You Promised you would stay
You lied
You Promised you loved me
You lied
You Promised you wouldn’t judge
You lied
You Promised you would be here
you lied
Now im alone in a world of lies
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My parents don’t know im suicidal and ive been thinking about it more and more…Today i went out with my bestfriend whom they both trust. We went to a bonfire. Left. He got lost and when we got back to town we grabbed some food but the chef was gone and our food took forever. Basic basically i came home 30 minutes late and they start snapping on me. Talkimg about respect. I seriously hate them, they compare me to my brother who lies to them all the time and does a lot of drugs. But they don’t know that and flip on me for […]
today someone said something about, in hell where at the bottom depths, lies magical sands with the power to bring forth great fortune.**
by Bisban
written by Bisban
So what… Keep trying, uh? The story must begin with a crew. The “bebop” genre description describes it all fully well. I don’t know exactly how it goes…. somewhere along outside the box, but not really. But anyway, as I’ve mentioned, I am here seeking the ‘Pilgrimage’, becoming my tribal name of faith. A tribal, that’s what it’s suppose to be about. Me and my own one in a million, fated. I read elsewhere how like… Wiccan is referred to as a way of life, which then made more sense to me, based, on the living myth.
Oblivious. A suffering fetus. Mother, cow, a celestial mind. […]
for every. dot. a sin. was made. speaking lies. and never saying. if u can see it. then feel my pain. . . .
there are 11 dots
11 sins. 11 miatakes 11 pepl 11 mismakes. 11 true senses 11 fates. 11 things u should not say 11 tears 11 drops 11 loved ounce and 11 enemys 11 kind words that lift ur soul and 11 seconds for it to all disapear
I had a panic attack today I never experienced anxiety till this month. It’s been atleast one eveeday now. It really started with a subtle paranoia the small thought that maybe ill fail maybe my friends are lying to me. Now it’s become completely out of hand. I’m encased in lies and dangerous things and I’m afraid to make a move because I’ll fail I know I will. And all the while the spiders that spin their webbed lies that I used to call friends race on without me. I can’t blame them I never let them see my panic […]
It’s crazy to think that for 17 years the man I call daddy isn’t even my biological father. You both claim you weren’t trying to hide it or lie to me but honestly I could care less what you say. You did lie. You hid it from me. You hid him from me. The man I call daddy doesn’t have my blood in his veins. It all makes sense though, why the postcards were never signed “Daddy or Dad” but instead with his first and last name. I was little so I never noticed. It shouldn’t have been such a shock, all the clues and […]
hi, if your reading this then that means that people actually care, or is interested in my title, but it doesn’t matter any more. I’m tried of hearing people scream at each other, I’m tired of always being afraid of what’s gonna happen next. I’m sick and tired of being screamed at. I hate it the way the people around look at me but they can’t see that i’m drowning because every time I am reminded that i’m a worthless whore that people can always throw away i sink so much deeper than before and i don’t know what to do about it anymore. I […]
… Sometimes i wish that this is all just a dream, but sometimes i wish that i don’t want to live in sin.
Many times disapointed, but I still stand tall.
Waiting for a miracle to bring me up. My eyes are seen my own truth in the world full of lies, oh God is there Hope for us, for us? Similar souls who try so hard – To live lie … I saw everythin but still stuck in prison wearing a chains, oh god can you hear me now? Where are you, i still wanna touch the edge of the greatness but i can’t […]
I want to be more than what people think I’m going to become. I want exceed expectations. But who am I perspiring to be? Something more than what I am. Something meaningful, and careful yet carless enough to bring more than a strict happiness to those who may surround me. I want and hope for so many things that I’ve lost track of what that track is. And to be honest? I can’t because I am incapable of separating the two at this very moment. The truth and lies that is. Self pitty and feeling sorry for yourself is a terrible habit one can subject […]
Guess im depressed although I don’t feel sad most of the times, just sadness tries to peek thru sometimes. I guess im depressed mostly  cuz I just don’t want to get out of bed, or eat. Realy don’t want to do anything.
Just lay in bed an keep thinking how someone that I loved an cared about and completely trusted  has destroyed me. and made me become someone i don’t even know anymore. And keeps trying to destroy what is left with lies and words. I know that this is driving me insane an there is nothing i can do about it
I can catch the person in lies […]
I used to be a STRONG believer in religion and spiritual kinds of things!
However, having grown up and seen,heard and experienced stuff, i eventually found that my faith and belief in JUSTICE and a “god” were slowly tarnished!
