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my self

by deerdezz 9/27/2015

written by deerdezz

Ive gotten to the point where i dont really feel bad for a number of things. I still feel in the ‘wrong’ on a social stance because i feel that i might be lacking empathy and well thats my own self analysis. Im entitle to it right? I do feel at times im horrible, a monster it would be better to burn my bridges than to subject those who still care to my ups and downs. But then they’re also choosing to stick around when they know how bad things can get with me.

Things have never felt or seemed so clear before. A lot […]

9/27/2015 2 comments

I don’t know anymore

by maddie_kay 9/26/2015

written by maddie_kay

My boyfriend of 3 years broke up with me because I’m “too needy” and “gloomy all the time”. I’m sorry for wanting to spend more than 4 hours a week with you. I’m sorry for getting jelous and depressed when you tell me that you’re hanging out with your friends, and it turns out one of them is a some pretty girl. How did I find this out, because you fucking came to say hi to me at work while you two were alone. I’m sorry that I got upset when I found out you were giving my mega slut “friend” car rides to school […]

9/26/2015 9 comments

5 days after my release….hindsight

by wndozh8er 9/15/2015

written by wndozh8er

I thought the therapy was great at the time while I was in the psyche ward. Problem is, what really helped was the “friends” I thought I made. I have severe attachment issues and can’t stand to be alone and rejection brings out my PTSD. If they was going to do therapy, it should have been some sort of 1 on 1 thing. Now I feel this huge empty void again but without the suicidal thoughts. Because nobody returned my calls and deleted my friends request on Facebook, my self confidence is one again in a graveyard. I’d be right where I was if I […]

9/15/2015 13 comments

by jadedkeizy 9/1/2015

written by jadedkeizy

Just tired of life. Tired of dealing with mindless sheeple out there. Tired of the world and its empty material pursuits. Tired of faking the funk when I obviously don’t give a shit about anything anymore. I am to mentally sick to do anything meaningful with my life. I have come to terms with my fate. Tired of family that only tells me to pray to mythical men in the sky as a remedy for my depressive state. Sick and tired of all that. I am going to pop 5 lethal pesticide pills and that will be it. I have always been looking for something […]

9/1/2015 1 comment

I need help (a friend or just someone to talk to)

by cocoki 8/31/2015

written by cocoki

So my cousin who I consider More of a friend and my friend from high school get along really well and we all hang out but now they are both in relationships and the 4 of them get along so well they are talking about double dates and I just left bcoz I have no1 and even if I did I don’t know how to be in a relationship or what love feels like the only example I have growing up is not 1 that I consider love and It is I don’t want it but I have also just lost the only 2 friends […]

8/31/2015 2 comments

Welcoming My selF

by hollatme 8/29/2015

written by hollatme

hummm …
let me welcome my self in ur world friends !

well, since it’s my first 5 min in here … i’ll try to say something positive for once ..
i think we have somethings in commun here ! naaah i’m not talking about suicide projects … i’m trying to indicate … humm let me think !
i’ll make it more interesting for a change …
like a puzzle … every time i post a story bt me … i’ll give u a hint 😉

8/29/2015 3 comments

the time is now

by anu 8/26/2015

written by anu

hi….I just wanna tell u some thing
is there any one understand the meaning of life in this world….but still I am not……I think it’s meaning less……
my family, my friend… hates me a lot….
before some days I tryed many times to kill my self b/c am not brave to do this
but Now the time is coming………

8/26/2015 2 comments

Help

by ogm222 8/18/2015

written by ogm222

Hi my name is X,
I am 19 and have been struggling through the last 4 years.
Here is a brief run down of my past.

I first started feeling suicidal when I was 16 for the first year I convinced my self it was nothing as most teenagers go through so I put it down to the bulling and no social life.

When I was 17 the feelings still hadn’t stopped even though I had a job and had a nice girlfriend. I was getting more depressed and down and had being going to see multiple counsellors, I was the only one aware of my feelings. […]

8/18/2015 0 comment

Last Group Meeting, Director Pissed Me Off

by Lovebug4142 8/18/2015

written by Lovebug4142

Today was the last day of my teen group. All the kids for all the groups went to ZDT’S. It was fun, hanged out with my squad. Did this support group help me with my self harming and drug problem? HELL NO. We never talked about anything like that, I basically wasted every Thursday since June making friends. I became really close with the transport driver, she thinks I am a great singer and a very pretty young lady. She understands my problems and talks to me. I’m really gonna miss her.

