I’m 25 and currently 19 weeks pregnant for the first time. I have been depressed all through this ordeal. In the past I’ve had a bad habit of cutting, there are 3 scars on my arm where I cut very deep on 3 different occasions. I also cut my wrist which left a scar. I have not cut while pregnant but am still very depressed. I guess I’ve been depressed for a while now. I’m stuck at the house most of the time. I worked as a barber for 1 yr but had to leave due to being harassed and have had no luck finding […]
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I’m sorry if I mislead you, lead you on or gave any signals I didn’t mean to send. Truth is, I’m in love with someone who sure as hell isn’t you. I’m sorry I didn’t tell you before… I’m a lesbo freak. I’m in love and it kills me everyday because I know I can never have her. I feel z lot of shit, pity for myself and empathy for you. I’m sorry I can’t ever love you, and I know what it’s like now, to have love thrown back in your face. I’m sorry I can’t be who I wish I could be… if […]
Just because it’s Valentines Day doesn’t mean you need to celebrate with a significant other. Take the time to tell your family & loved ones how much they mean to you. Sometimes I don’t feel like I tell them enough so this is just another excuse because, let’s be honest- it’s just another day of the year so technically it’s Valentines day everyday. Most of all, remember to continue to LOVE yourself . Take care of yourself. Take care of your heart. I’m gonna take the moment to tell you guys right now that I love you guys… *big hugs*.
Maybe […]
My friends.. Before.. They were all I had and what made me stay.
But they saw how people began to hate me.. And decided they didn’t want to be seen with me.. So they all left.
Now I’m here, still depressed.
All alone.
Friendless.
Feeling so useless to the world.
I mean, why live anymore??
No reason anymore.
Anyone else on here have extremely loud, racing thoughts?
It’s like there are 50 different thoughts at once, all yelling at me.
:/ I mean it’d be nice to have a quiet mind, for once.
By legitimate, I don’t mean legal. Obviously, most people here are going through some type of (intense) pain. What I mean is, are there circumstances, both internal and external to an individual, which a group of mature, impartial observers would agree are so unbearable, and so unlikely to be changed, that suicide is a rational choice, maybe even a compassionate one ?
I once met someone who said that no one should commit suicide before 40, because s/he hadn’t lived enough to know what his/her possibilities were.
And not I’m talking about the sanctity of life issue, which being a religious/personal one, can never be decided on […]
I have to wake up early in the morning to go see a pyschiatrist.
I’m really scared though.
I mean, what if he/she thinks I’m some crazy person? Or thinks I should be locked up in some mental hospital?
My anxiety is being a big bother at the moment, and I have no mecidine to control it at the moment.
Wish me luck for tomorrow .. er.. today I guess since it’s 12:00 a.m.
Hello.
Nobody really needs to see this, just read my username.
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Why keep on going?
It’s just…… Everything is made out to mean the world to people when there are stars out there that are trillions of times larger than our planet. If anything, we’re just science’s little exception. People say that if we moved just a little closer to the sun, our planet could burst into flames. So why try anything?
this all started from reading some story, by the way.
I just don’t understand why we keep on working if everything is going to waste anyways. Maybe I’m just being a big ol’ douche, i dunno.
If we want […]
So…guess who’s back? Annabeth is. She left for a week or so, and I was the only person who cared enough about her to continue talking to her while she was gone, since everyone at school believed that she was gone for good. I thought so, too. But now she’s back, and that’s not necessarily a good thing. When I found out she would be returning to live nearby, I was overjoyed. I thought that maybe, just maybe, there would be a chance that she would finally talk to me in real life. That I would mean something to her. Maybe she could actually care […]
All life is just a progression toward and then a recession from one phrase– ‘I love you’
by alina_01
written by alina_01
Its what we all seek ultimately whether we want it or not, is it not true? We search this world for someone who understands us who can accept us and love us, thats the dream. To mean something to someone, at least based on my perspective how can I mean anything to myself if I mean nothing to no one? When I was younger I always wanted love I mean I never truly had it I was drunk on the idea of love and in my mind love was the only thing that could heal my brokenness. I found love, it was amazing truly and […]
I am so tired of fighting… Fighting against the pain, fighting against these stupid thoughts and insecurities. I am tired of having to justify why I am not able to do things in allotted time due to my physical difficulties… If I don’t mean anything, why do I exist… Can’t I just go to sleep and never wake up again…
to be honest, all what i think about now is killing myself. there is absolutely nothing good about my life. i know people have it worse, but i can’t bare with it anymore. i just want to jump in front of a car and die. i know my family will act like they miss me, but i am positive they’d be happy that i am gone. same with my friends. in fact, i don’t even have many friends. maybe 2 at the most. i just want to mean something to someone, i want to mean something to myself.
