The beast that we know as Paranoia, that’s always tugging at my mind, always forcing my mind into a state of wonder, into a thought pattern, like a cobweb,of catastrophic thoughts of what will happen if I’m not obedient.
But the worst of all, the beast that I fear the most, is myself. Tell me, please, is it my fault or is it just bad luck that I, of all people, was cursed with all this?
Hello Internet,
About me: I am a 12 year old guy that is not very happy but I am sad.
The Internet is my favorite place let me explain why, I have a bad life and school is the main problem, the teachers laugh at me kids bully me call me names etc… There is only some Pepole that are nice to me. Pepole even some of my friends make fun of me, I try to be playful but they say stop always very loud. I have been thinking of suicied but, I am very sacred of doing it. And the Internet is fun because pepole treat […]
I still think of you
more often than I’d like to admit
it still hurts to hear your name
i wish you’d leave my mind
sometimes I want to go after you
but I know that’s not what you want
i understand why you had to leave
I just wish you didn’t
I feel terrible for what I did
what I excepted of you was too great
I got too mad
said and did terrible things
im sorry, and I think you know that
you just don’t care
you left me to save yourself
and that’s ok
i just wish you’d come back
I miss you
I miss our friend ship
I wish things could go back to the way they were
but I know […]
I’m not afraid to die. Actually I prefered if someone would kill me now. Remove the burden I place on everyone’s hearts. I cut and I feel better. Everyone says I’m sick but am I really? I’ve found release. Please let me die already
Okay, please don’t read this unless you are prepared to read a long winded story of my life. Many of you won’t understand and that’s okay.
The relevant part of this story starts in third grade. Back then, everything was bright and shiny, and death unthinkably far off. Sure, I knew it existed, but I never saw it up close. Then, my teacher died of cancer. I get scared, more than the other kids, for some reason. I tell my friends that they should be scared too, that we could die at any moment, and, like third graders, they don’t take me seriously. After a while, […]
Please don’t lead me on by saying I’m a nice girl. Please don’t lead me on by texting me for ten hours straight then not texting me for two weeks. Please don’t act like we had something. Because we obviously didn’t. I tried to be the one for you- and yet you left. Just like they all do. I thought you were different. Now I sit on my bed in my room with my knife in my hand, and I had thought I was different to. My friends told me you were the super shy, sweet guy who just had a horrible break up. I’ve […]
Please can someone please talk to me. I don’t want to be alone. I can’t stop crying and I don’t know what to do. I don’t have anyone to go to.
There is no excerpt because this is a protected post.
I haven’t killed myself yet but my depression has gotten worst everyday I haven’t told anyone about it but there’s a guy I started talking to and he likes me and I told him I have a secret but I’m not sure if I trust him to not tell anyone I guess I want help but should I tell him so it could be some help I don’t know who to go to please help before I kill myself or before I don’t want help anymore so guys should I tell that guy or someone else or no one at all
I cry every time I listen to this.
What’s your song line that touches your soul most at the moment?
(please: just SIX lines per person)
I’ll start with Anastacia’s “Everything burns”:
“But she will sing…
‘Till everything burns, while everyone screams,
Burning their lies, burning my dreams,
All of this hate, and all of this pain,
I’ll burn it all down, as my anger rains,
‘Till everything burns…”
alcohol is my filter tonight, I may come offf crass, and harsh, wheather io mean to or not, that’s anyones guess
Everyday now you hear stories of people who are so upset, depressed tortured, bullied, and how they in their lives so shortly and swiftly and how everyone around them is so effected by their choice and how cruel and selfish they were to take their lives as they did. Honestly, I can’t help but feel like they are the lucky ones. They’re the ones who’ve realized what to do how to help themselves they know their way out. People have always said that suicide is a sin. I want to make it very clear that suicide is not a sin. God would not so harshly […]
I love you all. Please remember all that I said and tried to do. You all are very special to me.
God – if you hear me, PLEASE don’t let me wake up again tomorrow – I just want to go away – I can’t do it myself – I’ve tried. Just let me leave this place – alone too long – and that’s the way it will always be – just let me sleep now – no more, no more – please no more
What is happiness?
Is it the money you have? Is it the food you eat? Is it the movies you watch? Is it the books you read? Is it the friends and family you have? Or is it the fire in your heart?
If it’s the fire, where can I find it? Can someone please tell me how to find it?
I don’t know where my little fire go. Is it lost? Or is it that I never truly had it.
ok everyone needs to back up and calm down here for a second. Wndozh8er must have removed his last post because others here are accusing him of seeking attention and playing the victim. He was hurt and so was I over something personal just between us, but we working out the differences and it’s no ones business but ours. Just please don’t hate on him or change your opinions of him because he speaks what’s on his mind. He is not and never has been a drama starter or attention whore. Please stop treating him as such and posting stuff about it. He’s a huge support […]
Never been so low, didnt know. That I could fall so far covered in scars. Caused by the drugs I use, I abuse. Shit. It wasnt written in the stars its the life I choose. Whats it to you? If I hurt myself, nobody else, self destruct. Fuck health. Aint no one got time for that…So, Ima grab another sack. Lay back and pray I never wake up. Cause I cant get my cake up, while starin in the face of, this dark hearted demon, i just feel like leaving, everything ive known everytime that Im fiendin. No sleepin no eatin, barely even human. Constant […]
hahaha. So let me explain or digress rather. This deaf guy walked by and he had a sign on his laptop bag bravely strung around his neck that read: speak up and speak clearly to my face please, I am hard of hearing. Where the fuck did that expression come from. I’m hard of hearing? I’m hard FROM hearing. I’m hard TO hear. I’m hard BY hearing. What the fuck is hard of hearing. Doesn’t even make sense. This language man. And my own personal joke that nobody else but Hjertsblomst will get: Fuck norwegians. It’s killz by the way. I felt you may not […]
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