel so lonely . Not really that I have no friends
its that I think no one will devote all of them for me
i am willing to prepare and spend a lot of effort for my beloved ones . But I just think no one will do the same for me
no one will actually treasure me and put me as their priority
I have bff and bf . But I’m just confused of my importance to them
Also I got a lot of stress from my schoolworks
im going to take the public examination and I have to work extremely […]
Reality sucks, Reality suck, Reality boring, I hate Reality, boring Reality, Reality is boring !
by niki
written by niki
Reality is boring & LIMITED !! I hate Reality ! boring Reality !
Real life is boring & LIMITED !! I hate real life ! boring real life !
Real world is boring & LIMITED !! I hate real world ! boring real world !
I also hate this life, I hate people / humans (well.. MOST/90% of them), I hate reality, I hate this world.
its very BORING !! and especially nowadays become ONLY very materialistic, money / profits driven only, all about money, money, money, & image, image, image! ; it’s very superficial, shallow, and mundane boring!
Why movies, video games, comics, books, novels, anime/manga, […]
Ever feel like everything would be okay if you could just climb out of your skin and be the person you were meant to be? I think that I would have been an okay person. Not a Nobel Prize winner, but okay. I’m tired of pretending that I’m okay, tired of wondering what people would think if they knew what was really in my head. My husband deserves a better wife, and my son deserves a better mother, they deserve that person i could have been.
I’ve tried explaining the intrusive thoughts from OCD to someone, they made some awkward joke about OCD and […]
my life is boring.their is no hope to live the life the way i wanted.i haven’t done nothing which i like in my life.i gave up my career. their is no hope to live. im ending my life. this is my best decision in my life.
first time on here im a 17 year old guy about to fail high school with depression and a suicide attempt i used to cut and i saw some lose the battle but im still going, but im getting weak and i dont think if i fall one more time i will be able to get up. im alone in this world and i want to leave it.
Today I found out for sure that my girlfriend was cheating on me.
I have battled depression in the past, sadly each time it seems to centre around a female. I am now 23, 24 in a bit more than a week. I guess I will start.. at the start…
I was only 14 or 15 at the time. This beautiful girl at my school had started talking to me, I had a crush on her long before but I was never really the one to say anything. I was Year 10 and she was Year 8. I was pretty young but this girl had taken me […]
The urge and pain is back. My only way out would be to hang myself (good thing there’s trees around), but im broke right now and I can’t buy the rope. I used to have some, but my parents found it while snooping through my room and they threw it away. I honestly feel like these are my last days on Earth
I guess my problem has always been loneliness… been at school all day, then i did some sports and… still. I literally have like 2 hours of alone time and i cannot stand it. I feel like im losing my friends. My ex-girlfriend wants to get back together, told me her friend told her to break up with me. As much as I still like her, I cant do that. I was clean from porn for three months and now… one day. Shit is falling apart.
School is like literally stressing me out and making me feel alone and depressed. I’m not gonna graduate High School, im about a semester behind, my counselor said it already, maybe there is hope for me to graduate, she said, maybe. I’m wasn’t born in the U.S. and I got all the permits from the Dream Act and if I don’t graduate, then they’ll strip them away and throw me back to the country I was born in, although, I was born in Mexico, The U.S. is my home, I was raised here, I came here when I was 4, im 16 now (17 in […]
well i think my best “friend” i think hes gonna tell everyone that im “gay but im not gay im bi so yea i will lose a lot of friends ???? i hope everything goes well i will only give 1 day tommorow monday to see how people will react
if they hate me oh well ill just kill my self and then ill haunt them maybe…. Middle school changed me i now where only kind of dark collors i hate it yeah help me
HELP ME
HELLPPP MEEEE
-brian mejia r.
I think my friend just found out that i liked men but he is homophobic and he was my frien since 3ed grade im in 8th grade now fuck im going to suicide now everything is ruin hes a snitch i fucking dont care if i go to hell anymore im done byee untill i see a good reason to live
than bye
I want to die. Everyday, the people closest to me convince me that im worthless and I can never do anything right. Today was the closest I’ve been to killing myself. About to step off and hang from the rope in my basement, I couldn’t commit. I don’t have the guts to end my suffering and save everyone from the troubles of dealing with my now hollow, angry, and hopeless persona. I dont remember the last time I was happy, I can’t even laugh anymore. I keep trying to end my sadness, however in vain my attempts. I know I will meet my end soon. […]
So im 18, I know what everyone will say, you still have so much to live for. Well honestly I dont, my life is so fucking shit. Im seen as unattractive and stupid, I feel so alone all the time. I used to have confidence and talk to girls, but I got regected countless times. There is no one out there who actually appreciates me. So there was this one girl who I thought was perfect, we talked about everything. When somehow I managed to screw that up as well. Sucide is something ive comtemplated way to much for my age. If life doesn’t improve […]
Why is we need to feel happy infront of?? We dont if we feel like there is no happiness then there isnt being in that black hole again is utter shit it makes you feel utter shit and i remember saying shit like “im never gonna be in that black hole again” or “depression dont take over you” but in reality it does and it will never go away and even though we can be happy there is always that feeling inside that tells us that we shouldnt be and that everythings my fault i hate it especially when friends arent there for you when […]
people in school thinks im the happiest girl in the world, but honestly, i am not. at home, i am the reckless one. i have 4 siblings. i’m the middle child. all of them feels so loved and appreciated while im here picking up all the hand me downs and the things left for me. i am always the “target” of my mom. when my big brother fails a quiz, she doesn’t get mad at him, but instead she supports him and allow him to party anytime he wants and gives him anything he wants. same goes to my sister and brothers. me? she scolds […]
just tired of the suffering, when does it end? im tired of doing all of the exhausting, tedious stuff every day just so i can continue to be alive and struggle. my logical mind tells me that if I pass then my pain will be gone. as long as i live, i will struggle and suffer. i just gotta be realistic. the only true way to END the pain for good is to be no more. im tired of the continued suffering . it hasnt gotten better. its stayed the same or gotten worse actually,, definitely feeling ready to leave as soon as possible. […]
I think sometimes in life you take the path that seems the most daring and obvious to you, but sometimes that path isnt the right one. For me it was the art path, since i was 16 i dreamed of being a great artist someday, i worked my ass off for years, putting aside friends,health and everything else, because everyone knows usually if you want to succeed and have a living in art you either need incredible luck or work your ass off everyday. Well i chose not to rely on luck and work my ass off, and even then, it wasnt enough. After almost […]
So my ex boyfriend and me.have been talking. He always says he likes me and really wants to be with my but he pisses me off and I deny him. So yesterday I told him about my depression and he comforted me and even offered to bring a screwdriver to me because I couldnt get the screw out of my.pencil sharpner for the blade. He encouraged my cutting and now he got mad at me for asking him if he liked me so much why did he talk to other girls. He got pissed and now im.scared hell tell everyone at school about my depression […]