I’m one from a very good life. I’m 20, been in a good relationship for going on 5 years. I have friends who love me and a family that’s never split up and always been tight-knit. So, what’s wrong? Why do I just want out? I’ll go long periods of time where I feel okay. (No, not great and not bad. Simply okay. Like I know I exist and I’m fine with that) yet when I break, its hard. I’ll have the worst mood swings, going from absolutely rude and waspish to bawling my eyes out and feeling alone. Incredibly alone. The past few days […]
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• I’ve had insomnia for about 7 years now. No pills taken. Sometimes 2 or 3 hours sleep at night (nightmares definitely)
• Mood swings
• Can’t stay in a relationship (one person around all the time makes me anxious and hysterically angry after a while, specially after having sex)
• Anger attacks since I was a teenager
• Used to smoke for about 5 years (I suddenly couldn’t stand its smell, so quit a year ago)
• Been suicidal for a year (no attempts yet but been studying and planning, considering my options) the thoughts become stronger when I’m happier and everything is in its place
• Used to have hallucinations […]
Sometimes you live, and your so busy that time just vanishes, tomorrow turns into next week, next week turns into next month, and next month turns into next year. Before you know it nothing gets done…
Well this past week has been interesting, they say the thrill is in taking part. I’m running for Student Union President, I am going laugh if I win though as I will not be here. However its the buzz of running a campaign, of talking to different people (I absolutely love talking to people…) that gets me. I’ve got tons of support from random people which is amazing, however the […]
I’m…I don’t know what I am. Depressed? Bipolar? According to a medical diagnosis, probably not. I’ve read stories on here that speak of not being able to even get up in the morning, who can’t find the will to do anything. I, however, get up, I go to school, put on a smile, talk to people, act normal. Inside, I’m a complete mess. School is like my own personal hell. I really don’t have friends. I’m so alone and yet surrounded by people. I hate life. I want to die. God, how I just want to end this torture. There are some days I actually […]
My suicide story isn’t base on a single dramatic occurrence or a series of bad hands dealt to me by life, like so many have posted concerning their suicide stories. Like many (if not all) here I have been dealing with deep depression, manic mood swings, and suicidal thoughts on a daily basis, that at times feels all consuming. Again, my path to suicide wasn’t due to a traumatic event but rather a fucking series of mundane, minutiae life events that have led me to deciding to off myself at the end of lackluster, Loserville 25 year bullshit life. All my life I haven’t amounted […]
I have problems. Like most people.
I hate my parents. They treat me like utter crap.
I’m Asian, so that must count for why they are abusive. Just kidding, sorta.
I have major mood swings.
My friends don’t understand my pain. They don’t know that I’m rather suicidal.
I’m WAY to scared to attempt anything though. Yeah, I’m a wimp.
I’m a pretty good actor. My friends always see me as a super happy girl, not what I really am.
I’m overly-sensitive, so I cry easily. Over EVERYTHING.
I must be annoying you now from my silly ranting.
I have released my book on my struggles with suicide here http://kingsdaughters21.blogspot.com/p/hopes-journey.html
I feel so tired that I wish I could just go to sleep one last time and never wake up again, that would be soo nice right now. And it’s not just a tiredness caused by too many late nights, trust me, it goes much deeper than that. Basically I’ve grown so world weary that I’m tired of life itself and now quite at my wits end for the incessant doubts, fears and anger have really taken their toll on me. Sometimes I think this is all just a bad nightmare and one day I’m going to wake up and everything will be fine, but I […]
Its always darkest before the dawn right? Where did the fucking Sun go?
by Stoshua18
written by Stoshua18
Well it’s been an interesting time in my life. I’ve spent almost 2 months of it in a mental hospital separated with a girlfriend of almost 3 years, mother of my third son who will be 2 tomorrow. Â Started a relationship with another woman who I have to say, I love dearly. Â I just don’t know what to do with myself anymore. I can’t bring myself to live a ‘normal’ life where I am a responsible adult and 9-5 and family one weekends. I left out in disability in December of last year about 3 months after FINALLY seeing a psychiatrist and being diagnosed with […]
Fellow Sufferers:
I’ve lived with Bipolar Type 2 since I was 12 years old. It is a form of manic-depression in which you don’t usually have psychotic problems, but you do have major mood swings — mild “ups” (hypomanias) followed by normal periods, and then crushing depressions.
I was not diagnosed until my middle forties. I attempted suicide three times in my early twenties. I still have sporadic suicidal ideas when I go through bad periods in my life. I’m nearly sixty now.
Since Bipolar Type 2 is genetic, it pervaded my family. My childhood was not good, to put it very mildly.
I know that when you are […]
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