No matter how many times I try to run from suicide it finds me Depression appears every time your here I want something to love someone anyone it would be a different day for me for you for everyone who played a part and stole pieces of my heart it could be today that you won’t see me tomarrow
Anyone who said that today, after what’s been happening lately in the world, needs to be shot in his/her head.
This is exactly why there’s so many society problems nowadays, and so many stressed, depressed and even suicidal people on the left and right everywhere.
This is also why society nowadays is so in a mess, education fails, but wars thrive on.
Fuck it.
Deep down inside we should know that we’ve been brainwashed a lot and a NEW theory needs to be rewritten if humanity wants to survive for BETTER future.
Deep down inside each and every one of us I’m sure know that human’s […]
Part 2 of the 16 series
so far very interesting & mind-opening…
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1cMcoikRddw
I kept seeing movies and artworks like The Matrix, Avatar, Trons, Paprika (a 2006 anime, you guys have to really google youtube the trailer to know what I mean!), even from video games such as Final Fantasy, Kingdom Hearts, etc
and then suddenly I ponder and saying to myself wow, all these humans’ creations & imaginations are really really fantastic and mind-blowing, that I wish they would be the real heaven, instead of the biblical heaven!
I mean gosh..it seems to me that the idea of biblical heaven seems to be: gold pavements (ew, boring), playing harp in eternity with God (ew, boring boring), and […]
Last night I’ve seen some posts that talks/mention about existential nihilism, and I think I used to have great discussion with my little brother about this..quite interesting.
However, like I’ve said before in some posts here, since “Hope” is always seem to be inherent in each human being (seems to be our given Nature), then it’s only logical for me to try to find the ‘loophole’ with that branch of philosophy (by now I’m sure we all know that all kinds of philosophies & even science can always be found the ‘loophole’ and sometimes for a Good purpose to improve for a better ones, this is […]
This is the first post i’ve made to the internet since all this has happened, but here goes:
My girlfriend of 14 months left me in december and it was pretty sudden. We’d been having a few problems, nothing major, but we’d worked everything out. She was lying to me alot, going out to parties and telling me I couldn’t go with her and the reason was so she could see her friends as when i was there she felt stuck with me. She was talking/flirting with this boy alot online, I’d seen it and asked her but she insisted they were just friends. She promised […]
Do you have to love yourself to love another? If so, i may never love… and then whats the point?
http://www.darkroastedblend.com/2008/09/most-alien-looking-place-on-earth.html
Maybe we all should just drop everything, and go there,
to really truly experience LIFE again..
to feel and realize and be inspired,
knowing that perhaps, this earthly-life is worth to be lived with our every breath
only if we flee ourselves from our prison-wall, whatever that is..
In previous topic before this, I’ve talked & admitted about how I’m still jobless now,.and still living with my parents. I feel so ashamed, and especially for my parents, who are admittedly much more ‘practical’ than me & my ‘head-in-the-clouds’ imaginative personality,..which can act like a damn “curse” quite often. and all the ADHD, bipolar, easily bored/depressed/lose focus,..stuff like that!
So now, here I am,..almost 29 yrs old,..and still a fucking ‘loser’ as far as I can see..
and although as much as I often said that I don’t CARE about what society (even my family & parents & relatives!) keep saying, bombarding, pressuring, and […]
1. Are you now studying (school/uni?), or working? at which field/career? does it suck, or you enjoy?
2. And for those of you who are both not studying and working, how do you ‘finance’ your everyday living?
do you still stay (& provided) with ur parents? or…?
As for me, I shamefully admit,..I belong to the 2nd category, and yes, I still stay with my parents,..despite my age of almost 29 yrs old…. this is really pathetic/sad, especially in the eyes of my ‘practical’ parents AND society!
It doesn’t even matter a shit whether if people often are ‘surprised’ by my intelligences, deep […]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RuVuMslQWGs
Powerful.
Just want to share.
Watch it ’till ending,
and get enlightened
for the power of your choices and Life
…before ending it all.
