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Need help want to die while still being able to donate my organs

by DC00 8/2/2014

written by DC00

I’ve decided life really isn’t worth living, and want to die. I want to commit suicide while still being able to use my organs for donation, so I can at least save a few lives in the process. The problem is if I die and no one finds me right away then my organs will be no good. Also I read death by cardiac arrest as opposed to brain death will make it so my organs will be unable to be used. I figure since I’m going this route if I can do some good and save a few people in the process it would […]

8/2/2014 2 comments

Insomnia

by self tormented 8/2/2014

written by self tormented

My brain won’t stop dancing amongst the putrid errors my fucked up self has made in the past. Like ever, seriously.

8/2/2014 3 comments

My Story

by SamL 8/2/2014

written by SamL

It all started with a party/camping trip. I got invited just because I was best friends with one of the “popular” girls. When I got there it was great, I mean there was alcohol and drugs there and I got pressured into drinking and smoking but it was okay for a while. Soon after awhile I was finding myself talking to a boy who I wasn’t really interested in knowing one of the girls (I’ll call her Kayla) there was trying to get with him. With everyone drunk, high, and my flirty personality it looked like I was trying to hook up with him. (Which […]

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Emotional Monster in the Mirror (poem)

by insecure angel 8/2/2014

written by insecure angel

This is all my words. Here it goes hope you enjoy…

I’m drowning in the darkness of my bloody lost soul
freezing and falling through this endless black hole
I can feel it all my blood is raining and the knife is sawing
but none of this will help the frostbite in my mind start thawing

I feel forzen isolated broken and alone as my depression leaks from parts unknown
Maybe from my slit wrists deep down to the bone
cuts and scars on my body never to be shown

So insecure and emotional it makes me cry
To the point where I lay in bed and pray […]

8/2/2014 5 comments

Haunting Nightmares

by Halfmoon 7/31/2014

written by Halfmoon

I woke up at 3:30 am jolted out of a sleep. All I could see was my boyfriend stabbing himself in the arms, blood splatter, tears rolling down his face. All of this because he loves me . A bad fight because I don’t trust him– a recovering drug addict who promised rehab but bailed and never went. I feel guilty, helpless. Was told to practice tough love and to cut the codependent role. The codependent in me feels responsible for what he did. The tough-love person feels manipulated. Regardless of those two opposing forces, he entirely blames me for driving him to kill […]

7/31/2014 3 comments

suicide

by suicidal.bunny 7/31/2014

written by suicidal.bunny

theres just no point in living.. i dont wake up in the morning and thin “hmm what a great day!” I hate my life i really do. and nobody seems to see it. i just want to go somewhere and cry forever because thats the only thing I seem to be doing now. crying. i just want to get in a car and flip ten times.. i wish that would happen.

7/31/2014 2 comments

Today is just like the rest

by Infectious208 7/31/2014

written by Infectious208

Yet another day that I woke up alone. No missed texts or calls from anyone. No one to talk to except my personal demons telling me your not worthy of experiencing this day. Just the same mundane routine that plagues me every day. Wake up exhausted because I cant sleep well anymore. Its 6 am. I hit snooze hoping an extra 5 minutes will make me feel a little better yet I never seem to be able to take that extra 5 minutes. Its like a tease.

Stand in the shower looking at the cuts on my arm and crying wishing I could smell her cooking breakfast again and […]

7/31/2014 3 comments

Applied structure in the void

by Moro D 7/31/2014

written by Moro D

Well, people have to start somewhere i guess. Some way to speak, say something in this place. For a long time now (not sure how much anymore, months for sure, years probably) i have only one clear thought in my mind – dying. Any way, any how. I came to the point in life when i realized i’m broken without any way to repair my remaining time. Will state right away that it has been more then strange journey for me, full of sickness, suffering and violence, both in mental and physical way.

I’m 30 in couple months, but feel like i’m ancient. I live in […]

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Am I the only one?

by RagingPeace 7/31/2014

written by RagingPeace

Is anyone out there in the same boat as me?

26 years old

I’m unemployed now for about 1.5 years

I can’t afford the repayments on my unit

I’m fat

I’m ugly

I’ve not a cent to my name

Oh, yes, and I don’t have a drivers licence

I’d just like to know if there is anyone going through the same thing. I guess it feels good to know you are not alone. I don’t know.

7/31/2014 2 comments

The search for a point

by RaM1698 7/30/2014

written by RaM1698

Who am I?

I am close to 30, I am employed, I am appreciated at work, I love my mother, I have a somewhat understandable relationship with my father, I have 8 brothers and sisters, I have some friends, I had girlfriends in the past, I have a future.

From the age of 15 I felt weary of life, having a photographic memory and an IQ of 155, I know I can be whoever I want and do whatever I want. I excel in everything I put my mind to, but at the end of the day the only thing I wish for is to put a […]

7/30/2014 12 comments

Just a bland rant

by maggiemac 7/30/2014

written by maggiemac

I’m a basic white girl who cuts herself. Or rather, I did. Ever since I got put on zoloft in January after my parents found out I sh’d, my life has steadily improved and I have strengthened my relationships with friends and even my family. I no longer wallow in my own sadness or make suicide plans.

