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Lying In Bed

Im a ghost

by WillowH. 8/23/2013

written by WillowH.

Im so pissed right now…back then when i was lying in bed all day with fresh cuts on my hands noone gave a fuck… but now when i have to get a stupid highschool diploma suddenly im in the center of attention.

HEY! IM SUICIDAL OVER HERE!!! Help?

“but you wont get anywhere without proper edjucation, darling!”

am i dead already? what the hell giong on… noone can see nor hear me. Im crying through the day… how can you not notice mascara all over my stupid face?

okay, i dont need help anyways, i dont want it… but atleast before i die it would nice to hear things […]

8/23/2013 3 comments

You know you don’t care.

by i_have_a_secret 6/15/2013

written by i_have_a_secret

It’s 12:01 am. The sweat on my neck causes my hair to stick to the back of my neck. I’m lying in bed. I’m lying to myself. I tell myself that I’m ok. That things will get better. Just give it time. But how much Time? Time is a valuable thing to me. I only have so much of it.

It’s now 12:05 am. I wasted 4 precious minutes typing. 4 minutes ill never get back…

Now it’s 12:10. I’ve been writing for 9 minutes. And yet I feel no better. As a writer shouldn’t this make me happy? If not, at least a tad bit […]

6/15/2013 2 comments

Suicidal Inspiration “Everyday I tell myself…”

by icandoyourhair 6/6/2013

written by icandoyourhair

Do you have someone you know personally, or a role model/possible celebrity figure whose suicide or death you admire? Sometimes, I think of the deaths of others to help build up courage in the fact they could go through with it. You could either be inspired by the methodÂ itself or theÂ components of their life surrounding the death.

For example: I often think of Gary Stewart who was a 70’s country singer from where I live. He had some good hits in his day, reaching the top of the charts. […]

6/6/2013 4 comments

the verge.

by Charlotte 6/5/2013

written by Charlotte

Is it normal to take this long to get to sleep? for the last few days so many things have been on my mind. lately its been taking me at least 3 hours to get to sleep. i feel so tired, but i just cant manage to sleep well. i feel like i am on the verge of insomnia. Â ive tried listening to music. ive tried reading a book, and even just forcing my eyes shut and lying in bed for hours.

i need to clear my head.

but i dont know how.

6/5/2013 1 comment

Over it

by ablackrose 6/4/2013

written by ablackrose

Everyday I think about what it is like to succeedin life. Â Tonight I am sitting here and thinking that I have had enough. Â I am sick of not being able to achieve anything or make anyone proud of me. Â Since I was 14 all I have known is negativity, suicide thoughts, razor blades and lonely nights lying in bed with blood dripping from my arms and wrists. Â With a life like that, I want out. Â I am sick of no one listening.

6/4/2013 1 comment

I didn’t use to get triggered so easily…

by Jeanmarie1031 4/30/2013

written by Jeanmarie1031

But now it seems like eating disorders and self harm are all over the place. Iâ€™m sure Iâ€™ve probably been making the most weird and horrified faces at just about everything.

I got handed a knife to cut open a bag and the guy sitting next to me pointed to the bag and said â€œDonâ€™t cut yourself.â€ I almost dropped everything I was holding because I thought he was pointing at my left arm.

Later that night a friend walked in and said â€œMarion, youâ€™re so tiny and skinny.â€ I smiled because I was super proud of myself until she said â€œI donâ€™t mean to say you […]

4/30/2013 3 comments

Hi all, just some thoughts

by BartD 12/28/2012

written by BartD

Hi all, just registered, found the site through some google work. Have been hospitalised for 7 months in February with a nervous breakdown/depression (not certain which, they never told me) after being on Xanax for years. Been back to work in October and had to go see a new psychiatrist for follow-up who subscribed me on Fluoxetine (Prozac). I was doing ok (relatively) before that but for some reason I’m now more depressed than before instead of vice versa. The medication also makes me highly nauseous, especially sick in the morning, and causes severe heart pain in the early hours of morning when lying in […]

12/28/2012 7 comments

Is my world real??

by IMJAE 5/12/2012

written by IMJAE

My life, the world i live in… Â It confuses me so much now.. Â i try and write things down but have trouble explaiing how I feel because there is just so much to say… Â A long time ago i started to feel like i didnt know what i was doing, i didnt know where i was going or what the point was anymore… Â I fell in love with the tv show Doctor Who… Â that kept me going… i obsessed over it… Â I loved it, i created my own world where everything from Doctor Who was real. from that i kept obsessing over things. It […]

5/12/2012 2 comments

Constantly changing love mess

by Painman 3/23/2012

written by Painman

I am constantly changing, going to and throw to and throw from a bad place and maybe an
overly good good, does that sound like bipolar to you? I am sick of having nobody understand me and not being a part of something, my friends dont really know me, well one of them kinda does but mostly ive just been trapped inside with my personality unable to show, Its Like ive been a big balloon full of something expanding and expanding about to explode. Ive talked about good and fighting for the good but I do fall down and this is one of those moments! […]

3/23/2012 23 comments

Here we go again.

by indifference 1/31/2012

written by indifference

School is almost the day after tomorrow. I haven’t finished my homework and I am stressing.

Yesterday I fell into a random little depressed state where I couldn’t sleep or speak to anyone. This morning my sister went to the family counselor about her cycling coach who ended up being a perverted pedophile. She’s now pressing charges. While they were gone I was lying in bed thinking. I was thinking about what would happen if I overdosed while they were out or if I cut my wrists and didn’t stop bleeding until I was dead. The urge was the greatest it had been in a while.

I […]

1/31/2012 8 comments

On the edge of giving up.

by Peace 9/13/2009

written by Peace

Well, i’ve done it, i have dumped my girlfriend, i wont repost it but you can search for the thread: Feeling weak and pathetic

I decided to give life a 2nd try, life doesnt circle around love yet it hurts alot when you are broken but now it feels like my past is catching up with me again and i am really tierd of being alone..

Im not talking about getting a new girlfriend, i’ve lost a friend due to “love”. I just wanted someone to talk to, someone who i could talk about bunch of things with, someone to speak to when i feel awful and […]

9/13/2009 10 comments

I’m not suicidal, in my head

by Robyn 6/19/2009

written by Robyn

I don’t even know where to start explaining this…for that matter I’m not even sure that I’m trying to explain something to begin with.Â Maybe I’m just trying to understand it.Â Maybe some part of my brain is hoping that if I string enough words together someone, somewhere, will be able to explain it all to me.

I don’t even know if I’m suicidal.Â I used to think that “suicidal” was something definitive.Â Something that you’d know if you were or you weren’t.Â It didn’t seem like the sort of thing you’d miss, you know?Â I suppose if someone asked me outright I’d say no, I’m […]

6/19/2009 12 comments