I don’t want to die…I just don’t want to exist

I feel your pain, bro. Hell, I’m going through something similar…But in my case, I can actually get training to actually do things. I would guess that my disability is a tad more obvious than yours, though; reading braille and walking around with a cane would do that, I guess. And there’s places, there’s places that actually offer training. In Minnesota, in Colorado and Louisiana are the “big three.” My parents…Eh. They’re convinced I’m 8, not 18, and Minnesota is “too far!” so I’m pretty much fucking doomed. Just this morning, I spent an hour in a downpour, totally lost. And being that it was torrential rain out there, nobody was really around for me to get directions. So I wandered around aimlessly because I don’t know the layout of my campus very well, literally for an hour, until I just said, “fuck it,” and pressed one of those buttons you see all over campuses, you know, public safety. Turns out I was near the football field, nowhere near the dorms. If I had had proper training in cane travel, none of this shit would happen. I, too, am pretty sick of fighting. With parental units, with random people on the streets (I’ve been told that “blind people can’t go anywhere and should just stay home”), etc. And shit just…Isn’t gonna get any better, anytime soon. If ever.