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Neighbor

When, not If

by Paul07 6/5/2013

written by Paul07

I’ve read a few stories of sexual abuses, and I can relate. I guess that’s a round about way of putting it. After finding myself with no place to live at eighteen, I joined the Marines. After boot camp, I married my high school sweetheart, who then had an affair with my neighbor while I was at work. Shortly after discovering that, while working through a law suit, I had to then work through no pay due for three months… Begging charities to put food on the table for my wife who was sleeping around behind my back.

I meet a new woman, who’s the love […]

6/5/2013 1 comment

I miss them… Though I shouldn’t really…

by greatpretender 5/3/2013

written by greatpretender

This post might not make sence unless you’ve read my previous one..

I think i’m glad I didn’t look inside when his best friend was outside the apartment crying. The neighbor did… But something in my head said “don’t look in there, you don’t need to see. You know what happened, don’t be stupid and make the pain worse..”…. I kinds wish I looked…. Just to see how he died rather than just imagining and repeating the horror story his friend told me…… When we were standing outside as the investigatirs were taking the pictures and such, Roberts friend that witnessed his death broke the […]

5/3/2013 0 comment

Feels like life is toying with me now

by butterfly_free 4/26/2013

written by butterfly_free

Yesterday I went for a walk, somehow I felt a little better. I saw some horses and watched them for awhile. Walked in the rain, but it felt good, at least it made me feel. But last night I looked on the internet and there is so much – so much of the opposite of what I’ve always thought was beautiful. Gentleness, tenderness, sweetness, paintings that move you deep inside, someone that would help a neighbor, little children being allowed to be innocent, dreams, words that carry weight, words that mean something. I start to think I wish something had happened to me awhile ago, […]

4/26/2013 10 comments

I was born a loser

by table 4/1/2013

written by table

I am 15, male.
My whole life basically consisted of people telling me how bad or disappointing I am. It still happens, just not as much because I don’t ever talk to anyone except for online. I mean I remember when I was three in daycare and I would get mad a lot and no one liked me. I had no friends really except my neighbor who I think was annoyed with me a lot. Then I remember beingÂ annoying a lot when I was 4 or 5 and my neighbors were really annoyed with me. Like when I would play basketball with my neighbors […]

4/1/2013 2 comments

My neighbor committed suicide

by blackhole 12/18/2012

written by blackhole

Ifind it ironic how sad it is to hear when someone kills themself, yet you want to do the same.

12/18/2012 6 comments

Life Pains

by DogBoy 8/2/2012

written by DogBoy

The poor man is hated even by his own neighbor,
But the rich has many friends.

He who despises his neighbor sins;
But he who has mercy on the poor, happy is he.

Life’s Pain

Two divorces and child custody.

To do the right thing will require personal pain.

I can’t pay I can’t pay. I am falling behind in my payments to the world and the world is getting pissed.

I try to keep up but something always throws a wrench into things so I can’t keep up.

2 steps forward 2 steps back

God I want to quit, God I want to die.

Jesus protect me from the world I cannot continue. […]

8/2/2012 0 comment

The Other Side of the Story

by scared4life 8/2/2012

written by scared4life

I found my neighbor hanging dead in his house last week, and my journey for answers brought me to this site and I feel the need to share.

Myself and other neighbors had expressed some concern that we had not seen our neighbor for several weeks. Those weeks turned to months. We didn’t know what to do, and just hoped he was away. We didn’t really know what to do, there were no signs of foul play on the outside of his home, so the police would do nothing.

