I quit cutting for the longest time, but now it’s all I think about. If I tell the people who call themselves my friends, they’ll freak. I don’t know what to do right now. Talk to my friends and risk it, or…be alone…
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Longest Time
At a very young age, at about 7, I accepted that, in my words and thoughts at the time, “sometimes other people will have what you aren’t meant to”. At the time, I was referring to far simpler things, yet still…. despite feeling very deprived, I struggled on trying to get what I could out of life. Life never seemed to give me back anything for my trying.
See…. by 3 years old, I had already had the skin of my hands boiled off. I don’t remember the event itself, but I sure remember the way my hands looked afterward. I also remember the fact […]
Over a year ago I lost my sister to suicide and I still don’t get why she did it. She did not leave a note and I don’t remember there being any sign of her wanting to kill herself. It was not the first time she had attempted to kill herself, in fact it was the 3rd time. The kicker of it all though is that each time she attempted I was the one who found her.
They always say that God doesn’t give you more than you can handle but I don’t want to handle this, I’d rather have her here […]
I guess I could finally tell my story on here. I’ve been posting on here for a month, and I still never got out why I’m got so fucked up in the first place. Now, I don’t claim to have a bad life, just a fucked up mind and an inability to deal with what I have experienced.
I grew up in a pseudo-Christian home. By that, I mean that my family was picture perfect in Sunday service and fighting on the way home. My parents dragged us there but never really lived any of it, and I hate that about religion. So much pretense. Don’t […]
Long story – Short(Believe me, I tried):
I was 17 last year making my brother 23. He started seeing one my absolute best friends until she decided to start dating someone who could be around more, his work kept him out of town.
He told me that it really hurt him and we bonded over it… or so I thought. I had a complete falling out with one of my oldest friends and he decided to take her virginity as a way to get back at my best friend. He’s not very mature for his age – I know, and hes been told by many, including my […]
So far I’ve posted story’s of love and death. Here’s just one more about love.
So for the longest time I was in love with this boy, if you’ve seen my other stories this is before Zach, but his name was Noah.
I know for sure, he won’t be reading this, or at least know who I am so it’s safe to use his name. But anyway on topic, Noah was what every girl wanted he was cute, taller than me, a good kisser, popular, athletic, captain of the football team, a slight accent, and a total gentlemen. He was just amazing. I fell for him, hard.
And […]
Hey.
I am Kriss. 15. From Ohio. I’m a girl, btw. There are SO MANY posts wondering if people know how they feel, if they’re really alone. But please, listen to me!
You are never alone! You may not believe this, you may not care, but you have ME, GOD, FAMILY MEMBERS (yes I am sure you have at least one. If not a family friend or something like that) and other TRUSTED ADULTS. You are not alone. I know how it feels to be alone- I am one of those kids that constantly feels alone. But really we are not alone.
If you were alone, would these […]
I just had a complete meltdown. I had been thinking about suicide for the longest time. I felt like a failure, like my life wasn’t worth it. So I took some codeine pills. It made me feel like I was dead for a while. And then I just threw it all up. I fail at everything. I can’t even kill myself. Life just isn’t worth living for me. I feel so alone.
Well, yes it is me again… well, I had stopped cutting myself for the longest time and then recently I got really upset and… I did it again. Well on another note. I have been diagnosed as bipolar, and a severe case. It is very hard for me. I know lots of people get diagnosed but, I never thought it would be me. I have always known that it runs in my family, but i never thought it would be me since my dad doesn’t have it, and my mom didn’t have it. Well, it is late and I know i don’t sleep at all […]
im so tired of having to go on with being messed around with friends and my girl friend getting told to kill my self being judge and getting made fun of by people who just know my name im going to hang my self tonight im sure of it things were going so well for the longest time and today i just snaped i cant take it
I’m new to this, I’ll admit. I just happened to stumble upon this and started reading stories and it gave me this breif moment of feeling secure in telling my story. I’ll be honest in that my story isn’t that bad and is really quite dumb, but now that I’ve found this breif confidence, I have to let it out and hope that maybe someone will hear me and understand my pain. I’ve contemplated suicide, I even planned out how my funeral would go, but I’m afraid to upset my friends, afraid that they’ll blame themselves, but they don’t know any of this. I’ve never […]
I’m really confused this month, I feel like shit. I haven’t felt this sort of way in a while, usually I’d just shrug it off as me being a little ***** (and maybe it is), but it feels different this time.
About a year and a half ago I fell in love with this girl who I sort of dated for about a week, and by that I mean we live a city apart so we didn’t hang out physically very often, it was mostly over Skype and Facebook. But I really really liked her, she meant the world to me. Up until then I hadn’t […]
Through out the past 2 years I’ve been going through a good day bad day situation, but in the past year it has turned into weeks and months. Longest time I was servilely depressed was 3 months, I was cutting my arm and body continuously, it was the school summer holidays, I spent most of that time at home, watching terrible cartoons. I’m 15 years old, right now though I’ve been doing OK for the past 2 weeks, it feels strange and more se-real, more illusionistic yet more eye opening. But I know that the bad days are just creeping up, yet this time I […]
I had an absolutely amazing life for the longest time. I’m not attractive and I’m shy, but I had amazing and wonderful friends, very good grades, and I was happy. Over the summer I had to move across the country with my family. I am miserable here. Nobody talks to me, and they all look at me strangely at school because I’m punk and I have piercings and I’m not the most attractive person. I have no friends and no one to talk to. I tell my parents I’m upset and I can’t do this anymore, but they tell me it will pass and I […]