Sadness… My only emotion of late

This is going to sound really stupid but I got stood up, and it was by someone who I really care about… And I don’t know why because he’s been gone for four days and I haven’t heard anything from him.. I know he’s okay, I just don’t know when I’ll get to talk to or see him again and it really makes me sad… I feel like he knows me better than anyone else in the world and if I’m not worth it to him, maybe I won’t be worth it to anyone… He was the one thing I was looking forward to for like three weeks… And then there was just nothing, and now I’m even more sad than I was before I had a little hope in my life.. I thought maybe someone cared about me.. But I was wrong…