A few weeks into the concerns, I told my neighbors I would check to see if his second […]

8/2/2012 3 comments

Stay Strong? or Die …….

by lostandconfused7 7/23/2012

written by lostandconfused7

I hate feeling sorry for myself. I realize how good I got it. How AWESOME my life would be to most. On the outside this “wanna-be hard ass” or that “beautiful smile that lights up a room” type of happy-go-lucky girl (As my 4th grade teacher would say). This girl who’s loud and fun to be around aka the LIFE of the party; that girl who doesn’t want the party to stop ……. That’s the problem ; that’s who you see … That’s who I allow you to see. I’m SUCH a good actress aren’t I? … because this girl inside , is dying … […]

7/23/2012 4 comments

no. im not flawless.

by ividivi 6/9/2012

written by ividivi

im just writing down my lifestory shortly and i wont go into details.

i grew up on a farm. well i lived on a farm for 14 years. my dad used to force me to watch him kill sheep’s for dinner. he wanted me to learn how to shoot them in a painless way. the first time i watched wasn’t that bad. it went quick. it died in a split second. the second time. a year or a half later my dad got drunk. really drunk and dragged me into the barn and shot a sheep and yelled that i had to learn this by now. […]

6/9/2012 0 comment

leaving earth

by ividivi 6/7/2012

written by ividivi

i dont want anyone to kill themselves. not me nether

like i said in a previous post “i dont belong”

wondering what life would be on the other side. lay down all my burdens. i picked up a knife and i cut my wrist so deeply i ended up in the hospital for 3 days. im now not even aloud to handle a butterknife without supervision so to speak. im not suicidal for god’s sake. im tired. if people would let me. i would leave. if people knew how i feel. they would know what i mean.

its like jogging for miles and stop and you have no […]

6/7/2012 5 comments

there’s nothing to try for anymore

by Faith 5/4/2012

written by Faith

I remember the first time I actually thought about suicide. I was doing the dishes, and I broke a coffee pot. The only damn coffee pot. I was so sick of everything, of doing every fucking thing wrong, I just started screaming. And then that’s when I heard my mother’s voice. She said, “The knife’s in the drawer. Cut off your singer and you’ll be dead in five minutes. I walked over to the drawer, pulled out the knife, and pressed it to my finger, then my wrist. Hard. Until I winced and pulled it back. I spent the rest of the day sobbing under […]

5/4/2012 4 comments

What will the neighbor think!?

by alwaysonsomethingluv 3/19/2012

written by alwaysonsomethingluv

My parents denie to take me to a doctor. They think I’m just in a ‘phase’. That there is nothing wrong with me. I’m just being rude and moody. They can’t see beyond that. Why?
Because think of it. What will the neighbors think!? *le gasp*
What will the neighbors say if their daughter takes antidepressants?
How will mother and fathers friend say?
It not right. She’ll get over it, just ignore it.
Yes just ignore it, and while you worry about what the neighbor thinks, I’ll be in my room doing my new hobby. Cutting. But don’t worry mommy I’ll hide them. We wouldn’t […]

3/19/2012 1 comment

My life is ending

by Nicole Rivera 1/16/2012

written by Nicole Rivera

Its hard to agree with others when they say i need mental help. I have been through so much, suicide is the only way out. To be honest i have had so many suicide attempts, i lost count. I’ve been put through so much help. I just want to be loved. Is that too much to ask for? My life started failing for me when i was about 5. I used to get molested by my older next door neighbor. Its hard trying to write all of this down when i have tears in my eyes, its a hard topic for me to speak about, […]

1/16/2012 7 comments

ME TOO)

by boer58 1/9/2012

written by boer58

I was sexually molested(hurt) the first time at 4 years old. This continued until the age of 15, when at last my mother died. MY life has been screwed up since I was a little child. Could’nt make it in school. Joined the Army, got a bad discharge. Started robbing people to survive, went to jail. Got married, had two children. I was sent overseas, when I returned home, my wife and daughters were gone, she had run away with our neighbor. I had been using drugs for a long time, I increased use dramatically. Went to rehab, found out I had bipol disorder. tried […]

1/9/2012 6 comments

only one holding up

by tess 6/4/2009

written by tess

i was bored today, so i started looking around the site again. i haven’t poked around for a while now. as i was reading people’s stories, i found myself envious of them. i think i know why. some of the people here- correction, MANY of the people here have already attempted suicide. and i am jealous. it’s not just in this online world, it’s in my reality too. it seems ok for everyone else to break down, but not me. a kid i had known for years hung himself in the week before his bar mitzvah. we saw my neighbor get carted out of her […]

6/4/2009 4 comments