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I will try to stop eating

by FrenchyGirl 8/20/2015

written by FrenchyGirl

So, I will maybe make a journal to force me stop eating until death.

Next month, I will be completely alone in the flat for 2 months, so it would be easy to let me die. It’s ideal.

I hope I will become very weak, and the death will be sweet.

I tried some times, but there have been things that made me consider that hope in my life was still possible. I was wrong everytime.

I have no money, because unemployed, and the social help stopped, and I won’t ask them another help, I have one month, and I won’t be tempted to buy food, because I have no […]

8/20/2015 5 comments

Constantly down about myself and everything around me

by brendawise 8/19/2015

written by brendawise

I just want to end it now and don’t know the best way. I want something that would be painless and I’d just fall asleep and never wake up.
Then I think of my daughter. She’s 23 and has a wonderful boyfriend. They are both working on their futures and doing as well as they can. Both working hard towards it.
I don’t want to hurt her more than anyone in my life. But at the same time I just feel worthless and don’t want to be around anymore

8/19/2015 4 comments

by Rose Weathers 8/19/2015

written by Rose Weathers

Ugh. Where do I start? My life is a total cesspool (sorry if incorrect spelling) filled with empty promises, hopelessness, fear, regret, grief, and lies. Why do so many people hate me? What did I do? If the ignorant douchebags in my life don’t give a crap about me, well, they will when Im dead. If i could see the consequences of my death, i would love too. I would like to see how everybody reacts. They probably wouldn’t care. Everybody already only cares about themselves. I am scheduling a date to take myself out. Should I? Or should I forgive the god awful people […]

8/19/2015 3 comments

I could only wish

by hard2smile 8/19/2015

written by hard2smile

you know, i envy people with cancer. Listen i understand its terrible, and what im saying sounds ridiculous. But for the people on this page just imagine for a second. I hate myself, i hate everyone and im pretty sure everyone hates me. I’m so angry, so depressed, so stressed, so sick of everything. If i had cancer, that saves me having to commit suicide. Having to to find a gun, so the suicide is painless as possible. If i had cancer, I could sit, play video games, read books, watch soccer, football basketball without a fuck to give. Cause i know my life is […]

8/19/2015 7 comments

I’m excited about dying

by SmokyMemories425 8/19/2015

written by SmokyMemories425

I’m spending the last few days relaxing and writing notes to all my family. I know it might seem crazy because I’m cheerful about dying at 27 years old. I just feel like I’ve experienced all I’ve wanted/needed to experience from this life. It’s time for me to go. It might seem strange to have an upbeat attitude about offing yourself, but maybe that will leave behind a peaceful solution to those in my life who are living stressfully. I bought a bag of charcoal and I’m waiting for the day when my parents and brother aren’t in the house and I’m going to burn […]

8/19/2015 9 comments

My story

by Dxe_56 8/19/2015

written by Dxe_56

Just spent a bunch of time writing this on mobile and forgot to save it and got an error, yay me.

Anyway, hi. I’ve been browsing this website on and off for the past year or so and decided to share my story today.

So I’m currently 18 years old, and I’ve been dealing with depression and suicidal thoughts since about 9 or 10.

I’ve never really met or talked to my real father in any way, he left when I was 3 months old, I come from a relatively poor family

and my father never paid his child support, my mom rarely had a job and would constantly get […]

8/19/2015 6 comments

Help

by ogm222 8/18/2015

written by ogm222

Hi my name is X,
I am 19 and have been struggling through the last 4 years.
Here is a brief run down of my past.

I first started feeling suicidal when I was 16 for the first year I convinced my self it was nothing as most teenagers go through so I put it down to the bulling and no social life.

When I was 17 the feelings still hadn’t stopped even though I had a job and had a nice girlfriend. I was getting more depressed and down and had being going to see multiple counsellors, I was the only one aware of my feelings. […]

8/18/2015 0 comment

Help i need advice!!!

by runfree 8/18/2015

written by runfree

Hello, people reading this i have a huge problem and i need your advice. I am 17 years old and i have tried to commit suicide more then 5 times. Everytime something in my life goes wrong aall i think about is how to kill myself , but this time i might really do it. So i will be entering the 12th grade this year and there is a HUMONGOUS amount of pressure on me to go study abroud and get into a Great University, but the thing is i TOTALLY FAILED my international AS level examinations and those grades are really important to get […]

8/18/2015 10 comments

Second living…live and learn

by CRiticalthinker 8/18/2015

written by CRiticalthinker

Soooo this is my first post thingy so no hate unless its at least funny and please comment your own thoughts.

I wanna start out by saying how weird life is and how unbelievably random it could be, but also how planed it ends up being. Like if I make a good choice to hang out with my first friend which goes into a bad decision of doing drugs, which leads to a path with fake friends. Then of course ended up here at block one with no friends just to start all over.

But I cant help to say that I kinda liked that part of my […]

8/18/2015 1 comment

Numb

by consideringhope 8/18/2015

written by consideringhope

I find myself feeling numb. Sometimes a spark of happinesss comes in, or a glimmer of hope, or moments of excrutiatingly painful, lonely, sadness. I feel as if I don’t want to end my life, but I’d like too end the pain, sorrow, and for once, I’d like too feel again. In a good way.

