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Release.

by Deathy058
written by Deathy058

Sometimes, I think we just need a moment to vent our head caves to an audience that doesn’t know us.  I really do not feel like dumping my problems on anyone I know, and thanks to the nifty confines of this site, you can choose to ignore it.

My story begins when college ended.  The woman I had been with for almost two years decided to leave me, subsequently getting involved with a friend of mine.  She has found happiness and success in her new life, so I hold little ill will toward her.  In fact, I knew that the relationship was not healthy with my […]

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lucky I was feeling up…

by RealTalk30
written by RealTalk30

So ok, something happened tonight.. you might think it’s funny, you may not. I’m unbiased about it for the time being. But i guess..put yourself in this position.

Was just chatting with Internet companions for a few hours and one of them started flirting with me. This all happened with in the course of like 30 minutes…anyways. i chat with these people all the time.. I thought this was a girl, I myself being a guy. I guess I just didn’t notice before but I thought for sure I remember this friend being a girl. I post pictures of myself that people like to see, […]

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There is no place for me

by myfavcolorblue
written by myfavcolorblue

The only thing that is keeping me from leaving this world is my children. Even then, I can’t handle being a mom. I am so selfish for thinking such things. I see how people move on with their lives. They would be alright. They have more of a chance of making a better life for themselves than I do.  And I can’t be a mother to them. It’s impossible for me to handle any kind of responsibility. My son is more responsible than I am. Get your shit together, your life will work out my friend says. I lack guidance and I’m constantly having to […]

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Oh, scream, America, scream

by AndInTheEnd
written by AndInTheEnd

Believe what you see from heroes and cons.

Hello again, SP. In my entire time having been depressed, I have only written here once before. This was when I was upset over a trivial problem concerning someone (read: no one-hee hee!) loving me. Boo hoo. Bleeding fucking heart for myself back then. (Please note that I mean no disrespect whatsoever to those of you having relationship problems-I’ve never been good enough for anyone, so you guys are cooler than me! Not that being cooler than me is hard or anything, but I digress terribly.) This time, I write for a completely different reason. A much more […]

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by Rosie
written by Rosie

Back story: Me and my family have never gotten on. Now…

When I was in Year 4 my mother’s constant manipulation and verbal abuse over me was enough to drive me suicidal. That may sound petty, but nothing was ever good enough for her. Whenever I went out with my dad she would say “If anyone asks, don’t tell them she’s my daughter” if I had greasy hair or something. Anyway, she honestly did not care about my emotional state. I would always be walked in on when I was on the verge of killing myself.

Anyway, later on in the year I made a promise to […]

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by Rosie
written by Rosie

I didn’t write a title because I honestly do not know what I’m supposed to call my messed up story…

Back story: Me and my family have never gotten on. Now…

When I was in Year 4 my mother’s constant manipulation and verbal abuse over me was enough to drive me suicidal. That may sound petty, but nothing was ever good enough for her. Whenever I went out with my dad she would say “If anyone asks, don’t tell them she’s my daughter” if I had greasy hair or something. Anyway, she honestly did not care about my emotional state. I would always be walked in on […]

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ive gotta be fucked in the head

by hopelessnowadays45
written by hopelessnowadays45

So this will be a first for me I come from a family run by my father and he’s to type to not seek help for shit and my mother wouldn’t cross him so I’ve always felt keeping everything bottled up is better I have a feelin this will get long so to anyone that wants the short before hand it basically goes im 27 male been depressed for to many years to count now never been on meds or seening someone about it or even really talked about it before in my earlier years have made 3 different attempt on my life […]

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Cutting again.

by nosound
written by nosound

I cut again today. It was the first time I had in a while, for at least a month or two. I came home from a birthday dinner in a normal mood. I had somewhat attempted to make plans after the dinner but then decided it was too much effort to try and figure out what people were doing and I was kind of tired. I felt like people didn’t want me to hangout with them after, but I’m almost certain it was all in my head considering I didn’t put out very much effort and I’m also somewhat known as wanting to stay home […]

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The Fifth Word was “Abyss”

by Nathaniel_Morisawa
written by Nathaniel_Morisawa

I am slowly coming to honest terms with the fact that, against all of my efforts, there truly is no hope for me. Whatever good things that I either create for myself or just happen upon me are all illusions whose ugly truths get revealed eventually.

I cannot trust my mom or my dad. Or the various mentors in my life.

I cannot trust my sister.

I don’t know if I can trust my brother, although ironically he’s shattered my trust many times in the past.

I cannot trust the only person who has ever really known me and who said the words, “I will always love you.”

I no longer have friends to break my trust.

