I wish that I could just re-start my life and stop myself from making the same mistakes that I made…
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as theist believe- rebirth
if you reborn again- keep suicide until you born again as rich, beautiful, intelligent human
It is like restarting a video game when you know you going to loose- It is logical to restart the game instead of wasting another couple of hours to loose
That’s the reason I say human race heading towards stupidity. They live life without asking why, simply following ancestors ideology.
Married, merely just around 5 months ago.. I am kinda unsettled, doesn’t know driving a car much, and although I am optimistic, but sometimes I do realize that it’s been long since I smiled from heart, and this causes me a feeling of helplessness and suicidal tendency.
Till around 1 month of marriage, it was going smooth and happily, but after that, I did some mistakes, and those caused some problems in my married life. I love my wife, but she says she has less attachment towards me, my family or even my city. She is suffering from depression and many times she suffers from pain, […]
I’m freaking out. I’m fucking freaking out. I can’t wait anymore. I want her. I want her to want me. Why is she taking so much time ? Why doesn’t she miss me ? Why doesn’t she come back regretting everything and saying I’m the love of her life ? It’s not fair. Stupid shitty life. I don’t deserve this and I’m sick and tired to collapse under your vicious hits. This girl is meant for me and she doesn’t even realize it. She doesn’t even want me. What will I do, alone and miserable in my stupid small apartment. Without her. Without everyone.
I won’t […]
What did I do that was so bad to deserve this? Why do I have to feel miserable my whole life I can’t ever have any happiness. As soon as I thought I found Somone that really made me forget about all my problems. “Snap” it’s gone I’m accepting that fact that iv lived alone my show life so I’m going to die alone. That’s fine but I wish I can just die why do I have to go though hell my whole life and kill my self why can’t got just kill me already. Their is no plan for me things aren’t going to […]
Drowning in the despair of my mind,
peace of soul I cannot find.
Demons are raging inside of me,
break my cage and set me free.
Trapped in a vicious game called life,
Sending only pain, loss, and strife.
Maybe one day I can leave this place,
I will be gone, without a trace.
I have no one to leave behind,
free of the war inside my mind.
We wanted to live not suffer,
All our hopes and dreams were smothered.
We’re all living, quietly bleeding,
suffering here, painfully breathing.
Nothing to live for, nothing to lose,
years and years of constant abuse,
All […]
Humans are smart and tend to take intelligent decisions always
how to close a business deal, intelligent choices to make life better,the probability calculations, innovations, research.
out of all these most intelligent choice is suicide
Why some people consider it as selfish act?
through the deepest depths. you brought me back from doom.
you are the carrier, the lasso.
is your spectrum so deep that you will reach.
never uniting, the story of the lost.
Lapras are oh so mysterious, too.
the water universe. the golden age.
a million years under the sea.
Gyrados, the trident.
Polywag, Polywhirl, Polywrath. our mankind.
the butterfly of the dead sound.
what is in the depths of darkness, under the sea.
why is the population of water pok. so low in the vast ocean.
the ecosystem of the lost and mystery.
the ying and the yang. one, versus the world.
celestial princess in our dying habitat.
it’ll be like…… we’re gonna go die……
or….. I just […]
My boyfriend even told me I’m a pain in the ass… why are you even with me if I’m that fucking bad… I might as well leave you so your life can improve…
So I started talking with a member of this community (well, a member of the unofficial side to this community, at the very least [shakinbakin]) and we were sharing tracks from our own soundcloud streams. Ended up getting the idea that we could combine his musical abilities with my spoken word poetry.
Whilst we were working on a new piece together, he started to mess around with one of the old pieces that I’ve posted here before, “There Once Lived A Man” so thought I’d share it here again, this time with the new arrangement.
Like always, the poem is posted below to help those that have […]
The darkness consumes me
Like an infection to an open wound:
I was never treated,I was never healed.
Scabbing up and bleeding again,
When will it stop, when will it end?
Darkness brings what daylight fears,
The contagious sorrow that I’ve felt for years.
The cries for help, but no one hears.
The lies of smiles, when really I’m in tears.
