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institutionalized

Descent to -1,000 ft.

by Nathaniel_Morisawa 5/9/2016

written by Nathaniel_Morisawa

Lately, I’ve noticed that my ability to rationalize has been strained, especially when it comes to decisions related to expanding my relationships with others.

On the one hand, there is the side of me that’s been institutionalized by cultural norms–the person that wants to get a girlfriend, wants to have lots of friends, and just wants people to like me in general.

But running counter to the institutionalized side of me, is the altruistic me, who believes that having any of those things would be selfish of me and that those relationships would be detrimental to those other entities.

And then there’s the third side that says, none of it really […]

5/9/2016 2 comments

CARROTS!!!!!!! And ROT!!! SORRY

by Skeleton100 3/7/2015

written by Skeleton100

Who needs suicide when the pain can rot away your insides for you?

He he, I’m going to die sooner or later. We all do! Whether it be 80 years from now, or the next time I take the plunge over the quarry’s edge. It’s all fluff.

I rolled up the night on a spool of black silk and never will I return again. He he, J has a carrot in her mouth. My dad’s carrot. My dad’s truck is in her driveway. My mother’s institutionalized.

No more refills without a doctor’s appointment. Ha. But there’s no one to tell that to. Going to be interesting in the […]

3/7/2015 2 comments

by hiddenface 3/3/2014

written by hiddenface

Aww another day of this face I have to put on daily the happy to be alive face. When inside I am dark ,sad,alone crying I have been this way since I was 15yrs old I have survived multiple attempts on my own life been institutionalized once or twice lied my way Out this face sometimes is hard to keep up that darkness inside me overwhelms me and I go somewhere and take the mask off like now in a place with over 360 people I am crying alone.but I cannot stay this way the mask must be put on again I long to be […]

3/3/2014 3 comments

this has got to end somewhere

by passionfruit3 10/23/2013

written by passionfruit3

I see absolutely no point of being around.I just keep forgetting that and end up backing out of suicide before its to late.I cant keep doing that.Im not meant to be was never meant to be.My oldest sister will be leaving soon off to college i will never hear or see her again.I cant deal with that.
If i continue to live i will be homeless or institutionalized.My best friend says shell take care of me but she cant take care of herself let alone can i.I dont know how to survive this world.I cant survive this world.Ive thought of seeing if i can hang […]

10/23/2013 1 comment