Ever heard of MSM? It’s a dietary supplement, so it’s all natural. It enhances cell permeability and thus allows nutrients to flow more freely. It makes you feel a lot more energetic! Sleeping might be more difficult, but lol. Compared to the lack of motivation associated with depression, this makes me feel like I could do anything! Like woaaah. And it’s not a drug either, it’s naturally found in diet. It’s also called organic sulfur, and it’s in garlic, meat, chicken, eggs and milk and so on. It’s also available as pills and powders in health stores. The powder tastes awful. You should take it […]
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It was so much easier when i could take pills or cut but now there’s a life inside of me. Depending on me. I can’t take it anymore. I never want to hurt any child, especially mine. But i know me and I understand no one deserves someone as horrible as me. Each day is a struggle. A fight I’m losing. A fight almost……lost.
In regards to suicide I will say this. Though life can provide us with the indulgence of our favorite things, with friends and lovers, with the company of people who make our hearts soar, life can also provide us with troubles, thoughts of failure and doubts of our own virtues. My heart is impaled with sadness and sometimes I go through life a ghostly figure nothing to look forward to except the warm embrace of sleep. When a person’s life is infected with the disease of depression and some days are a struggle to live and most nights a struggle to sleep, it is suffering. […]
Only one thing. Only one person matters so much to me. Well that’s not entirely true but what if THE most important person you can think of is long gone?
http://youtu.be/Hci2kZ8DlJM?list=PLJ0wn2wwbYFmNYL9RgYZFdaXKJaGeQRu1
In this song the guy is having a bad day. I can so relate to these words lol
I ran out of music
I never made it
Nobody knows
Black sands
A last queen
Beautiful seen
Far is the future
This child
Upside-down
In the sky
The zodiac ran
I am the chain
Down to its water
Up in the air
We can fight the terminal
One thousand year
Save me
Salvation
The atomic and the dogs
My life changed 7 weeks ago.
7 weeks ago I found out my husband was having an emotional affair with an ex-girlfriend via email. What was worse, I found out that he planned to fly her out to our home whilst I was visiting family.
I called him on it and I ended up going back to visit the family as planned but knowing this woman would be coming into our home and sleeping with my husband in our bed. I told no-one but the pain was immense.
I felt I couldn’t say that much as we had also been the result of an affair some 19 years […]
People say that just having been born is a miracle…but what if your life has just seemed like a constant unrelenting series of break and enters. That’s how I feel. All of my major stages of life right from early childhood have just been marked with catastrophic events. I’ve posted before what’s happened to me so I won’t go into that again <hears cheers>. I’ve had two psychologists tell me that I’m the worse case they’ve seen. One even told me that even though she’s trained not too feel her patient’s pain she told me that my case affected her. That’s no lie. At 53 […]
Tonight, what can happen
Is the third’s one a charm
The dark Ouroboros amulet
One more hour until more
Please take me out, please
My cage thirteen
Take me through the Death Valley
One day through the City of Sin
Cosmic-purity forever chained
In white robe I walk, can you flow and follow
I hope that we can be brothers and sisters
The escape of a ghost
Underneath, the crunching tectonics
Twenty-four-seven, one in seven billion
My name is Celibacy, je suis putain, Albataar
But I know it’s just me but then what now
I seek the luminous, the nature, the glow
I will never touch, forever to […]
I really need to get out, tonight
God and goddess, can you be
One, two, three, never alright
Take me to Lugia, today
Let me, let me die
And you can go back
It’s starting to smell
Should I follow the plan
The walking feet of life
We will conquer the land
God of the sky, Zeus
Ultimate Hercules
One day when I am free
And it’s just me
Finally, the twisted curse over
I heard some weird sounds
There’s only one thing now
Gotta’ get the fuck out
Is it one month or three more days
The earth, I feel, rock of ocean
The water beats but not my mother
Nobody
It was all our curse. Bide the time.
Hey… I probably don’t know you and if you have made it to this site?
I know how you feel.
It probably won’t mean much coming from a guy sitting in the library behind a computer screen but somebody out there believes in you. They want you to succeed and do great things. I don’t say much anymore but I’ve noticed a lot of intelligent people here from their stories. Don’t give up the good fight just yet!
I’m not a “do gooder bible toting freak” either. I’m not here to preach at you or tell you it’s all going to be okay…but what I will say is […]
My hands are shaking, I don’t know why
I’ve been here before
Yet for some reason I can’t help but cry
New doors, but all of them so far away
The old ones are slowly closing
And they call out strongly my name
What will become of me?
I cannot be sure
But I know there is no cure for what I am
So simple yet so complex
I am unable to see through the fog
And I’m afraid I’m destined to choose wrong
One bad door is all it will take
One wrong move, one mistake and I know
I’ll end up where I have been before
I reach […]
Callisto, in one or two days
Will she be, angel’s death
What will be the drastic plan
There are no archangels
All chained, what’s left, I don’t know
It’s sad, my time that passes by
But it’s okay, because it’s just me
Give it all to me, the pain, I’ll take it
Just promise me, one day
One way or another.
” Here are some obvious things about the weather: It’s real. You can’t change it by wishing it away. If it’s dark and rainy it really is dark and rainy and you can’t alter it. It might be dark and rainy for two weeks in a row , BUT It will be sunny one day. It isn’t under one’s control as to when the sun comes out, but come out it will. One day . ”
My mood took a turn for the worse this morning. Maybe the reality that I can’t figure out how to end my pain without dying. I don’t know. But then I read posts from people who think they have all the answers to depression and mental illness… Well, it is a beautiful day here in San Francisco. My cats are adorable. I will try to smile and forget my pain for as long as I can.
When the venom toutch my soul
A pice of me dies once more
If I keep this up I will be gone
And every drop that comes dripping down
Makes me less and less who I really am
It the destroys the bad
And leaves me in nothing
Theres nothing left
After it all has bled out
Im nothing more than the numb inside me
just a poem I write a while back xx
Armitage
Tonight I became
The eternal
Morlock
My tale
Fated
As if
Written
I went
Bitten
Never
Coming
My wings
One day
I will cry
Again
Archangel
Michael
Has come
For me
I hope
We shall fare
Our escape
Pray to well
The undead
The journey
Is to the
The afterlife
If you can cry
You are alive
Only crystal
Will farewell
Until the next
Thousand year
I will see you
Again
Ten is freedom
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=An9j2MPN24Q
…because one day we will all be Dead 🙂
Haiku-for Thanatos
Pedantic and mardy
You go too far,Hamster-Hole
You need a swift kick
Haiku#2 for Thanatos
You said Plagiarize
Its called Active Listening
My fell assassin
Haiku#3 for Thanatos
One eye to the past
Unrequited, star fading
See you Space Cowboy