It’s 2014 and I can’t say I feel anything “new” about it. These days, which fly by ridiculously fast, a new year really signifies how much I still haven’t done or accomplished. Every year I make it to the next day, I begin to see the clouds in the sky that used to be a bright, beautiful blue during the day. At night, the clouds still appear overhead, instead of the bright, shiny stars I once thought to shoot for over long distances. Over three decades or so on this planet, and I would assume by now I would have more clarity in my perspective of this world, as […]
I stare unto the line between
The earth and sun’s effulgent gleam
light teeters through the curve of space
cascading to the floor with grace
vibrant tails and tongues of breath
lap up the stains of ancient death
whose darkness in the woods recede
as dawn begins to slowly bleed
O God, the chime of aubades cry
and sear the clouds and burnished skies
their luster thrown upon the ground
in waves congruous with morning’s sound
And thus a day is born anew
but still I am in love with you
O pity angel from above
whose wings beat softly, like a dove’s
O make birds […]
Im writing this letter for me to get my thoughts and feelings out… the person this is meant for will never see this, will never know i wrote this, will never care i wrote this.
Dear abselom,
what can i say we’ve been through alot together. I was there for you when you wanted to end your life. I held you when you cried, i cried with you for you. I tried to make you smile when you were low. I was always by your side i tried the best i could to take your pain away. Then i broke. I was hurting and i finally told […]
So i decided i shall share my story with you all even though how difficult it is because i can never put words to how i feel or what i’m experiencing. So please bare with me..
NOTE: Some parts of my story may be a bit shocking to read but this isn’t a “feel sorry for me” post just so you all know a bit about my back ground but i wont go into detail as this is a bit personal for me.
Well i was a happy outgoing kid i had a wonderful childhood i lived out near the beach and i went to a lovely […]
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Sunlight creeps in through the gaps in the window blinds, covering the room in alternating strips of brilliant radiance and undefined shadow. It bares resemblance to this life. Fulgent memories of pain and suffering, with unremarkable and colorless […]
Life : A race with the speed of light to the stop sign at the end of the street
Ashes to ashes, dust to dust, don’t stand still now or you’ll start to rust
You don’t know how to cope, as this cognizance becomes a curse
Introspectively trying to assign worth to this existence
You find your only desire, is to set this soul afire
Breathing in smoke from the great blaze
Everything else, starts to fade
Pain,heartache
L
I
F
E
Now gone
Now all that’s left
Is the […]
Tommorow i have a christmas party, at school.
Its suppose to be 75 degrees outside
While everyone else is wearing short sleeved shirts and capris.
Ill be wearking my skinney jeans and long sleeves.
With such fresh cuts as deep as mine
I’ll keep them to my self
Because their mine
Here goes another day living in the life of me…
14 supposedly a beauty queen
Finally in her teens
Always out there causing a scene
Skipping meals to finally become lean
Wishing she could be truly seen
Here it goes in the life of me..
My mouth is as dry as the pavement in July.
Hair soaking wet fist clinched at my sides
somehow I know this is going to end in a fight.
She takes the first swing a shot at my pride.
If there’s one thing I know I’ve got to survive.
I have to tell this story I cant simply let it be!
And let it fade away lost with apart of me.
I won’t yell for help even though I know i should.
Because if I did I’d be misunderstood.
See this wouldn’t be easy to explain.
Why do I stand alone in the rain?
The answer is simple and hard to hide.
Because the person I fight
Lies […]
Even though the sun shines bright today, even though life truly is wonderful this day, at this moment, I can never forget the life of suffering ahead of me and I can never forget the suffering that brought me here, because the moment I do, all my efforts and my desire to end my own life will have been nothing but shallow delusions, things just felt in the moment and not profound at all. No matter what, I will hold on this feeling. Never to let go.
The Thirt Word was “Hum,”
Caught by straining ears
As I softly release
Your trembling arms…
A chain made of halos from fallen angels binds me to the darkness
An existence subdued by the malignance that stalks from within
The pain envelops me, wringing out these last few drops of hope
Unspoken torment feasts on the binding of my soul
Shadows lurking in the corners of my mind, undetected, waiting for my weakest moment
The assault, like a flame to paper, is instant and unforgiving
That bright flicker soon gives way to the smoking ash of defeat
The remnants of my rumination scatter in the wind
The ghost of a breath, […]
I am not looking for sympathy nor am I looking for it but there was a quote I wrote and this story explains it… I just want people to understand where the quote came from…
Quote:
“My head is banging, my brain complaining, my body hurting, my thoughts are roaring. Pain is all there is. My life is tumbling my emotions are mumbling… God please help me. I don’t know what to do… my fears are living, taking over me. My mouth is tumbling as I try to say goodbye… but, my body can’t take the pressure as the words goodbye slipped from my mouth. You […]
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