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by Enough2015 8/12/2015

written by Enough2015

I found myself here while googling suicide by carbon monoxide poisoning.

I’m almost 40 years old. I have always thought of suicide but never brave enough to do it. Some people really don’t belong here on earth and I know I am one of them. As I get older I realise it will happen, just don’t know when. I don’t want to die, I just don’t want to live anymore.

It is winter here and I’m hearing on the news about accidental carbon monoxide deaths, like bringing in a charcoal bbq to keep warm.

I thinkk this is my preferred method. Has anyone had a failed attempt?

Ah crap. […]

8/12/2015 17 comments

please help..

by praj 8/12/2015

written by praj

I want to die and the option i have chosen is cutting vein of wrist… I have gone through all advices. But i just want suggestions for some painkillers to avoid the pain after cuts. Actually i cant see blood, and if its with pain then i am sure i will fail. I am 21 years old girl. Please give me suggeations and list of drugs which will easily available in medical.

And do anyone knoe what it advil/avil.. I think its a drug; overdose of which will cause death. Please give information about this also. Do fast as i habe just 10-12 hours left.

8/12/2015 16 comments

not sure where to start….

by ggrooms123 8/10/2015

written by ggrooms123

I guess I am writing this for everyone else out there who understands what I’ve gone through. To know you aren’t alone nor are you ever alone no matter how much you may feel that way its not true. I have been battling depression and suicidal tendencies since I was 8 years old. From age 9 to 17 I was raped and molested by my friends father. He is in jail now, but it really messed me up. I started cutting starving binging and purging because i needed to control something again because of how much I had lost. I didn’t know what else to […]

8/10/2015 2 comments

Any of yall watch those Ricardo Lopez (Bjork Stalker) suicide videos?

by wndozh8er 8/9/2015

written by wndozh8er

its famous, liveleak.com released all his videos. It’s about a 21 year old dude that’s so obsessed with Bjork that he documents 8 months of his life to his plan. He builds a bomb, sends it to her address, than comes back and shoots himself on camera. It was back in 1996

8/9/2015 3 comments

relaxing at death’s door

by tphg 8/9/2015

written by tphg

I’ve had this image in my head for the last several weeks. It’s of me sitting in an empty white space, leaning up against a solitary white framed wooden door. I imagine that once I arrived in this white purgatory, I spent a great deal of time beating against the door, jiggling the knob, trying to move on to what’s next. But after a while, I realized that nothing I can do will open the door, so I sit and wait. Occasionally I knock on the door softly, whisper sweet nothings to it, but the door remains firmly in place.

It’s a metaphor for the way […]

8/9/2015 8 comments

Hide

by Quiet 8/9/2015

written by Quiet

I just want to hide behind a brick wall because I’m ugly and useless and pathetic. I am incapable of it all. I try to forget the pains those people never knew but old faded scars are literally hurting me. And I just want to hide. Maybe that way I won’t have to look at my dead end future.

8/9/2015 1 comment

Reasons

by violinplayer22 8/6/2015

written by violinplayer22

It seems like everyone has a good reason to commit suicide. Cyberbullying, bullying, leaked photos, bad home life, no friends, and the list goes on and on. I have none of those. I’m just a normal teenager, with a nack for getting into trouble, a soft spot for people in need, and a family that I could never just abandon. Yet I desperately want to. But I cant. Do you know how much a little oblong shaped solution to my problem costs? Way more than a 15 year old who babysits can afford.

Anyway, I’m getting off topic. My reason is simple. I wasn’t made for […]

8/6/2015 3 comments

Accommodations the delusional, but not for the disabled.

by wndozh8er 8/6/2015

written by wndozh8er

I remember back when I was 19 years old, there was this big “civil rights controversy” that started in Florida where a Muslim woman wanted to have her drivers ID taken while fully covered in a burka, which covered every part of her face accept for her eyes. The far left jumped right on it, and bleed for her. Also Muslims are allowed to pray 5 times a day at work. These are not equal rights, these are special rights given to people who are religiously delusional. I don’t discriminate since I’m an atheist. These are not real rights!

i know someone near and dear to […]

8/6/2015 5 comments

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by ervse 8/4/2015

written by ervse

the way i feel has no words. i live day in and day put of not being wanted by anyone. i am a burden to everyone i speak with. i annoy people. there’s something very off about who i am. why am i so strange?

i just want someone to listen to me. ive been used by others for disgusting factors. people tire of me easily
i bring bad luck to whomever im with
im just devastating as a person.

nobody at 18 years old should feel like me. i wish i was normal i wish i didn’t want to die. i wish someone cared. i wish […]

8/4/2015 2 comments

Advice on becoming financially independent?

by teana 8/2/2015

written by teana

I’m 23 years old and I have one year of college left. I am getting a double major in two major arts fields that probably won’t get me a job. I have absolutely no money and am completely dependent on my parents; living at home right now while I take classes. I can’t stand being dependent on them and constantly feeling like I “owe” them. They still try to control me in many ways. It didn’t bother me until this summer but now it’s really getting on me…I feel like I am suffocating. I am already depressed and the fact that I don’t even own […]

8/2/2015 2 comments

Any good pro-suicide forums or chats?

by iicookieii 7/31/2015

written by iicookieii

I’ve been desperate to find some pro-suicide chat rooms or forums, ones that are well-frequented. Many of the old ones are dead. Forums and chats where one can make suicide-pacts are also greatly appreciated. I know I can’t be the only one searching. Thank you in advance.

