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Nothing Works

what now?

by lifeisbeingalone 3/12/2013

written by lifeisbeingalone

My parents saw my cus and flipped of course. then say i need to go to aÂ psychiatrist again and this guy seems to not understand or give a crap…..i just want to know what to do, how to feel at least ok. I want help. I want to be ok. But nothing works i tried it all and nothing. I can be doing a million things and i still can’t stop thinking about everything thats wrong.

I cant stop thinking about dying….i just want to die. i want just stop breathing.

All i think about is the next time i can cut myself, when my relatives leave […]

3/12/2013 1 comment

Not a normal suicide story

by aqtheatrestar 2/3/2013

written by aqtheatrestar

Yes. I’m a 16 year old girl. No.I don’t want to kill myself over a boy. Or a girl. Or a bully. Or drugs. Or any of the typical things i’ve seen so far on this site. I seriously don’t know what’s wrong with me. By all rights, i should be a happy kid. I have a good life, I’m smart, talented and funny. So why do I want to die? Why is it that I want nothing more than to not have to exist anymore? Let me tell you why.

My mother and father both had perfect SAT scores. My aunt is the head of […]

2/3/2013 12 comments

I don’t know why I’m still sane.

by tonski125 1/9/2013

written by tonski125

I can never do anything right now these days, I try, but nothing works. I cannot even say a word without getting yelled at by my mother, I can’t even sleep right for some reason. I am about this close to snapping, and if I do, it will be bad, I don’t want that. I feel like everything is just going to fall apart on me, I feel like I am going to fall apart. Why am I still here in this world? Why am I still standing?

Why am I still sane?

1/9/2013 2 comments

I don’t know what to do.. I’m ready to die

by readytodie1213 12/27/2012

written by readytodie1213

I just don’t know what to do anymore. I have a planned suicide date, a method(very effective) and I’m ready to die.. I’ve taken dozens of different meds and I go to therapy, I have a great family and awesome friends but nothing helps! I try to diet, go out with friends even when I don’t want to leave my room and I try to do things that make me happy but nothing works! I have 7 days left at this point and I’m 95% sure I’m going to go through with it. I really don’t know why I’m asking this but if anyone can […]

12/27/2012 1 comment

The first post

by Alone1987 11/16/2012

written by Alone1987

As the title states, this is my first post. I don’t even know what Â to say except that life feels meaningless.

If I wasn’t such a chicken shit I’d probably have offed myself back in college, but I’ve always been too scared to do it.

My depression started like a spiderweb crack– at first, it was isolated, but now it has spread and I feel like I bring misery to everyone who loves me. I lose everyone who gets close to me because they meet me and I seem so great and bubbly and fun to be with, and then they slowly have to watch me sink […]

11/16/2012 4 comments

Cold Summer-4

by queen827 7/20/2012

written by queen827

I understand people going through things and surviving it. But just because you survive it doesnt mean I can or want to. I dont want help to make things better. there is no more “better” left. When it takes effort for my to type these words, I know Im faded. Everyday gets worse and worse, but the funny part is everynight you go to sleep praying for the next day to be better than the last. He still hasnt answered my prayers to take my life, this is how I know he wants me to take my own. Its so beautiful outside, but yet im […]

7/20/2012 0 comment

That Lie about how things get better… they don’t.

by Age 36 6/16/2012

written by Age 36

I wish I had killed myself when I was 16. It’s been 20 years of regret. Diagnosed with clinical depression, anxiety, borderline personality disorder, PMDD, traits of OCD, and a horrible eating disorder which has ruined my life. At age 36, I’m living a life I never wanted. I thought I’d be married by now, own property, and enjoy a prosperous career. None of which has happened. I made a horrible career choice by becoming a teacher, and have hated myself for it for the past 11years. I fake it at work. Put on that professional face. The truth is, I hate every aspect of […]

6/16/2012 7 comments

Dreams

by Nothin2Live4 4/29/2012

written by Nothin2Live4

So I was going to text you, but I figured you wouldn’t want your phone going off at 4am.

At one point in time I actually believed that dreams can come true for anyone as long as you believed in it. It’s quite interesting how life’s circumstances and situations can drastically change one’s mine set.
I sit here, sleepless as always, but thinking tremendously on my dreams and how unobtainable they are at this point. I used to believe that they were simple dreams, not far from reach; but now they’re just completely impossible. They say never give up; once you have seen your opportunity […]

4/29/2012 1 comment

level up!

by tphg 1/11/2012

written by tphg

work and play have lost all meaning. The barriers between personal and professional life have shattered. It’s all the same crap now, junk that’s in between me and non-existence. I work and play but don’t put my heart into anymore; nothing feels good. I am Anhedonia.

I can’t live like this, my life is not so bad that I have any “good” reason to kill myself but it’s not good in any way either. It’s been good but I don’t enjoy things.

I can go home after working and sedate myself and do it all over again but why??! FUCK! Friends don’t mean much to me […]

1/11/2012 4 comments

Why live.

by Zakulover101 3/30/2009

written by Zakulover101

so it 12:00 in the morning and I can’t sleep, why I have’nt been able to sleep for ages.

as I was was lying awake in my bed I thought about my life and why its worth living, I thought should I just go into my kitchen and take all the pills, or go to my dresser and pull out the razor?

I lyed there and thought why why should I live, when no one seems to care, the only thing I live for are broken promisses, lies and pain.

When I go to school there’s only mean glances and people judeing your every move.

when I get home […]

3/30/2009 5 comments