I miss it. I miss being depressed so much. I don’t know why; I never got any special attention while I was down in the dumps and I barely had any friends. I consider myself happiest when I’m unhappy. It’s stupid and ridiculous and feels selfish. But I just […]

7/30/2014 2 comments

Where I come from

by Thatothersmightlive 7/30/2014

written by Thatothersmightlive

Finally a site where I can be honest and tell the truth. So where did I come from? From about age 13 or so under the influence of some great adult leaders I got into helping people especially in the area of health care.

Whether it was in my early age with the first aid and CPR card, until the 30 years that I’ve been licensed as a paramedic and respiratory therapist I did my best for everyone. I don’t know if it was the adrenaline rush or just the pure joy of seeing someone get better or comforted at their time of death I was […]

7/30/2014 2 comments

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by cassie janssen 7/30/2014

written by cassie janssen

hi i guess , im new here , i guess im will tell you my story , sorry if this gets boring. im here because i needed something to let out everything thats bottled up in side of me . i dont have a sad story and people may think that why do i do this because i havent gone through enough , i havent been bullied or abused or any strong like that. ive been self harming for about 1 and a half years , the reason is because im in love , i cant have him , he is my best friend , […]

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7/30/2014 2 comments

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Why do people fear death?

by bornfordying123 7/30/2014

written by bornfordying123

It’s because all the evidence points to there being nothing after death, just an endless state of nothingness, not even unconsciousness, just nihil. Not even blackness, not even a thought, an absence of anything, thought, processes, colour or anything, no heaven, no hell, just an eternity of nothingness, not even darkness, just. nil. And most rational human beings know that no matter how loudly they pray or claim they believe in the magnificent sky fairy it doesn’t change the evidence one bit. Or alter the reality, that there is nothing beyond. And people find that hard to deal with. Myself included.

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7/30/2014 2 comments

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The Way I Feel

by dbrowmm 7/29/2014

written by dbrowmm

I can see it in the dull yellow streetlights glaring off the sidewalk at night, and I can smell it in the exhaust fumes from passing cars

I can see it in my parents’ creased faces, and I can see it behind my friends’ glassy eyes

Despair

Desperation

Abandonment

Loss of hope.

I’ll run from it until I’ve taken another hit, until I’ve taken another shot, until I can’t be any more numb than I already am

But it’s always lurking right around the corner

Despair

Desperation

Abandonment

Loss of hope.

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7/29/2014 2 comments

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Fucking life

by wanderlustnebula 7/29/2014

written by wanderlustnebula

I hate my life right now and the fact that my mother is always on my back isn’t helping me. ”get a job” ”pick your ass up and go outside” ”you lazy ass” ”what are you afraid of, people??” ”why’d you quit college in the first place for ?? ” ”it isn’t that hard” ”quit the drama”

Well you know what ?? FUCK. YOU. you selfish, ignorant, mean *****. she has been depressed, she should know better than to treat me like that. I am so anxious about turning 18 next month, and her comments aren’t making things easier for me. I KNOW i need a […]

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7/29/2014 2 comments

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Numb pain

by marcusallan 7/29/2014

written by marcusallan

How can I feel so numb from everything an everyone yet still be in so much pain. So much. I just want out, I’m honestly tryna make it work but then I wake up in the morning and it all repeats. At least I’ve still got my plan, I hope I wont need it but I know I will.

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7/29/2014 1 comment

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Feelin…..

by PeelASquid 7/28/2014

written by PeelASquid

I just wrote this for someone…….mainly how they see things looking out to the world…..

Storm in the sky,
Storm in my head.
Layin and cryin,
Tears soaking the bed.
Feelin the pressure,
Feelin the pain.
Heartache and suffering,
Call out my name.
I want to be loved,
Need someone to care.
Cant do this alone,
I need someone there.
Why so much rage,
Why so much hate.
Self destructing,
It seems it can’t wait.
Consumed by my feelings,
Consumed with the guilt.
The pain and the suffering,
Upon my life it was built.
But someone loves me,
I know that they do.
I know who […]

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Again; again

by whyme336 7/28/2014

written by whyme336

Here I am writing again.
Trying again.
Feeling pain again.
Suicidal again.
Hearing voices again.
Everything is happening again.
How can I stop it again.
Is it possible again.
Will I end up in the hospital again.
Will I ever be okay again.

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7/28/2014 1 comment

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Running out of options

by Rsguy3 7/28/2014

written by Rsguy3

I’ve thought it about for a long time and I’ve decided that I do want to end it. The problem is finding a method that is feasible for me and also reliable. I don’t have access to massive amounts of sleeping pills (and that doesn’t seem to work either). A helium bag seems like the next option but I don’t know where to purchase the materials. Hanging is impossible in the dorm I’m in. The only sure way is by shooting myself but I can’t find a place to purchase a gun. I read a post by another college student on here who said he […]

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7/28/2014 4 comments

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