7/31/2015 5 comments

The Professor

by MentallyWeak 7/30/2015

written by MentallyWeak

I honestly don’t understand how people can believe in God. Like what has he done for us?

I saw this video, it was a story of this professor who preached to his class for a whole semester how God couldn’t be real. He’d pick up a piece of chalk and say

“If God was real, he’d stop this piece of chalk from breaking.”

Then he’d drop the chalk and it would break.

One semester this Christian with strong beliefs took his class and at the end of the semester the professor said, “if you still think God is real, stand up”

And the Christian stood up and the […]

7/30/2015 28 comments

Never having a boyfriend at 25

by NotAttentionSeeking 7/30/2015

written by NotAttentionSeeking

So old.
Yet still single.
Never had a boyfriend.
Will I become one of those cliche
40 year old virgin
Should I just be in a relationship for the sack of being in a relationship?
Even if I don’t feel a connection.
What is wrong with me.
I hate my life…

7/30/2015 3 comments

Forgotten By Tomorrow

by andromeda16 7/29/2015

written by andromeda16

I do not own this poem,Forgotten by Tomorrow was written by Kelly Deschler

She stands at the edge of the precipice,
looking down towards her future.
The last tears that she will ever cry,
falling from her eyes,
then falling into oblivion.
She watches them drop
as they disappear forever.
Yet, she laughs in the face of death.
Would it really matter if she took the leap?
She has been forgotten by tomorrow.

The wind blowing at her back,
pushes her to the edge.
Almost agreeing with her final decision,
and encouraging her to jump.

A thousand thoughts and memories
racing through her mind.

Her first day of school.
Her tenth birthday party.
The lonely, awkward days of her teenage years.
The day […]

7/29/2015 0 comment

What are things anti suicide people say to you that piss you off the most?

by wndozh8er 7/28/2015

written by wndozh8er

I been suicidal for over a decade. I talked about it often with people but luckily was never institutionalized. Here are some of the things people said that got under my skin –

1. “Give your life over to God” – ok first off I’m a hardcore atheist so that doesn’t work. I was also severely depressed and miserable as a Christian as well so going back wouldn’t change a god damn thing.

2. “If you commit suicide, you will go to hell” – wow really? Is God that evil as to torture someone for all eternity because they wanted there sufering to end? Again I don’t […]

7/28/2015 20 comments

slipping away

by lonelyguy91 7/28/2015

written by lonelyguy91

im tired of life. I don’t see myself as old. im alone at this young age, I cant imagine being old and lonely. im tired. I know I have to work but its hard on my own. I have no friends who really understand me. I don’t know how to continue.im stuck..

7/28/2015 2 comments

heard this today. old song but really hit home on how im feeling

by stormfall 7/27/2015

written by stormfall

Everyday I fight a war against the mirror

I can’t take the person starin’ back at me

I’m a hazard to myself

Don’t let me get me

I’m my own worst enemy

Its bad when you annoy yourself

So irritating

Don’t wanna be my friend no more

I wanna be somebody else

7/27/2015 2 comments

Death!

by luke23 7/25/2015

written by luke23

Ashes to ashes dust to dust
We grow old and fade and rust
Our lives are spent in endless fights
And spend out time with endless nights

Ashes to ashes dust to dust
We are cursed with mistaken trust
We pretend that we don’t know
Which makes our decay all so slow

Ashes to ashes dust to dust
Our time is spent in one big gust
We flourish and then whither away
And are truly happy for one whole day

Ashes to ashes dust to dust
It’s not worth the work to bust
The time spent to make it work
Is always taken by evil smirks

Ashes to ashes […]

7/25/2015 0 comment

I want to attempt suicide

by 133Gone 7/24/2015

written by 133Gone

I use the word attempt because I don’t want to succeed.

I’m too weak to actually plan on dying.

But, I feel like if things continue the way they are, then nothing will change.

I’ve been depressed since I was 8 years old, and I’m now 15.

My mum took me to the doctors for low mood and I got referred to counselling.

I haven’t been diagnosed with depression, but there’s no doubt that I have it. I stopped going to counselling because it just wasn’t helping.

I feel like a suicide attempt will mean getting help. I’ve talked to the doctors with my mum three times now and we’re getting […]

7/24/2015 5 comments

Pain, sorrow, longing, bad health

by disgusting 7/22/2015

written by disgusting

Unfortunately still alive. Yesterday one of my best friends from high school basically said she was going to kill herself. Seemingly she has it all. Born into money, comfortable, normal life that I’ll never have. She wouldn’t answer as to why.

And after all the pain, I still find myself loving the guy I fell for May 1st, the day we met. I know he’ll never give me a chance. He’s so stuck on looks and ‘proving himself’ to the world. I wish he could see it from a different perspective. One where he could realize he has someone who has given him so much, would […]

7/22/2015 0 comment

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