Since today is the last day I’ll see the transport lady, we both wanted […]

8/18/2015 0 comment

I Need Help

by DayDay5151 8/17/2015

written by DayDay5151

I’m going through to much lost my girl lost my relationship with my mom in the process of being kick out only 17 no family no friends no income no job ask God everyday why me why me im I a good person or a bad person was I ment to be put on earth was I a mistake sometimes I question myself is there really a God if so Why do he let stuff like this happen to people why when I pray my praises doesn’t be answer Why Do I Find Myself Crying A bout my situation why don’t he come through for […]

8/17/2015 5 comments

My Reality

by Raining souls 8/16/2015

written by Raining souls

I don’t get it. My parents say that my depression is just and act, but when my sister boyfriend breaks up with her and she goes and cries they help her right away. But when I’m crying or just lock my self in my room all they say is oh stop acting like a child. When i told them that i have some scars, this is the thing that got me so mad all they did was laugh. They say im just acting. But I’m not they don’t know i tried to kill my self more then once and all they say is that I’m […]

8/16/2015 1 comment

Feeling alone

by megan0550 8/12/2015

written by megan0550

I’m struggling with my self confidence. I feel so ugly and I hate my body. My ex boyfriend watched porn behind my back, huge tit porn. I don’t have big boobs and It has made me hate myself so much. I wish I had big boobs, I wish someone would love me for my body

8/12/2015 23 comments

by Emotional 8/1/2015

written by Emotional

I have been self harming for as far back as i could remember. I think it started when i was about 10ish. I would bank my head against the wall to stop what ever was going on in my head at the time. I would love to see the bruises develop on areas I hurt. I was always known as the accident prone child. I remember one time i must have been about 12. I threw myself off my bike and scraped myself down a brick wall. I would try and keep under the radar by not making the injuries obvious. I progressed to cutting […]

8/1/2015 2 comments

Wife of 5 Years Left Me… What’s Next?

by andrew.silver 7/25/2015

written by andrew.silver

My wife of 5 years left me about 2 weeks ago, out of the blue.

I take some responsibilities in light that I have anger issues. We had cyclical arguments in which I blew up every 6 months, and in my anger I lost my self. My wife has told me that she lives in fear because of this.

I thought I was making improvements… For example when I have temper outburst, I no longer make threatening gestures (only my tone of voice was escalated, and I had hostile look on my face). But she said enough is enough, she is not willing to give me any […]

7/25/2015 1 comment

by Dorothy Gale 7/16/2015

written by Dorothy Gale

I liked to dream that I would wake inside my self ten years younger
with eyes that would blink hope towards the morning sun
without cinder blocks of fatigue or the fine lines of age
I wished against rationality that my decade of torrent and
grievous joyous decadent nothing and destruction and debt and
discovery and growth
could be whisked away for a swift return
to be hugged again by a shell of ignorance
I don’t even remember shedding.

7/16/2015 2 comments

Shadowy Realm

by gunnervin 7/11/2015

written by gunnervin

When they fought, I chose not to fight.
When they cried, I thought there is respite.
Amidst the squibbles and squabbles of life,
My kindly nature kept me rife.
But then came doubt I did my self.
I did my nature, I did my health.
I doubted everything I felt,
And on I went to change my self.
I tried to turn the course of the stream.
Not knowing I was only killing a dream,
Of little joys and a profound realm,
On I went on a broken whelm,
For other dreams were going to be at helm.
I had walked too far still mind […]

7/11/2015 1 comment

Be strong

by MisaNeko 7/3/2015

written by MisaNeko

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Sometimes my life gets so fucked up but i learn from those fucked up times. I thought i couldn’t handle it and i even tried to cut my self, but by the end i realized that i’m just being weak and coward and trying to get away from my problems. I’m so glad that i encounter those problems because if i didn’t i will be still weak and coward.

I know that my problems before is not that big compare to the other people, and i know […]

7/3/2015 2 comments

Considering euthanasia

by Clare 6/28/2015

written by Clare

I had no idea there were places were I could write about the possibility of killing my self.

I am just tired of life. I have struggled my entire life to try and find meaning and direction and a path for me to follow but I have never been successful.

I suppose I have done a few things, had a few jobs, bought a couple of houses, had a few relationships and so on, like most people, but I have felt empty pretty much my whole life.

I just don’t and cannot see the reason to be alive. I use the usual distractions that I guess most people […]

6/28/2015 9 comments

What to do with my torturing life?

by flatliner 6/26/2015

written by flatliner

I am 18 years old and i have been depressed and sad every single day of my fucking life for a very long time now. From the time that i wake up in the morning until night before sleep i feel terrible and sooo depressed and i can’t live like this anymore. My awful physical appearance make me hate my self and become an introvert. I am very short and have a small childlike face. I literally look like a 10 year old kid. I never had a relationship with a girl and never will. I am just an outcast in this society. This makes […]

6/26/2015 2 comments

the question of confidence

by RealTalk30 6/12/2015

written by RealTalk30

We all gotta do something to raise our own confidence because the lack there of is purely our minds own doing. Some distract themselves, some eat, some play dress up and some crave attention.. well that last one is me. My confidence is in constant flux..always in tune one minute and gone the next minute. Sometimes I really give no shit that I do things purposely to gain attention. One thing my confidence never shatters is certainty in my physical appearance. I feel that I am half gone in my sanity but still a decent looking dude. So I’ve decided to sit pool side for […]

6/12/2015 5 comments

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