Ok loves, this article contains many swear words, so if you don’t like swear words, please stay away from this lol. This article is about letting go of the little things in life that drag us down: our insecurities, bullies, dropping your bag of groceries in the middle of the road, etc. http://markmanson.net/not-giving-a-fuck
I quit my job thinking i would be able to make something for myself. of myself. that i would be able to use what i create to support myself. now i see. i cant do this. i cant cope with being alone with my thoughts. i was just on another fucking high. and now i have crashed. i wish i could really see this up down fucking bollocks for what it is… it’s so obvious when i’m coming down, but every time i come up i genuinely believe that this time its forever, everything is better, everything is good. its bullshit. i ALWAYS fall back […]
To start, I’d like to state I do not believe in the existence of Heaven & Hell. I feel it is too simple, -even too human or physical (if that makes sense). When it comes to theories, I tend to pay attention to those who experience or have experienced Near-Death Experiences (or NDEs). Experiencing the sensation of leaving one’s body, experiencing a feeling of being loved or cared for/not alone. But most of all, that everyone’s experience is different & unique to the individual soul.
With that said, I have been thinking about suicide (on and off) for a couple of months due to prolonged severe […]
So in short my ex chose weed over me. Abused me. Made me feel me feel worthless, I got diagnosed with Depression, Anxiety, Social Anxiety and anorexia. I’ve been in and out of hospital 7 times in the last 6 months because of 2 suicide attempts and the rest for not eating. I’m scared of living so I want to die. I just haven’t succeeded yet. I don’t see my life going anywhere but down. I’ve been on anti depressants for 3 months and recently came off them. I drink to forget who I am and wake up not knowing where I am. I’m a […]
I’m currently a sophomore in high school. I have a few great friends. But ever since high school started, I’ve gotten extremely tired. I’ve always possessed a hatred for school. Not that I hate learning or anything of that nature, I love learning. Right now I’m participating in a rigorous educational program (IB Programme) at the top of my class. I perform exceptionally well on exams and assessments, usually with little studying or review, if any at all. I turn most of my assignments in on time, but the workload is immense. It does stress me out, just like it does all of my peers, but it doesn’t help […]
I always have to ask myself are you crazy ? Whats wrong with you ? i wish i was able to answer myself but im so ashamed . sometimes i dont even wanna loook at myself in the mirror & my family is worried because im isolating myself but its just something thats pushing me away . They tell me to talk and express myself but when i do they correct me & tell me thats not how i feel ! i mean wouldnt you be tired of life , especially after you lost everything & basically your soul to !
Can I start off by asking why? Why did we ever use such a convoluted statement like this? Of course it probably stems from the long held belief that love comes from the heart, so heartbreak must reside there as well. I beg to disagree, heartbreak is not coming from one aspect of your life, it’s from everywhere. You feel it in the very depths of your soul. You can’t walk around without seeing something that reminds you of them. God, it sucks so much to be so alone. I won’t say I love this girl, no that’d be overreacting, also it’d scare the hell […]
The concept is to experience the lives of people who are suffering and trying to find the peaceful pill. It’s suppose to be a positive propaganda game with a deep meaning. A first person adventure, perferrably on a VR Headset.
You get to choose your own adventure based on your own personal experience – you can choose a mode were your severely depressed to the point that’s untreatable (this is were you break out of the psyche ward), a terminally ill individual who is in severe pain, a doctor trying to obtain it for his patient who wants to end there own lives, or trying to […]
Life has fucked me over again, but this time it’s payback time.
First thing tomorrow, I’m getting hold of some booze and dope, heading to the train tracks and jumping in front of the first hi-speed train that comes my way. Yeah, it’s gonna be hard on the guy running the train and people who will notice, but I don’t give a fuck anymore. Call me selfish, because maybe I am… All I know is I WILL do it, whatever it takes and no matter who I hurt in the process…
I got no one to say goodbye to without getting locked away in some psych ward, […]
You said you was working on learning how to do 2D video games. I’m guessing there sidescrolling ones like Mario right? That would be awesome. A 2D side scrolling game collaboration would be perfect.
