I am 18 years old and i have been depressed and sad every single day of my fucking life for a very long time now. From the time that i wake up in the morning until night before sleep i feel terrible and sooo depressed and i can’t live like this anymore. My awful physical appearance make me hate my self and become an introvert. I am very short and have a small childlike face. I literally look like a 10 year old kid. I never had a relationship with a girl and never will. I am just an outcast in this society. This makes me so sad since i know that i will be alone forever. I have no aims in my life at all. I am so fucking unattractive both as a character and as an appearance. Seriously, i understand that. Even if i was i girl i wouldn’t want to do anything with a fucking kid. There so many happy average normal people that live happily, having fun with their girlfriend and enjoy life, which make me feel so terrible and sad because o know that i will never have the chance to enjoy anything like this. Because of this i hate my self and even hate other people and i don’t want to speak to anyone of them. I don’t want to have nothing in common with anyone of those idiots that think that everything in life is nice and beautiful like their own life. So i became an introvert, having no aim no goal and nothing to care about. The only thing that i can think of doing in the future and to find a fucking job so i can rent an apartment to leave from my idiot parents and spent my whole life alone at home in front of pc doing nothing. I am hopeless and the only emotions i have is hate, depression and sadness. I am tired of this and i want to ask you, What can i do with my torturing life?