My suicide story isn’t base on a single dramatic occurrence or a series of bad hands dealt to me by life, like so many have posted concerning their suicide stories. Like many (if not all) here I have been dealing with deep depression, manic mood swings, and suicidal thoughts on a daily basis, that at times feels all consuming. Again, my path to suicide wasn’t due to a traumatic event but rather a fucking series of mundane, minutiae life events that have led me to deciding to off myself at the end of lackluster, Loserville 25 year bullshit life. All my life I haven’t amounted […]
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Lies mess things up. I’ve told lie upon lie to try to get through each day, week, month, year. They all come back to bite me eventually. I have a few more out there – bills about to come due. God, please make the landing gentle or erase the debt.
My mother lied to me about using my credit card without permission, even with the evidence in her face. My father tells lies – that my stepmother doesn’t hate me, that things will turn out okay. (Things might turn out okay, but he sure doubts it. I can tell.)
If I go on living, I’ll tell lies. […]
I’ve felt this way for a while now. I’m an atheist. I considered myself christian for a while but decided it wasnt for me. I’ve never really had anything against people who believe in god but I never understood why they did really. Now though, now I just cant take it anymore. I’m so sick and tired of hearing about people giving god credit for their acheivements and blaming the devil for their misfortunes. That shit is absolute tripe. Where do all the good things come from? luck. Where do all the bad things come from? luck. Luck is the reason for everything. People like […]
it’s evident because I am 30 years old and still live with my parents.. even though I am a female, that doesn’t make it any better… I have been diagnosed as bipolar 2 and I am on social security.. That makes me a complete and utter leech on life’s resources.. I hear the eugenecists want to kill me because I cost them money and am a useless eater and unfortunately, I can see where they are coming from… I once loved and lost because the guy realized what a loser I really am and he kicked me to the curb after using me for sex… […]
not sure why i’m writing/posting this except that i so crave someone to talk to. this will have to do.
i just can’t see how things are going to get better. ever. i’ve made such a mess of things. i feel like i am holding everyone around me back. like i am the one stopping my kids from having access to a good life. i am such a complete loser, unable to function most of the time. i can’t provide for my family and we are now in dreadful poverty. if i were to die everyone around me would be better off. materially, there is no […]
Like many other people have said, I’m not sure why I’m writing this. I guess just to get it out. I’m 39 years old and my life is such a mess. I’ve been married three times, and apparently no one can live with me. I have three kids whose lives I’ve probably ruined. They have a mom who loves them very much, but won’t have a dad. And I know all to well how that can affect your self esteem. I work and try to the best I can, but it just seems like I make things worse on everyone around me. My poor mom […]
I always hurt the ones i love. I have created a character, a personality, and the world is my stage.
“The world is a stage and we are merely actors” or something like that, it’s by shakespear or someone else old and famous…
I’m never me. Yes, I’m an actor, but outside of that, I’m to different people. As soon as I walk outside, I’m a different person, take a deep breath, time to put on a show. One in which I’m an annoying singing girl who talks a lot, listens to goth and emo music, and uses words that are to big for most people […]
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