I know it is selfish for me to be jealous of my family and friends that are dating their boyfriends or girlfriends. I just can’t help it. Ever since I fell for you and you decided to rip my heart out I just can’t stand seeing others happy. I mean sure I am really happy for them because I care about them, but I just don’t understand why I’m not happy like them. They have everything going for them and a man or lady on there side. Oh man, how I wish to kiss a boy. I haven’t in so long. I just want to […]
Each time, my heart finds a more inappropriate person to love. Pretty sure one day I’ll end up in love with a cartoon character.
But what I’m telling you now makes no sense and I’m sorry. I love too many people, too much, and I’m just not a very good person. I mean, I don’t cheat physically, but I do it a lot emotionnaly.
Sorry for this confusing post.
Hi Guys,
Umm…. So I think I have decided something… I’m not going to continue with these posts… Sorry… It’s just I am running out of things… My life is now boring… I mean all it is now is wake up, starve myself, go to sleep. I mean do you really want to hear that every day?
Sooo yeahh…. If you do want me to continue just leave a comment saying so…
How am I? Physically: Meh, could be better, but it could be worse. Mentally: My mind is chaotic.
My physical state… Well you know how I injured my shoulder maybe a week ago? Yeah well last night […]
…or the best, depending on how you look at it. The humans who work here are as sterile, apathetic and sickening as the bleached walls. It’s funny, nature documentaries talk about how animals adapt the appearance of their surroundings as some sort of camouflage. Believe it.
Not even talking about myself, I can’t believe how many sorry saps are in here begging and pleading for help, and all they get are cold, apathetic sneers from the staff. “Stop whining or we’ll really make you suffer” is what their tyrannical stares say.
I’m sure there are a thousand ways to die in the hospital. Just looking around my […]
Hi Guys,
I don’t feel well… I feel suicidal… So suicidal… So depressed and sad I don’t know what to do…
How am I? Physically: Broken Mentally: Broken
My physical state… It’s just not the best right now… I have no cuts… Well not yet… Maybe later tonight my body will have a few… But who knows? Maybe I’ll be pathetic and not cut… I just don’t know… I don’t feel well… I don’t feel like I deserve to live… I’m in so much pain… So many tears… Why should I live when I’m in so much pain? Can’t I go?
My mental state… It’s just too broken […]
i can’t take it anymore
i don’t know how to cope
this isn’t a goodbye
i hate goodbyes
but this is close to it
i don’t know guys
itd be so much easier
than to keep fighting
to just submit
into the darkness
its getting to too much
i don’t really have anyone
to talk to about these things
i mean yeah i have friends
but they don’t know the whole story
and i don’t want to tell them
and my parents yeah i could tell them
but then id have to sit down and have
a long talk with them and i can’t do […]
It is not okay to kill yourself. It is mean, it is selfish, it is disgusting. My bother was my best friend in the whole world. He was my go to guy for everything. He was strong, he was beautiful, and he was horribly selfish. He took his own life and left me here to try to live without him. It was too mean, too horrible, too awful for me to wrap my head around it. My mother can not stand to get out of bed, my dad had to cut his baby down when he found him hanging in the basement. My brother is […]
Hi Guys,
I guess my life is getting too boring to keep writing these things… So sorry… I might not continue this… I don’t know… So… Might not continue with this… Sorry.
Normal day routine.. Get up and stuff. Except one of my friends and I got into this little mini fight about my weight and I just don’t know. I mean I just don’t know guys… I just… I’ve never liked how I looked. I never loved what my body shape was. And now I’m expected to suddenly love it? And I just don’t know guys…
And ugh. One of my friends just keep threatening me […]