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Helping Others and the Self

by k2fraser 4/11/2014

written by k2fraser

I just met someone a couple days ago and already they talking to me about their problems. Second person in a monthsâ€™ time. I must give off some kind of aura or something that people feel comfortable opening up to me soon after meeting me. Itâ€™s true, Iâ€™m trustworthy, I actually listen, I actually give a damn, and I wonâ€™t judge. Probably cause I deal with my own issues every day. I donâ€™t know.

So why canâ€™t I help myself? Am helping others to somehow try to help myself? Am I hoping than once Iâ€™ve helped them, they will turn around and help me? Ah, but […]

4/11/2014 5 comments

Should I break up with her before I leave?

by amity 4/10/2014

written by amity

I decided to off myself some time ago, but in the middle of getting everything arranged (will, notes to people left behind, etc.), I rekindled a love with a wonderful girl I met my freshman year of college (5 years ago at this point). Â I was so fascinated and enthralled with her that I thought, maybe, somehow, this is what I’ve needed. Â Something healthy and fulfilling after years of miserable, abusive, horrid intimate relationships. Â So, I put everything off.

Afterwards, I was happy, really happy for a spell, and every part of me was distracted by her. Â Even when bad feelings came, I knew I had […]

4/10/2014 16 comments

Alexis and the wail of doom

by Kallian 4/10/2014

written by Kallian

So, after being off for two days, coming back to work was really nice. After about an hour of actually laughing and joking around, we hear this noise. My ex walks down the entire row of checkstands, through the lobby and stands in the middle of the entryway to the store, crying. Not your usual, sniff sniff, cry. Oh no. I’m talking about wailing. Like a two year old who got decided to throw a tantrum. Â Everyone in the store stops and stares. Everyone but me. I start giggling. Then I realize its not a good idea so I try to make myself shut up. […]

4/10/2014 2 comments

The Suicide Note

by k2fraser 4/9/2014

written by k2fraser

1. Would you leave a suicide note? Why or why not?
2. Any interesting suicide notes you have read?

Answer 1: Personally since I plan to just â€œdisappearâ€, there will be no suicide note from me. But if for some reason my plan changes, I still donâ€™t think Iâ€™d leave a note. Well, maybe some sort of encrypted note, that would lead whoever decodes it on a wild goose chase to another encrypted note, then another, then another, until the last note is something like; â€œCongrats! This has been as pointless as my life!â€

Answer 2: Iâ€™ve read Heismanâ€™s and Manleyâ€™s. Actually, I didnâ€™t read all of Heismanâ€™s. Read […]

4/9/2014 3 comments

No one understands

by thatoneguy122 4/9/2014

written by thatoneguy122

4/9/2014 0 comment

I will figure it out.

by immortal_defiance86 4/7/2014

written by immortal_defiance86

I don’t even understand why I said yes to going out with him. I know I’m not ready for a relationship right now. Hell..he barely even knows me. He is nice and all, but I just don’t know what to do. I just got out of a relationship 2 months ago and I know that I am still in love with my ex boyfriend. It’s not fair to my new bf that I am dating him knowing that I am still in love with my ex. I could try and get to know the new bf and maybe really end up liking him…or I could […]

4/7/2014 1 comment

why is the fence so uncomfortable?

by goldencities 4/7/2014

written by goldencities

iâ€™ve been thinking about killing myself a lot lately. mostly because of my consistent failures in university. (and thereâ€™s also the fact that iâ€™ve just been properly diagnosed with bipolar ii rather than clinical depression after five years of taking the wrong kinds of medication. that too. probably.)

if my petition successfully goes through – and my psychiatrist at school assures me it will – then this will be the second semester in the four semesters iâ€™ve been at university that iâ€™ll have medically withdrawn from. when iâ€™m not in the middle of a depressive episode, i tell myself that school isnâ€™t worth ending my life […]

4/7/2014 0 comment

2 days

by Sammie Motionless 4/5/2014

written by Sammie Motionless

So im really heartbroken that my now x bf the one that helped me with everything and to get back up and feel good about my self has been cheating on me from the very beginning. Ill be taking my leave for about 2 days or maybe 2 weeks but ill try to get on a write something good for you guys. Good bye.

4/5/2014 0 comment

Let It Go

by LetItGo 4/5/2014

written by LetItGo

im done with the waiting around
but i can stop it; i just cant stop it
it hurts to wait for people like this
but i have to; i force myself too
i try to let people go and on their way
instead of them hanging around me
and me bring them down to my level
but i cant let go of these people
and i dont know why because i need to
i need to let them go because soon
ill be going myself; ill be on my way
and maybe its going to hurt them
or maybe not, but all i know
as […]

4/5/2014 1 comment

The Freak Show

by rach 4/5/2014

written by rach

Doomed from birth.Â Â Where is the justice in life?

And it’s not about karma there is no karma.Â I know so because I am one of life’s “freaks”.Â If I had a past life, I had the same essence, the same personality I have now.Â Otherwise I’d be a totally different person.Â IÂ am anÂ innocent creature.Â Never was a bully.Â Never was even cleverÂ or strong enough to figure out how to bully the bullies.Â But god made me a freak anyway.

