What does being happy mean to you guys? I want to learn how to be happy so I can make someone else happy. My depression always gets in the way. I just want to be happy. I want to know what happiness feels like. Can you fall in love when you don’t love yourself?
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The worst day was last week, seeing the guy I have loved so deeply and gave my all to go for the first girl who showed interest. Given the time to think, I really hate her. She played innocent to get my confidence as well, so that I would tell her how much I love this guy. When in secret, she was telling him she was interested in him. He goes for it because she is young, short and skinny. She admits to having multiple boyfriends and being polyamourus and the one she lives with looks well older than me. I don’t think it’s romantic. […]
I have a habit of talking to others while Im really talking to myself. Not tryin to seem like im superior, or judging, or knowledgeable in the slightest. Im really talking to myself. Saying things I need to hear. I just realized it.
Please, please read. Fuck your opinions. I love you.(Bipolar?)
by FeelingFunny
written by FeelingFunny
Never been so low, didnt know. That I could fall so far covered in scars. Caused by the drugs I use, I abuse. Shit. It wasnt written in the stars its the life I choose. Whats it to you? If I hurt myself, nobody else, self destruct. Fuck health. Aint no one got time for that…So, Ima grab another sack. Lay back and pray I never wake up. Cause I cant get my cake up, while starin in the face of, this dark hearted demon, i just feel like leaving, everything ive known everytime that Im fiendin. No sleepin no eatin, barely even human. Constant […]
Its 5 in the morning and my thoughts are wandering. It’s been a couple months since I’ve cut and I’m thinking about how much I miss feeling the freedom once that blade digs into my skin.
They had it easy, honestly. Two seconds of pain and now they go out as heroes. Nobody questions anything they did, ever. This universe is so strange. If a stranger shoots us in the head, we instantly become heroes. If we do it ourselves, people call us cowards. Of course there is actually nothing heroic about being shot in the head by a stranger, and nothing cowardly about raising a gun to one’s head and pulling the trigger, but that won’t stop the masses from judging as they will.
i need something to dream about..
something to do in the future
my family needs me to get out home one day…
oh god! i dont have where to go!
i dont have dreams or anything!!
there is someone that have a dream?
i just need something…
As the title states. Within the week I’ll be dead. I just need to make sure I get last minute things taken care of before I go. I have a few attempts in the past. Wrist cutting never did the trick no matter how deep I went. I’ll hang myself this time. I have the rope already set up at a perfect length for a drop hanging. And I know where I’m going to do it. I have hopes and dreams like most people. I unfortunately will not have them fulfilled. I am ex military, married but separated and had 2 girls with my wife. […]
I’m not exactly sure what to write here. I don’t want to beg for attention or anything, I just want to get my feelings off my chest but I don’t want anyone who knows me to know how I feel. I’m afraid they would panic.
So for several reasons I don’t care to speak about, I’ve recently decided that I wish I could disappear. Or at least that’s what I thought. But as I started to think, I realized if I killed myself, or even if I just up and disappeared, I could possibly hurt some people around me. That’s not something I want at all.
Instead, […]
I’m currently sitting at my desk catching up on SP and had a giggle at the earlier addiction post. There were some funny/entertaining posts by some great regulars.
Then i switch to news. Com.au and the real world is fkd. I see heart breaking headlines of shootings, oppressed north Korea, typhoon, angry mobs, transgender murder, isis blasts ancient temple, zimbabwe lifts hunting restriction and so on.
Such a depressing world.
But I’m glad i got sp. Here i can believe in the goodness of humanity.
I read a lot of things about natural selection and how people value beauty over substance. I started thinking – I’m gonna do my own research! So I went on YouTube and looked people who was crying out for help, mainly those ones who use flash cards. The “attractive” ones got all kinds of support and sympathy while the “overweight” and what society views as “unattractive” got mocked and made fun of, even if there issues where more serious. It’s sad! Empathy being induced in the human mind based on physical attraction…….another example of the insane majority.
I’m sure many of you heard the breaking news today of 2 news reporters being shot to death by a disgruntled former employee while the victims where filming live.
I saw the video and its deplorable and unforgivable. These innocent people where happy, loved life, and didn’t want nor diserve to die. This monster than turned the gun on himself. I never understood why people like this just don’t shoot themselves instead of trying to take others with him.
Thing is – the man is still alive and in critical condition. He shot himself in the head with a handgun. A lot of people have the misconception that […]
Ok guys, come on. We all have to admit we shared a lot of laughs and fun times this morning with Wndozh8er and some others who post regularly on this site. I don’t know what happened between then and now, but there’s so much arguing and drama going on in the comments and with posting new posts, etc. let’s all just get along. We are all here for a reason, rather it be because we are suicidal, or that we are trying to help others feel like living again. Maybe you have survived an attempt and want to share your life with us. Whatever it […]
So, my post where I add a link with all my posts in the forum has been removed. Please explain why, how it breaks the forum rules. If it breaks them, I accept it. But how it breaks the rules.
Some people made severe accusations toward me, I asked for proof, they said they are not interested to give proofs.
So, how you could accuse someone without proof?
I have a text file with all my comments in the forum. I will post here or send it to you, or you could check by yourself.
I don’t want to troll here, or create dramas, but when someone accuse another […]
There’s no walking out. We talked about the fiery deepest pits of hell. But even above here is also a fiery hell.
I don’t need to open the score anymore. I don’t need to study anymore. Or watch the news. Or take up any examination. It won’t make a difference. The end is crystal clear.
When you said my life would be in the dumps, I didn’t think you were serious.
So that is why my mother never put much hope in me. This life is a mess, and no amount of investment will change it.
That house, this house, that room, this room. It’s […]
Why do Many people think that everything that is said over the Internet is true and buy into scams and rumors without investigating further?
Why did “human rights advocates” get there panties in a wad when a fully veiled Muslim woman had to remove her religious attire in order to get her drivers license? If someone wants to stand up for people who are really getting there rights stomped on – than stand up for people’s rights to get quality health care, a living wage, the right to choose, etc.
Why did “civil rights advocates” get there panties in a wad when American Jihadist Anwar Al Awlaki, who […]
I got here and my motivation tanked. I laid on the ground and cried for hours. I haven’t seen any more trains when there’s supposed to be over 100 a day, and they seem to move too slow. In any case, my first name is Seth. I live in Chicago. I’m in a public place. I’ll be back to work in the morning.
So where do I even begin? Well, I signed up for this website so I guess I should explain why. Currently, I am not thinking about suicide, but I have in the past and fairly recently thought about how I would do it, why I would do it, who I would hurt and so forth, and then I realized that if anything happened to me, no one would know why, so here I am. Telling all of you what I can’t tell anyone in person.
I’m 15, I turn 16 in three weeks. I have a job that’s pretty mediocre, get good grades, I’m what you […]
Wow. I haven’t been writing for 3 months and now I’m back again. It’s funny cause I thought I was doing so well. Turns out, I’ve been lying to myself. Yes, people have it worse than me but does that mean my problems don’t matter? I’m about to start college soon after graduating early one whole year. The expectation of everyone is really weighing down on me. The stress of handling everything, every action that I take from now on is being carefully watched and judged. I’m trying to handle so many things in my life and I think I’m getting overwhelmed again. I know […]
A little something I wrote. Feedback appreciated.
There once was a man, a traveler . His goal was to reach the other side of the world. Along the way he had to stop and wait for his second flight. It didn’t come till the next day. He saw another man in the city who had lived there for many years. But when he approached the man and asked where he was from, he just said “oh I’m just stopping by, I’m not really from here”, but he did not look like the other people from the town. Interested, the man tried to learn more about the […]