I got this video game concept called Opposites Attack which will turn traditional gameplay on its head – a place were objects such as coins, places you would think are safe to walk on will actually kill you. In this game, if you hit a coin, walk on land, etc you will die. In this game you will have to walk on spikes, lava, jump though fireballs etc. I got so many […]
Do you guys also drive sometimes to be alone, and think. I found myself doing it alot in the last year sometimes I drove 2 hours, sometimes more sometimes less. It was quite expensive, but I had enough money to pay for it, so there wasnt a good reason for me to stop it. I always listen to music and my windows are always rolled down. I was just wonderin if a lot of people around here are doing it?
Pretty soon the time is coming for me to leave. I began doing things to ensure that I will lead a peaceful life ahead. I deleted all useless photos, chats and notes. I am spending the last six weeks breaking every bond I have with another human being. For all traces to be removed, and there will not be a single hint as to my existence in the light. I am not popular so no one will care when I’m gone. I don’t have friends or loved ones here so one will be sad. No party is needed because no one will attend. No goodbyes […]
It was a beautiful midwestern night, the stars shining in the sky like they only do in the country. The weather outside is unpredictable, as it always is here. A night that almost shakes with opportunity. A poor boy shares the time with his best friend. This night she is working, but he’s there talking to her anyways. They chat as easily as they always have, but something’s different tonight.
I’m not sure she notices that so much has changed, the way I look at her, the way my heart’s beating of my chest just being near her. All the small things, oh Christ. Just […]
Imagine if you will a dark room painted with light and shadow. Objects stand in various positions casting different images, but something is wrong. Shouldn’t the light cast the shadows? No, instead in this case, the Shadows are casting light. The objects, enveloped in the deep black have somehow determined to paint it with some sort of luminescence. But this imaginary construct does not exist, in fact, beyond being impossible, it is metaphorically maddening. Yet, this is the image of myself , of the tears , that fade into black , because they are themselves black , they are the blood of the world that […]
I guess I’ll call the genre a Nihilistic Psychological/Survival Horror game. My goal was to create the darkest, scariest, most depressing and psychologically disturbing game ever conceived. Also the game will monitor your heart rate so when it goes up to much…you die. I got the game story achieved on Microsoft word on but it’s on my PC. I’ll write from memory.
You wake up as a naked female (or male) in a dirty bed and room with your memory erased. There is notes in the first room giving you directions on what to do to escape. There is also pictures of you and your family. […]
There is, and always has been two worlds, and in the centuries man has existed, very few have had the fortitude to walk them both. This is the story of one such traveler.
The boy was alone in his room, the lights off, and his shades drawn. He loved the intoxicating darkness. He knew that to be here was to be ready to go to the other place. This other place is only two steps away when he’s in this room. He took the first step.
The Outside was dark, but he knew it would be. He preferred the darkness; it left him feeling cold. There […]
I have done terrible things
Things to make you shiver in the dark
Things that make even my own skin crawl
I want them back, to take them away
I hurt others, so badly I cry
It wasn’t me! I scream
It was them! I can’t help it!
Please, you have to believe me
The things that lie in wait
To rip me apart
To make me rend and tear
As they watch
It’s the demons that lurk beneath the skin
The ones only freed by razors
Death is to begin again
Right?
They beg me to stay
I beg them to let me leave
I don’t want to hurt you anymore
I don’t want to make you bleed
No you must stay
You must endure
You […]
She was one of the most beautiful faces i have ever seen. Its not like i haven’t seen her before. Me, her brother and she, we used to play together, when she used to live near our house. But they moved to a place near my grandma’s. That day when i was visiting my grandmas, i saw her after a long time and just got a feeling as if my heart is feeling suffocated and as if trying to beat, every beat felt like a beat of drum in my ear. I felt as if something was holding my heart and pulling it towards my […]
She knows not her true beauty, it astounds one to know that this magnificent beauty has no idea she is near angelic. Her skin a golden brown from long hours in the sun, her muscles toned from hours of exercise, soft auburn hair, and a face fit for a princess. This woman’s beauty permeates to the very depths of her soul, although few have ever seen it. A kind word from her is enough to intoxicate most men, and they often fall madly in love with her. Some men even revere her as a goddess
Yet she refuses to see beyond the scars she swears ruin […]
Hello loves! Here is your positive post challenge of the day…it’s simple, but in my opinion, very powerful. Compliment yourself. Look yourself straight in the eye and tell yourself that you are strong, courageous, beautiful, etc. Then, after you have done that, compliment someone else. It could be a loved one, your pet, a stranger, anyone. Good Luck 🙂
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