When all you need is someone who just knows and tell you it’ll be okay, you remember that you’ve already scared them away and there is no one left. with each cut I become less human, I just want to feel again, have that sensation of being alive.
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Taken his souls into the night upon a hill lays a tree a young man hangs from dangling the angel of death has had his first kill freeing the young man from his hellish world now to do as he pleases free from the ones who say they don’t need him now free from a world of hurt free to heal the angel of death smiles taking his soul the angel of death has once again had his first kill where upon a hill lays a tree the young man hangs and bleeds wrists slit this is it finally free to escape misery and now […]
gotta wait for my package then after Saturday four days off so shouldn’t have interruptions unless my stupid parents decide to send me to the stupid hospital. then i have to wait a few weeks till my dad goes in vacation I’ll use his garage. I hate ryans stupid dad he took away the one thing I had that ever made me happy and brain washed him and made him crazy. the only thing I have are my cats and I can’t even take care of them because I’m crazy. I’m stuck here all alone because his stupid dad took him from me I have […]
I’ve been doing much better since I posted on here last. It really helped talking to people that actually understood how and why I felt the way I did. It also made me realise that even people that don’t know me, care. They will take the time to discuss all the bad shit as to where your friends no longer have time for it and you just need to snap out of it . Anyways I just wanted to say thank you.
When we run out of vision, we’re running on empty and the need to stop the pain becomes paramount.
Maybe in a fit of homicidal anger we can fly in the face of the body’s hardwired DNA to preserve its life.
But the challenge of life is to move into the higher dimension in this same body. Is it do-able? As a fully paid-up, card-carrying manic depressive I can only nod dumbly.
I’ve seen my body change numerous times, morphing into all kinds of different shapes. Currently my ‘look’ is ’52 year old post-menopausal woman who has let herself go’. Yet this is not ‘me’. It’s a disguise […]
I don’t care anymore , all I do is cry I can’t go through with a shit life anymore feel like I have got no one anymore, need quick way to end it have no one to talk to who can understand how I feel for no reason people will think I’m crazy
I am an American currently living in England as a part of the United States Air Force. I’d really like to talk to anyone that is/was a cutter. Nothing personal I swear. Just a few really quick questions. I can email or use KIK or Viber. Please leave a comment if you feel comfortable talking to me. I just really need some advice :/ Thanks
Why do I feel so cold yet I don’t have a cold heart?! Why is it that I allow people to shove their happiness down my throat and don’t have the guts to just ignore them or say fuck off?!?! This sounds bad. It’s not that I don’t like when people are happy I’m happy for them but it’s one thing to talk about it and it’s another to know you’re actually shoving it in someone’s face to make them feel like complete shit!!! I get it already! I don’t need a daily reminder 42 times in a day everyday!!!!!!
AHHHHH!!! RAGE!!
Done… Sorry..
I know what I want to do. I’ve always known it. Yet somehow it never gets done. I asked my therapist to just think of me finally getting everything he ever thought I would enjoy. People don’t think that way; especially not therapists. I am ashamed of my feelings. I think of all of the people who will die today; many of whom have very real reasons for wanting to live. I just think why can’t it be me? If X number of ppl need to die today why can’t one of them be me. A person who doesn’t want to live anymore. Do any […]
I’m waiting for someone to save me, because I can’t save myself anymore. Superman? God? Man? Woman? Child? Someone…..? I need to start over or end it… I can’t live like this anymore. I am tired of wishing on stars and counting cars.
I am so tired of pretending everything is ok…. I know it isn’t, and I am done lying to myself. I am done trying to make myself look happy when I’m not. I can’t anymore. I’m broken… And I know there’s no fixing this time.
Yesterday, I completely lost hope. I needed to die. Like right now. I was choking because of my tears. My bestfriend – and the guy I’m in love with – didn’t want me to talk to him anymore. Because everything was my fault. Because it was my fault that I fell in love with him. Because it was my fault that everyone has noticed it.
I can’t live without him. Even the weird relationship we’re having was much sufficient for me to hold on. But him cutting me out of his life was too much for me to handle.
I scarred myself. But I didn’t bleed to […]
i am sorry for my English.
i have read some of the post and I can understand them.
I had a good life, good friends and family, I had before though about suicide but I always knew that I don’t really going to do this. And I never understand why I have them.
I don’t want to die and I don’t think anyone want but the pain is sometimes so strong, I have decided to do this because I am too weak and tired. I don’t going to write a suicide note to anyone this is not going to help them, they need to forget about me. So […]
2day is a good day. My beloved and I have been celebrating his father’s birthday with our best friend KK. sometimes the very thing that u need is right in front of you .
2day is a good day. My husband and I have been created celebrating his father’s birthday with our best friend KK. sometimes the very thing that u need is right in front of you .
I don’t want to exist. please help me. I don’t want to be here anymore, i have two kids and a husband. i know it sounds terrible but before i met my husband i was dead set on ending everything. I saw love in him and hope and a future. My children are everything to me but I’m not good enough for any of them. I cant even get out of bed half the time. My pain runs so deep and i don’t think anything will make it stop.
Do you every feel like a baby bird?
A baby bird is helpless when it first hatches.
They do not know how to fly, and they do not know how to survive without their mothers.
There’s always that one baby bird that gets everything right.
It doesn’t plummet to its death when it tries to fly; it soars, and it is able to go on with its life independently.
And then there’s you.
You’re the one that can’t get up.
You’re the one that gets left behind when the rest of your siblings go out for something useful.
You’re the one left to freeze to death as the rest fly to hibernation.
You can’t […]
really, its real and it never goes, the addiction to think about ways to kill yourself is so strong, i even dream of it, how peacefully my body will lay, how i will leave everything here and how.. all i have done, all people have done to me will disappear. there will be nothingness and i will sink in the ocean of infinite security. i need this place, i need to feel safe from all the fight, all the hatred, all the people.
This is just to remind you guys of the skype group we created a few days ago, it’s up and running. (text based chat only) With 15 guys on there, it is serving it’s purpose of eliminating (or help you cope up with) loneliness very well indeed.
Sometimes, all we need is just a pat on the back, eh? Many of you won’t even consider joining it, I know, too much hurt from past experiences. Too fucked up to give this a shot. But then, you realize we all are fucked up in one way or the other? This is what makes us compatible. People care here. All you need […]
I have been thinking about this, and so I’ll post it.
I know we all suffer terribly, and I personally think suicide is a legitimate choice that people should be allowed to make… having said this there is something that that I do have a little problem with: PRACTICING ON YOURSELF!
I just remember working on the periphery of the medical profession for many years, and people who are all carved up or who have to have their stomachs pumped every couple of months are just not taken seriously. Medical staff, social workers, group home staff just simply wear down when clients or patients or CONSUMERS (what a friend’s […]
If Love is the problem
You just need to find a new love
If Money is the problem
You just have to make more money
If Other people is the problem
You just have to find new people to hang out with
If past mistake is the problem
You just have to disregard it
If Sadness is the problem
You just need to be happy
So all these problems have alternative solution. It might not be easy but there are possiblity, however slim, to fix these situations.
There’re examples of people who find love again even at old age
There’re examples of people who have nothing […]