Being
Black
Young
And
Poor
Who
Could
Ask for
More?
My faith
In humanity
Has suddenly
Been destroyed
No joyful mornings
Just mourning nights
Where my fight
Is useless
Just
Like
My life
Show me
Fair
Show me
Love
Show me
The lessons of my childhood
Were not just a deception
Of my conception
Of who I’ve come to be
Remind me
Of who I am
Not what you
Want me to be
Tag:
Love
Everything is messy. It’s the messed up kind of messy, the disorganized messy, and the kind to be looked down upon.
I’ve come to realize a couple things. The things I think are not truly what I feel or what I believe in or how I am. I thought that the reason I cut myself was for the rush, but all my reasons for cutting feel like excuses and they often contradict each other. Willpower- I thought it had something to do with willpower. I thought it made me feel stronger if I could withstand greater pain (I’m fully aware that that is idiotic looking at […]
God is boring . boring God . why human’s imagination & fantasy is better than God boring reality ? why God is boring ?
by niki
written by niki
God is boring . boring God .
why human’s imagination & fantasy is better than God boring reality ?
why God is boring ?
I hate this world . I hate this life . I hate life .
This world is so boring , boring world !
This life is so boring , boring life ! life is boring .
Why movies , games , anime / manga, & fantasy / imagination is better than this world / better than life / real life / real world / reality ?
everyday life is the same : wake up, eat, go to school/work, boring, then go back home, […]
Seemingly the easiest thing to understand yet the hardest thing to live. Everyone claims to be loving in some sense. Well I love my mother, father… and my friends… ? Do I? They don’t even know what music I like for example… now that i think about it, they don’t know shit about me >: ‘(
yet reality shows that my whole life was void of love and I pretended everything was good until I noticed, that this thing called love is very, very seldom. We are all so pretentious… groups of individuals clinging together in a unity of loneliness.
Will I ever be like them? No […]
This world is boring , boring world . why movies, games, anime/manga, fantasy / imagination is better than this world / better than life / real life / real world / reality ?
by niki
written by niki
I hate this world .
This world is so boring , boring world !
Why movies , games , anime / manga, & fantasy / imagination is better than this world / better than life / real life / real world / reality ?
everyday life is the same : wake up, eat, go to school/work, boring, then go back home, eat, then sleep, then repeat again.
but movie / game / anime / manga / comics / books are much more exciting & interesting than this boring life !
for example: like in the world / universe of Harry Potter, Avatar, Lord of the Rings, […]
Wondering starting to date again… I like one girl more then the others she is cute and sweet. She is originally from the country that I moved too 6 years ago. But also lived in the east and southern of Europe.
She is 8 years older then me. I don’t mind. I actually quite like it as I would like children and I think she would want them too. I wonder though if it is a wise step.. in the longer run for my happiness if that path were to happen….
we click really well so I do not really for see problems in that […]
We know what suicide is and we know that it’s a fact and it’s real. What we don’t know is WHY people kill themselves. As for myself, I know why I haven’t killed myself. Death is messy. I am somewhat of a neat freak and that’s the main reason why so far I have refrained from the act. Who is going to dispose of my stinky cadaver? I guess it could be organized but not without causing someone else a lot of trouble and I don’t want to make any trouble–which brings me to why I want to be dead and why in general people […]
Life is boring , boring life. why movies, games, anime/manga, & fantasy/imagination is better than life / real life / real world / reality ?
by niki
written by niki
life is boring , boring life. why movies , games , anime / manga, & fantasy / imagination is better than life / real life / real world / reality ?
everyday life is the same : wake up, eat, go to school/work, boring, then go back home, eat, then sleep, then repeat again.
but movie / game / anime / manga / comics / books are much more exciting & interesting than this boring life !
for example: like in the world / universe of Harry Potter, Avatar, Lord of the Rings, Narnia, Marvel / Marvels, Avengers, X-Men, Divergent / Insurgent , Star Wars, The […]
Life and death have been in love for longer than we have words to describe.
You fill my stomach with uncontrollable butterflies.
You make my heart pound faster than drums being played in a march.
You are the oxygen in my lungs. The blood in my veins. The smile on my face.
Just the thought of you can make my day.
But my problem is that I want you at such a great extent and
I need to convince myself that I don’t.
I have you already. Yes.