Maybe god prefers the freaks.

http://www.thehumanmarvels.com/

I don’t believe in heaven but if I did- these people deserve to be there more than anybody.Â And if I were […]

4/5/2014 4 comments

Riley’s story

by Shadowrye 4/4/2014

written by Shadowrye

ok lets try this again. mon at 1040 pm just got off line talking with a three four people on plenty of fish pof i feel as though am doing something wrong talking with three different people and to be honest Michelle i dont know what am doing am 38 I dont know how to be friends with a girl I dont know how to date people my age I fumbe threw confersations becuase i dont even now how to hold a conversation more thatn half of my life is a drunkin druggy blurr thats why i feel so intimadated and lost and thats why […]

4/4/2014 6 comments

You are not alone

by thatoneguy122 4/4/2014

written by thatoneguy122

I am where you are right now and have tried too end it and probably won’t stop trying but just remember that there are others like you. You are not alone, I’m not going too tell you that you are going too get better and that life will be fine. It never gets better and probably never will. Just remember that you are not alone and maybe just maybe you can do what I can’t and take solace in the fact that you are just a single person but you have an army of people just like you behind you.

4/4/2014 2 comments

Spending…

by k2fraser 4/3/2014

written by k2fraser

I’ve just realized I have a pretty big spending problem. It’s like I’m living pay check to pay check. I’m not sure why I’m doing it though.

Probably just buying some comfort for an hour that ends up making me feel like shit after.

I’ve been doing it quite often it seems. What is happening to me? Some sort of impulse behaviour to calm me? Trying to hold onto hope? Something more primal?

I don’t know. But I gotta stop. Bills need to be paid. Though maybe it’s been a hindrance to getting better? Or preventative measures to avoid getting worse.

4/3/2014 2 comments

Finally.

by Hospital For Souls 3/31/2014

written by Hospital For Souls

I’m finally going to do it.
I’m getting out.
Away.
Away from here.
Nobody will be able to save me in 40 seconds.
Now I’m counting down the days to when I’ll slit my wrists and walk into the light.
I feel at peace.
This was a test that I just couldn’t succeed in.
Maybe death is my thing, my purpose.
I’m sorry everybody if it sounds like I’ve given up.
I haven’t. I’ve just said yes to fate.

3/31/2014 7 comments

Does it matter

by Day 3/31/2014

written by Day

My mother is a complete psycho ***** that hates me to the extent of why I wonder I haven’t blown my brains out a lot if times I wonder if I’m even her son or something else to her like property and my dad is a wanna be thug who TRIES to relate to me when he was NEVER there for me and suddenly thinks that he can come back and think I will have no hard feelings towards him my grandparents think I mess everything up maybe it’s true I pretty much have nobody all of my friends I’ve made are on Xbox and […]

3/31/2014 2 comments

Bands don’t define how you want to be treated

by Sammie Motionless 3/31/2014

written by Sammie Motionless

So I don’t use this kind of stuff of chats or Facebook anymore. Iive Bvb n I’m part of the Bvb army. People always tell me o you’re so imo go kill yourself just for liking them. I like botdf people tell me that its gay and tell me I’m worthless and like getting raped just cause of a band. That hurts they don’t know that I was raped when I was in fifth then 7th n 8th then freshman year. They dont know me they don’t know my story but I guess my music defines how I like to be treated. I like suicide […]

3/31/2014 5 comments

Just another story

by poulgara 3/30/2014

written by poulgara

What do you expect from a delinquant. I am not fucking insane even if I want to be. It would explain everything that has happened along the way with me, but all I really am is stupid and delusional and just a total crackhead. I wish I was brave enough to take my own life. Maybe someday I will be,but all that I want now is to be stong enough to die, to throw myself under a car or cut my wrists or just take a bunch of pills and never look back. I may have found the perfect way but the […]

3/30/2014 0 comment

Another Person

by Sammie Motionless 3/30/2014

written by Sammie Motionless

So once i had went to a aslyum for my cuts. I had met so many people had i saw past they cuts and burns they were beautiful with words and drawings and anything. But there was on that stood out the most. It was the first time ive ever seen someone with a huge deep slash on their throat. That person was always alone looking out the window like if he was waiting or just thinking. So i thought well let me see if i can talk to him. Everyone said he never talked so i thought well this is going to be difficult […]

3/30/2014 4 comments

Why do I feel alone?

by TheRoadSoFar 3/30/2014

written by TheRoadSoFar

I mean, I may have friends. Maybe people out there care for me, but I’m very overhelmed by sadness that I can’t see it, or believe it. Still, being with my “friends” is nothing, I feel alone with them, I feel alone without them… I’m such a mess. I don’t deserve these people. Some care on their own different way, but I can’t see it. I sound like an attention seeker don’t I? I’m not. Seriously.

Still, every single person I have met has hurt me in one way or another. Maybe I’m too sensible. I don’t know. I’m a goddamn disaster. I feel worthless. […]

3/30/2014 1 comment

who knows

by LetItGo 3/29/2014

written by LetItGo

all i want to do now is hurt myself more
or maybe just kill myself now
because i have done it and its bad
i dont know anything anymore
i dont know how to feel anymore
but at the same time i feel this great pain
and i dont know how to make it go away
i just want it to all stop but it cant
so maybe i will just hurt myself more
ill just keep making myself bleed
until one day i take it too far and bleed to my death
then maybe the pain will go away
who knows.

3/29/2014 1 comment

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