This might proves to be very interesting (and mind-opening) to watch for 10 minutes,
perhaps it’s heavily related with how almost everyone here often feels.
it’s time to re-think our ‘old’ notions about survival and living.
getting more interesting..
When I don’t take my Meds I lose track of my myself. I sink in to a depression. The darkness takes over. All I can think of is my demons. All the mistakes I’ve made, the people I’ve hurt, those who I’ve lost are stuck in my head. The memories replaying again and again until I want to die.
I hate all those how rant about how suicide is a sin. I think they just fear death and that makes them feel weak. They hide their weakness behind walls of hate.
Suicide is not a sin. It is not a weakness. It takes strength to do. So many times I have […]
I cant take any fucking thing anymore. Everything in my life gets worse and worse. It all started when I dropped out of school when I was 15 (I’m 17 now) At the time I thought it was a good decision but now that I think about it, it wasn’t. 😐 I was getting bullied so bad to the point where I was too depressed to even go to school. I thought that dropping out would stop my depression, but it only made it worse. Now I feel like a fucking low life. I stay at home all day and barely ever leave the house […]
So you really want a f’in meaningful Change?
Not to be another walking zombie, just merely ‘existing’ & ‘surviving’ in this pathetic, rotten world right?
trust me, I can feel and relate totally with you..
Well,..here’s a BIG idea that might make you think & ponder a bit tonight (An idea is always better than nothing right?) :
what if I tell that it’s not our world that sucks
(eg: our Planet Earth, nature, animals, beauty of Nature, etc),..heck, it’s not even ALL humanity that sucks (eg: ALL humans & people you’ve met & encountered. ALL of ’em).
No.
It’s the System, the FEW Powers-that-be that CONTROLS the System,
“Never doubt that a small group of thoughtful, committed citizens can change the world. Indeed, it is the only thing that ever has.” – Margaret Mead.
What happened in Egypt is the real, solid proof of this quote.
No one before probably could predict nor expect that this kind of huge thing could ever happen, even in year 2011,.but it DO…ES and CAN happen!
Hope is not all lost.
sometimes I just feel that I don’t belong in this “real world”,..I’m such a “head in the clouds” person and NOT a ‘practical’ person,..which is unfortunately everything this so-called “real world” really needed 
how many of you here can relate very much with what I’m saying here?
and how do you handle it daily?
by ‘grinding’ through it?..like a machine?..
or by ‘creating’ your own reality, or even an alternate reality of yours?
by escaping frequently?..
*sigh*..this real world can be way too dull, uninspiring, bland, and ‘dry’ for my vivid imaginations…
Watch it.
Join it, and spread it, if you think it’s really damn *worth* it.
It really opened my eyes for me personally, and I’ve joined the local movement here in my home country.
Surprisingly, this is a global movement! and I’m very sure it’s going to grow & grow even more.
Because it’s hell much BETTER than our current sick, corrupt, and obnoxious ‘System’ and ‘society’ we’re currently having all around the world!
“(Never underestimate the importance of an idea). An idea is like a virus. Resilient, highly contagious. The smallest seed of an idea can grow. It can grow to define, or […]
Hi! My Name’s Hammad. When I was in my 3rd year at university I met this girl. We started out as friends but then before I knew it we connected more and more…till finally we started dating. We were in a relationship for a year…both completely in love with each other (well atleast I was and still am). I proposed marriage to her right after graduating and she said yes…..The issue was that Im a muslim and shes a buddhist…something which my mom had serious issues about. But I loved this girl and in no way was I gonna back down. I fought with my […]
So, I’ve been suicidal ever since I can remember. I remember being a little girl, trying to hang myself by skipping rope… My family use to abuse me both physically along with sexually. I was an insecure child being both white and indian like native american indian. I was never accpeted by the white because I had native blood and vice versa with the indians. I was alone. I started cutting at age 10 and gradually went deeper as I got older. I never had a father, so I never knew how to act. Around boys. My mom was a work-a-holic so we always had […]