I realized that the world always APPLAUDSÂ evil,nasty,malicious,promiscuous,vicious,violent and monstrous people and behaviors!
However, the world surely HATES sweet,innocent,nice,well-mannered,dignified,good-hearted people and behaviors!
I used to think that this “god” i used to believe in was the one IN CONTROL of the world.However, i came to understand that THE DEVIL may actually be the one “calling all the shots”!!
This is why i STOPPED believing in justice,peace,love and fairness! Bad things happen to […]
So, I was filling out my application for my possession and acquisition license (gun license, yay Canada!), and it turns out I need two references, people who have known me for at least three years.
I don’t know anybody except co-workers and I’m not going to ask them. Even if I did have people I could ask, I don’t want them to know that I’m in the process of acquiring a firearm.
Guess I’m going to have to make up a couple references, which is probably a federal offense, and hope they don’t check on my references. I doubt they check the references of every application, and […]
If your reading this i just need to get this out
I miss feeling loved, needed or cared about. Â I had this freidn that would make me fill like I was the most special person on the world that I was worth more than a million bucks. Â But now I think I’m obsessed over this girl. Â We were so close, both helping each other with life and our difficult pasts. Â But then someone close to her died and she just stopped caring about me. Â WE use to write letter to each other every day but when i mention them to her you think they were the […]
The poison of society is so severe, I’m willing to kill myself to escape.
written by InfiniteRedPill
I am a male, still young, but I am most likely older than you probably think.
I live in America, this is a place were greed, lies, and aggressiveness have overcome the values of health, happiness, and peace. I am not referring to just the politics, I am referring to everyone. I cannot turn my head without witnessing bullying, toxic addicting foods, absolutely no leadership offered by those who were elected into government positions, and general soon-to-be facism. I hate this place. Currently, I have no friends or caring family, I can’t feel happiness, and I am constantly restless. I feel like I am being sucked dry […]
what was i, what have i become. i am only getting more and more corrupted. i wanted to, didn’t i? when i couldn’t find a way out of it, i decided to get more into it. taste of lie, taste of corruption!
“Above all, don’t lie to yourself. The man who lies to himself and listens to his own lie comes to a point that he cannot distinguish the truth within him, or around him, and so loses all respect for himself and for others. And having no respect he ceases to love.†– Dostoevsky
i wanted to test it. and i was so confident […]
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She lies next to me, breathing softly, quiet whimpers drifting from her mouth as she sleeps, as I am wrapped in a sadness I cannot explain. She makes me happy, she does, but it seems to be more than that and yet, at the same time, less. Inside me, ocean waves pass over my head, tangling me in the current, and I can’t breathe. Tumbled in some form of vertigo in my head, in my heart, while my body lies on the sand, the water barely lapping at my toes.
So what’s wrong? Nothing.
Why, then, do I feel like I’m falling apart on the inside?
I […]
I’m new to this, so how do I begin? How does one simply begin to tell their story? Perhaps I’ll wait. Share little by little. My story is too long anyway… And it’s probably really boring.
I guess I should introduce myself, huh?
I’m Ciara, I’m Irish and I’m 15. What more can I say? Should I go into detail here?
I guess I could tell you a little about myself and about why I’m here.
I’m a writer. Obviously not a professional one. I mean… I am only 15… And I’m pretty terrible at writing. But I enjoy it. That’s all that matters, I guess. When I […]
Everyone seems to lie, because the truth’s too painful. My mother and father l, by trying to work out a marriage that was doomed from the beginning. My sister pretends she isn’t hungry. My mother lies about the man she loves, the man that’s not my father. So where do I stand? Do I lie and pretend I’m happy? Do I admit that I’m not happy and I need professional help, although I’m pretty sure I’m beyond that? Do I keep on saying I’m just tired, that I’m stressed? I’ve been doing this for too long, we all have. Do I lie again, to myself, […]
i dont know anymore. i thought i could recover. i thought i can hold it in and just keep it to myself. to just keep it in all of it. all of the secrets. all of the lies. all of the masks. but i dont know. i dont know if im close to breaking all together. i dont know if im close to just going. i dont know if im close to jumping. i dont know if im backing away from the edge. i dont know who i am anymore. i dont know what personality is which. i dont which smile is which. i dont […]
Why do you care?
Why do you stay here?
Why do you comfort me?
Why do you try to help me?
Why do you try to tell me lies about myself?
Why do you try to prevent me from cutting?
Why do you think I should stay here?
Why?!