But not in the way I’d also like.
What will it take for me to be the one that you want?
I lie here at night starring up in the dark
trying to sleep, […]
I just can’t explain how f**** up I feel right now. I actually recovered from this thoughts, went out, fell in love and got treated like crap. I ll never forget my shitty life. I cannot find taste in any food and my website is left unupdated. Feeling sick already with a serious headache. I just don’t know why I fell in love again, I just don’t know why I left the suicide project. I never even felt this bad wen I WS in here. Rocketmanpls do say something. I ve know you for a long time as a shoulder, pls do let me lean […]
Mama said to hold on to the most basic emotion, love
Love, failed me over and over as I bled from all the cuts,
Cuts, done by unseen sharps as she again let me down,
Down, further in hole than the last one,
I can not be undone, but I am broken,
And none see those hopeless moments
They see the iron-will in me and its all false
In the end it shows, they see as I rot
Can’t hold on for long, I tried
Play the song “When I’m gone” when I’m gone
I am in an emotionally abusive relationship but I’m also in love with the abuser. Im trapped and scared and Ive become depressed as well, Ive been thinking about how death would make it easier because of all the other stress I have and its not like I have a friend who would care because I have 0 friends, but right now Im hanging on for family and Im scared of what my relationship is going to do to me because I love this person so much.
~ SN
I love it when you
Curl your arms around my neck
And sink your teeth into my shoulder
And twist my heart to bloody ribbons
Snapping.
I love it when you
Kill me in every way possible
And suffocate me under your breathless thoughts
And line-dance across my skin
Crimson.
I love it when you
Press on me like a weight
And hollow me out like a hole
And twirl me along the edge of the roof
Dangling.
I love it when you
Whisper dark nothings into my ear
And make my heart beat faster
And kiss my hand goodbye
Fallen.
But I love it most when you
Leave me alone with the crowd
And hide yourself away somewhere lost
And forget about me
Please.
I hate it when […]
¿Why should I be sad? I have lost someone who didn’t love me. But He lost someone who loved him.
I’m a loser , I am a loser in this cruel boring LIMITED real world , reality , real life
by niki
written by niki
I’m a loser , I am a loser in this cruel boring LIMITED real world , reality , real life .. !
I am a 33 years old Asian guy, who used to have so many beautiful hope & dreams ,
and many people have told me that I’m a smart, multi talent , very creative, & wise person
but now the more I see this cursed world, people, humans beings, and this reality, the more I lose hope in humanity , losing hope in human beings, and also lose hope in myself & my future
you see ,.. Reality / real world / real […]
“Love”… It’s what we always called each other. A promise to each other that we would always be each other’s true love.
I’ve been thinking about writing to you, in a way that you will not hear me, not see me, but I could see and hear you. I could imagine how you’d react– the way you would have reacted– without having to bear the thought of you pushing me away. Everytime I try to speak to you it gets worse. Everytime I try to see your face, I tear up.
Since I was twelve or thirteen years old, I knew I had some sort of problem. I did […]
I know alot of people on here lack love in thier lives. For whatever reason, the amount of love a human needs to be healthy hasnt been provided, or isn’t being felt. So you come here to scream into your pillow, or get bad advice.
Just a warning:
People don’t always give you the help you need.
People are selfish.
People give you the help they feel like giving you.
Take what they give you, smile, and know that’s all your getting.
Peace and love ya’ll.
And here are 100 reasons to keep going.
A few might be similar to each other, but nothing’s perfect.
You should live:
1. Because you care about the world.
2. There’s a lot to live for.
3. You have dreams to fulfill.
4. Life eventually gets better.
5. You’re afraid of death.
6. Because you can flip your life around.
7. Because people need you to live.
8. Because someone out there loves you.
9. For religion.
10. To help someone worse off than you.
11. To find the perfect job or career.
12. To fall in love.
13. Because there’s a reason we’re on this […]
Ok lets get this started (warning mumbling) ok so im a guy and theres this other guy. So when his soppositly girlfriend told me and another boy her bohfriend is gay then she said no hes bisexual. My heart started raseing.. I was so happy but then felt sad becuz i Think she just said that for messing around. So ever since that i just cant stand the earg to just ask him. Aghhh i new him since 4th grade im in 8th grAde. Im bi too so what should i do