I am 18 years old and i have been depressed and sad every single day of my fucking life for a very long time now. From the time that i wake up in the morning until night before sleep i feel terrible and sooo depressed and i can’t live like this anymore. My awful physical appearance make me hate my self and become an introvert. I am very short and have a small childlike face. I literally look like a 10 year old kid. I never had a relationship with a girl and never will. I am just an outcast in this society. This makes me so sad since i know that i will be alone forever. I have no aims in my life at all. I am so fucking unattractive both as a character and as an appearance. Seriously, i understand that. Even if i was i girl i wouldn’t want to do anything with a fucking kid. There so many happy average normal people that live happily, having fun with their girlfriend and enjoy life, which make me feel so terrible and sad because o know that i will never have the chance to enjoy anything like this. Because of this i hate my self and even hate other people and i don’t want to speak to anyone of them. I don’t want to have nothing in common with anyone of those idiots that think that everything in life is nice and beautiful like their own life. So i became an introvert, having no aim no goal and nothing to care about. The only thing that i can think of doing in the future and to find a fucking job so i can rent an apartment to leave from my idiot parents and spent my whole life alone at home in front of pc doing nothing. I am hopeless and the only emotions i have is hate, depression and sadness. I am tired of this and i want to ask you, What can i do with my torturing life?
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life is not eternal. what you are in, will be end someday. your appearance is not a eternal statement. you see that handsome man ? his face will be eaten by maggots.
” It was in the reign of George III that the aforesaid personages lived and quarreled; good or bad, handsome or ugly, rich or poor they are all equal now”
and joy is a complete illusion. sure you can get girls, get joy, fantasys become real…but there is little irony there if you get happines too easy you cant even understand it. like butters said, be happy of your happines. its a beautiful sadness.
if your feeling down you know your welcome to text me anytime! just tell me if you want my number i mean i don’t know if u can even message people on here lol but if you ever need anyone to talk to your always welcome to talk to me 🙂