8/18/2015 7 comments

It’s time

by enoughinsomnia 8/17/2015

written by enoughinsomnia

I thought I had posted this last night but don’t see it. I don’t really understand all the SEO stuff but I checked them all. It seems like the most secure thing to do.

Anyway, all I can think of is ending my life here and planning it in terms of finding a few pets other homes, etc. I am older so it’s not like I have “my whole life ahead of me”. Depression/dysthymia with a few major episodes, nervous breakdowns, excruciating pain then surgeries then more excruciating pain, pain meds addiction. Finally managed to get out of pain and thru several Dr.s and bad doctoring […]

8/17/2015 1 comment

Impaired and Destructive

by brodie3750 8/17/2015

written by brodie3750

…or at least that’s how I think I feel

I’m so worn down and tired all the time now. I’m not usually one to commit to displaying how bad I feel but recently I just had at It on social media (Instagram, snapchat, etc) Eventually people took notice and started worrying.

My boss called me in for a chat recently to see if I was alright. She looked at me funny when I couldn’t give her a reason as to why I feel so horribly bad. People who don’t actually suffer depression don’t seem to understand that it’s not necessarily a combination of negative things that make […]

8/17/2015 5 comments

anyone knows how it would be ?

by srija 8/17/2015

written by srija

iam 21 and i have gone through many things which are beyond my age. i love my family very much. i love u mom sister and my brother. iam sorry that iam going to end my life as soon as possible becase i cant stay in this world full of fake. i always tried to be myself and because of that people hate me saying im proud an egoist.

i love u dad.. before u left us…every thing was perfect.. my life was a heaven. now its a hell which i want to end. i wonder what people think if i die…no one does not even […]

8/17/2015 3 comments

Just want to feel normal again

by dielukedie 8/16/2015

written by dielukedie

All I ever want is to go back to feeling normal. But I haven’t felt normal since I was 5. My dad killed himself when I was 6, and my mum remarried. When I was 8, my stepdad began to sexually abuse me, all the way through to the age of 17. I self harmed and was seriously depressed throughout this whole ordeal. The abuse happened almost every day, in every room of the house. I’m 19 now and he is in prison, but I can’t get away from the mental, physical and emotional scars and trauma that I’m left with. I want to feel […]

8/16/2015 4 comments

A painful journey.

by BrokenDreams 8/16/2015

written by BrokenDreams

Hi, I’m a visual novelist… well that what I was aiming to be.

People often tell you: ”With time you will get better.”

Well, I wonder and anyway… I don’t have the luxury to take my time. But before I tell you about my current situation let me give you a slice of my past.

At the age of 15 I moved away from my country and started to travel with my parents in a country where I couldn’t reach my friends.

Internet you say? Well there were 8 to 9hours of time difference between them and me and I didn’t have a computer so I could only go […]

8/16/2015 0 comment

I cant do this, especially not pregnant

by Ijustcantdothis 8/16/2015

written by Ijustcantdothis

I dont have any fight left in me. Im 30, I was married for 11 years. My divorce should be finalized next month.

He left me for someone else. He told our daughter shes her new stepmom. I never wanted kids yet I have three and a baby on the way.

My husband controlled my life. I wasnt allowed to work or go to college, for a long time I wasnt even allowed to drive.

Last year when he asked for a divorce I joined a dating website and met a man. I fell in love, I never loved my husband this way. This man turned out to […]

8/16/2015 1 comment

Will never get better

by bluu 8/16/2015

written by bluu

A vicious circle my life will always be.

I’ve always coped in the only way I know, it hurts me and creates even more darkness.

The small glimmer of hope came and passed; false and pretend, that’s all it ever was.

A vicious circle my life will always be.

In a week’s time, I will be nothing once again.

There is no future for someone with such deep struggles.

I held on for no reason; I will never get better.

I know.

8/16/2015 0 comment

Chronic illness, life is over

by sparrowhills 8/16/2015

written by sparrowhills

I am a 23 year old guy and I have been diagnosed with a chronic autoimmune condition called lupus. What this means is that my immune system finally caught up with my brain and started hating itself as much as I did before I even knew what the word “lupus” meant. My body is destroying itself and if I choose to keep living, I will live every day for the rest of my life in pain with the looming threat of facing severe organ damage or becoming permanently bedridden. Having lupus means that something as innocent as spending 2 minutes in the sun could cause my immune system to […]

8/16/2015 3 comments

I am seriously considering death

by todayist88 8/16/2015

written by todayist88

I have had the worse five months of my life; anxiety, bdd, everything has destroyed me and who I am. I look fucking 10 years older. I think it is time for me to go; the only comfortable thought I have: Suicide.

Why go on living ?

8/16/2015 3 comments

Maybe?

by todaymaybe 8/16/2015

written by todaymaybe

I don’t know how much longer I can deal with this life. Wake up everyday and deal with the same things. I have learned recently what people really think about me. And I don’t want to be here anymore. I want the pain to end. I want this constant ache to just be gone. If I just end my life, my suffering ends and people can finally be happy. I’m useless to people, I don’t think anyone would really miss me. People would go through the motions of missing me but really, I just think they would go grieve me for the acceptable time and […]

8/16/2015 1 comment

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