 

This February, […]

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I can’t…

by Stereotype
written by Stereotype

I can’t sleep again, had to wash down another thorazine.  I want to paint the walls red but I know it will get me nowhere but scarred for life however long that spark may live on.  I am ruminating on my panic attack earlier this week right in the middle of class, the professor sent me home “sick”, I almost jumped off the roof…  But I know better (been there, done that).  I don’t want to die really, I just want to be free of turmoil and strife.  What happens when we die, what do you think?  Are we doomed to repeat this miserable life […]

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alone

by death bunny
written by death bunny

It’s after midnight and depression took over. I’m sitting in my room with some candles burning and doom metal playing in the background, writing this. I feel alone. Isolated. There is no one to talk to right now. It’s just me versus me. God, it is so tempting to die right now.

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All Saints Day

by RealTalk30
written by RealTalk30

After the dawn has come, and the moon no longer crest..the shadows on the walls still don’t seem to rest. Could be a day to forgive angels and saints..but the blood I’ve drawn is purely symbols for the pain.. and though it seems these ghosts should  rest..they wait in the corner for me like a silence breaking breath.. take a single breath, followed by a three..double back to gasp for more, while choking down a fourth, and a fifth.. a day I won’t be fighting for..a day that won’t be missed..
Bring the morning sun, as to show I’m not too far.. far away from […]

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See you soon

by Roars Kilde
written by Roars Kilde

12 hours to go

You win, I was too wrong from the beginning anyway. A gear missing the teeth and don’t fit in the machinery.

“Be yourself, it’s all you need”
Of course there is the big probability chance, that everything else around you, don’t want or agree with your self, so you will have to let them mold, shape, change and fix you, so you can fit in, and get to be yourself, they can accept. But hey doesn’t matter, as long as you just “be yourself”

“You can’t be lonely if you’re not alone”,
and if you’re alone, well then it’s your own fault.
Don’t worry, […]

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Drinking to stay alive

by empty.flesh
written by empty.flesh

Am I the only one who uses alcohol/pot to get through the day? I mean I know it’s not good in the long run, but in the moment it helps. I get to a point where I literally cannot bear the pain, it’s just too much, and I honestly feel that if I didn’t have to booze to wear me out and let me forget i would drive straight to the Golden Gate Bridge and jump. I feel like booze have saved my life a couple times this week, I just drink to the point where I don’t have the energy or motivation to hurt […]

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“No matter how hard you try there will always be someone better´´

by GeoPin
written by GeoPin

“No matter how hard you try there will always be someone better´´ This statement is to do with girls ovcourse, Its something a family member of my age said to me when I told him my story. He said that’s a lesson he’d learnt from his very sad love life story. But i’m not here to tell you his, I’m here to tell you mine and maybe find some confort between all us injured men.

I dont knw where to start… its a very long story (arent they all!..), so i’ll try and summarise: I’d know this girl for  12 years, for two of those we […]

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Need funeral advice

by Lost2many
written by Lost2many

This is a request for advice from those who have had a family member commit suicide.  I am attempting to finalize my funeral arrangements so that I can prepay for the services.  I have already purchased a burial lot in the small town where my father is buried, about 2 hours from my home town.   That town is about 4 1/2 hrs away from where all my in-laws live.  I have some distant family members who reside near where I will be buried.  I have little contact with my family members in my hometown, and no friends who will miss me.  I will soon have […]

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Just a day… and regreats

by Roars Kilde
written by Roars Kilde

TL;DR
I did something stupid today

How is it, that we just can’t help doing things, we know, we will regret after, be it little or big things.
Even things from the past, that we should learn from, we always manage to do again, despite knowing we will end up regretting it badly.

Not a big thing, not like other mistakes that have been made, but still.
I went to the store today, don’t know why, didn’t really need it, knew it would be a problem, still did it.
First 50 yards wasn’t bad, then as I got near, and the people started to appear, I could […]

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Story

by Crying-Teenager
written by Crying-Teenager

My name is Jadaen, I’m 14 and I’ve attempted suicide three times. I’ve been bullied since the age of 6 because of my weight and how ugly I am. Im in the 9th grade and I have 2 “friends”. I’ve been beat up to the point where I’ve needed to go to the hospital for a broken rib and a concussion. My teachers don’t do anything about it. I’ve self harmed for 3 years now and my parents called me an attention seeking ***** because they found out about it. The first time I attempted suicide was when I was 11, I had swallowed 5 […]

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Don’t know what to do

by bubby0414
written by bubby0414

Okay, so I know this is probably seen time and time after again. Some poor sap crying about how sad they are about their relationship issues. And normally I would be one of those people who would be quick to call the person out on their drama, but idk, its different for me. I’ve recently started coming out of the closet. I’m a guy btw. My parents were supportive. I’ve told a couple friends and they’ve been supportive. I’ve been dating this guy for the last 7 months and have fallen head over heals in love with him. He is so special to me. He’s […]

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