This terrible free fall I’m in right now:
I’m scared of hitting the ground, but know I never will.
“Just be strong, I need you now” he said..
But where was I?
And why must he be dead..
I don’t understand, I just don’t […]
This has got to stop… the constant depression, self doubt, pain… I don’t know anything beyond pain now, to the point where I wanna cause myself more pain because I just want to hurt as much as possible… I don’t mean a thing in anyone’s life… I can’t do anything for anyone… why am I even here…
The sun and the trees have life,
The people walking by infectious of there media ridden minds have life..
The sheep of the masses
Do they deserve to be slaughtered due to ignorance?
Or should they be applauded for enjoying life?
These decisions have not been left to me nor do I want to make this choice.
The only choice I want is to end my pain and suffering
A lifetime of addiction and hurting others is all I’ve managed.
I am the American Psycho watching others pass by; testing the boundaries of reality.. what if I fell off this bridge onto these cars?
What […]
When I use the word “god” I’m not talking about any particular religious image. For lack of a better word, I’m using “god” to mean whatever force created and/or governs this universe. It could be a bearded dude on a throne, it could be a mathematical equation or it could be a random spark that started a fire. But whatever it is, I hate it.
I hate the rules and patterns of existence that we live by. Universal laws like “survival of the fittest”, “kill or be killed” and “consume others so that you may live” are the laws of all living organisms, whether we’re talking […]
How does one have courage when they fear life itself? How does one have hope when everything they’ve ever believed in has died? How does one keep living when they’re already dead?
Living each day like a zombie isn’t fun. Waking up, groaning, moaning, wandering aimlessly… That’s all I do. I am a zombie. I’m the living dead.
But I’m not!
I don’t even understand myself… I hardly expect anyone else to.
I have good days, but they’re overpowered by the bad. I have days when I feel alive. And those days are the days when I have courage and I feel hopeful. If I didn’t have those days, […]
There are those who die before they’re ready. And there are those who are ready before they die.
Timing is the only problem. I’ve been ready to die for at least 20 years but it hasn’t happened. On the other hand somewhere in the world, someone got hit by a bus and killed 20 years before she would’ve accomplished her life’s work. Oopsie. Life’s a ***** like that.
The best you can do is decide when it’s time to die and immediately make it happen. Those are the only true winners in this world.
Ahhhhhha, I don’t know what to say , basically I’m screwd up as hell.
It just seems to be over , I’m done with all of the shit I’m facing.
Abailtity to feel I’ve lost it , I don’t how to feel or what to feel Im just tired of myself nd I’m tired of this shit. It makes me sick.
I know this all shit I’m writing , makes really no sense.
Starting with my parents. I’m a child of divorced parents nd that sucks , I’m sick of dealing with the shit ur parents are giving u!!! Like Man my mom doesn’t wanna […]
How did it feel to come so close? To walk the line between life and death.
Were you relieved?
Was there a “light” rushing towards you?
How long were you drifting for, and what did the drifting feel like?
Is the experience of leaving worth the pain – was there pain, torment?
What was on your mind?
I’ve heard more than anything that one feels an crushing sense of regret upon passing the point of no return.
Finally, what was it like to wake up afterward? Was there frustration? Self-pity? Rejection? Do you feel differently now than you did before?
What has life become for you?
So I think the one thing I am proudest of is how much of a geek i am (LARP D&D video games etc…) heres the thing i havnt had the time to attend any of my games lately because of real life responsibilities
To get a feeling for me as a person im 25 i live with a super good looking girl who i somehow convinced to date me a few years ago and i just started a great job that is allowing me to get out of the factories ive worked in since i was 17… but because I dont have time to go to […]
As a mmo gamer I find myself tragically stuck in the role of tank. I can’t help but feel life beats on me a little more than others. It is selfish to think that way, because everyone is fighting their own battles, playing their own parts, but sadly I think I am just to perfectly fitted to this part. My nature is to protect, to take the first hit, the last, and each one in between. I feel like I care far too much to fit in properly in this day and age. The only thing I want is to help people smile, and to […]