my life is at bay nothing bad but the ache in my heart. i really miss him but he seems over me. i fucking knew one of us was gonna get too attached and it was me. dammit i just want to forget about him. go back the few weeks i fell for him and change how things happened. my only 2 friends are being supportive and keeping me busy. my mind always wonders to him. everyday i think about him and i go to walk up to him but i see that hes with hes friends and today he was with a girl so […]
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Hello everyone, I am trying to develop an app to help those who are suicidal on a regular basis (such as myself.) I wanted to ask you a few questions if that is okay, and from your help this app can actually happen one day. 🙂 (Some of these questions are appropriated from metanoia.org. Check it out if you have time.)
What makes it so hard for you to stay?
What do you view suicide as?
How would you commit suicide?
On average, 6 people are intimately affected by the suicide of a friend, family member, etc. Who do you think would miss you the most? (Can be […]
I want to be high all the time I love pills I need them to feel normal or happy. I just want to fade away. im so tired of the pain and the acting like im okay because if I tell the truth they’ll send me away again I don’t want to go away unless its permanent.
I miss you but I must let you go. I loved you but i’ve found someone who is fixing my heart. When I see you in the hallways it takes all my strenth to not break down and cry. You seem okay, smiling and laughing. actually, You seem happier now that im gone but thats all I wanted for you. to be happy. I could never give you happiness all i cause is sadness and sorrow. You plead and beg for me not to leave you but I hear none of it as I turn around and walk away. I hear your crys […]
This is going to sound really stupid but I got stood up, and it was by someone who I really care about… And I don’t know why because he’s been gone for four days and I haven’t heard anything from him.. I know he’s okay, I just don’t know when I’ll get to talk to or see him again and it really makes me sad… I feel like he knows me better than anyone else in the world and if I’m not worth it to him, maybe I won’t be worth it to anyone… He was the one thing I was looking forward to for […]
the truth is we’re all suicidal people telling other suicidal people its okay when we all know its not. sorry if its offensive in anyway to you but im tired of the bullshit.
Just wondering whether anyone knows where killswitchon is? It’s just that he hasn’t posted in a while, and I can’t find any of his old posts. I just miss his presence here, his videos gave me a bit of hope. And I just wanted to make sure that he’s okay.
A month ago, I decided it was time for me to get some help, so I did. It was really hard for me to do but I did it anyway. I am now seeing a psychiatrist and I’m trying to get back on the right track. I was diagnosed with anxiety and depression, which I am taking medication for. Most days, I still feel like I just want to die but I’m trying to ignore those thoughts. Sometimes it works. I just want to be happy again. I know I won’t wake up and suddenly feel okay, which is why I’m still trying. I’m doing […]
It’s strange how someone you would least expect to have suicidal thoughts, actually does. I’m one of those people, I have no reason to be thinking like this.. I’m a good guy (I hope), I’m nice, respectful, have a few good friends…
Unfortunately for me, although no one thinks I have, but I have come to a complete turn around emotionally. I feel like I am worthless, like no one cares.. I feel alone, even with my friends… It sucks, I’m someone who’ll put on a façade and act like everything’s grand, whilst on the inside I’m completely mangled, and because […]
this stuff is all so behind me now, im okay.
“Dance Puppet”
-Yes master
“Sing Puppet”
-Well, okay master
“Grovel Puppet”
-Please, master?
“Go Away Puppet”
-I will master, I’m going
“Die Puppet”
-But master, I’m already dead…
I don’t know how I can stay afloat in a world that is so harsh and cruel. I can’t seem to pretend, like everyone else, that it’s okay, that I’m okay. I can’t “suck it up.” If I try that, I eventually explode, which is basically what happened last night at work. I’m too weak, too sensitive. No place in the world for someone like that. Even in nursing there is so much bullshit to go around. I just don’t belong anywhere. My efforts are for nothing.
I think about killing myself every single day, and I don’t think it’s gonna go away. I think about where I would do it, how I would do it, and who is even worth leaving my last few words for. I just don’t think I’ll make it passed high school anymore, I will be dead by then. And the thing is, I’m okay with that.
If my friends and family woke up one day and found out that I killed myself. Would they care? I don’t feel like they would honestly.
I’m sick of people.. And no one likes me. I’m tired of always trying to fit in. People come and go, does anyone really actually stay? And if they do stay, it’s only little interaction, just little thoughts like “i haven’t talked to this person in a while, I guess I’ll see how they’re doing.” And so you talk for maybe 4 messages back and forth and then they leave again. And you sit there optimistically like “oh okay, talk later then”… That hardest part is accepting that, they’re much more apart of your life than you are to theirs.
Imma go pound on my keyboard now. Have […]
So here I am, an eighteen year old boy on a website designed for sad teenage girls and I’m expected to talk about the “perks” of being me? Okay fine if it will keep her happy and I’ll be able to come out more often then FINE I’ll write! Hm some perks? Well, I had a milkshake last night so that’s cool or whatever. Man I don’t think I can sit here and pretend there are perks to being myself. I can’t even be myself! I’m 18 and a boy and I’m trapped in a woman’s body, let me tell you going to the bathroom […]
I hate It when your doing so good then all of sudden something happens & then your like okay no problem but then bad things just keep stacking up & the next thing you know your driving & you start closing your eyes just wanting everything to be over.Like when your so down but you gotta pick yourself up cause your about to see family.Just when I’m starting to see a future for myself I always gotta do something to screw things up.I’ve had 8 jobs this year on my 9 & If this doesn’t work out then I don’t know anymore.
Hi. This is my first post on here, and I think that this would help me a lot, considering I’m feeling like a sealed time bomb. Call me Cyn. I’m a teen, but I’ve been through a lot. Lately, I’ve been feeling like nothing. I have the very popular, “things feel like they’re getting worse” and “I feel like my mind is being taken over.” I’m not okay. I don’t have anti depressants, I live off Advil. My mother hates me, and so do my aunts and my grandmother. My whole family hates me; on my mother’s side at least. My boyfriend is the only […]
No, I’m not okay
If you think I am,
Then I beat you at the game –
Because you know I’m not..
So which one of us is better at pretending?
sooo…, I guess I’m saying my story now. Mainly I’m saying it because a lot of people that share their stories feel better about themselves but really I don’t think I will. I just felt like I should so here it starts. So I’m in year 8, I go to a pretty crap school and to add to that coming home isn’t that fun either. I first started my school last year and I was soo weird in person and so very unpopular but when I got home I’d be this little lonely sad kid. Things got better, I still got bad mood swings but […]