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Pregnant Mother

The end is nigh

by AshCoveredAngel 7/27/2016

written by AshCoveredAngel

So the state refuses to fix my insurance. In 4 days I won’t have any. Cancelled insurance at 32 1/2 weeks pregnant.

I won’t be paying medical bills back because I don’t have an income of any kind. I’ll just have to deal with collection calls and letters until they give up getting money from me and put it as a charged off account on my already very poorly rated credit.

This also means I won’t be able to get any kind of postpartum care. Good news is that I’ve already accepted I’ll be a depressed woman with no safety net.

At least I […]

7/27/2016 4 comments

Failure

by AshCoveredAngel 7/5/2016

written by AshCoveredAngel

Struggling these past few days and it’s hurting those around me.

Especially my child. I made them cry twice today. I’m so messed up right now I told my 2 year old to shut up.

Why? They were hungry while I was trying to angrily call the state about my insurance that’s going to be cancelled next month.

No insurance when I’m 8 months pregnant. Awesome. Worse case scenario I’ll stop all prenatal and deliver at home completely unassisted medically. I can’t afford the bill. It’s whatever. I’m not even worried about birth.

The thing I should be worried about is postpartum depression. I’m […]

7/5/2016 2 comments

Horrible Thought

by AshCoveredAngel 6/24/2016

written by AshCoveredAngel

I doubt anyone follows what I post on here, I’m new-ish and I don’t interact much.

Anyways I’ve mentioned before I’m pregnant.

Which means according to my own rules suicide it off limits. I have a rule “do no physical harm to another” I’m totally pro-choice and viability is a thing but I still have respect for *potential* life.

That doesn’t stop me from desiring to commit suicide or frequently thinking of death. It’s highly likely that I will not chose to make it through postpartum depression again. I’ve fought enough in this life to only face more misery. We’ll see I guess

I’d be […]

6/24/2016 1 comment

Just a bad day.

by AshCoveredAngel 5/24/2016

written by AshCoveredAngel

Spent most of my day crying today.

I’m pregnant so I’m sure I’m doing terrible things to my unborn son by merely having depression.

I’m currently in therapy and under the care of a psychiatrist. I lie to them because if I don’t I’m 100% positive Child protective services will take my other child back out of my custody and the other once they’re born.

Just an FYI the government can take your children just because you have mental illness. My advice is to lie. You might not get the help you need but let me tell you it’s better than losing a child.

I […]

5/24/2016 2 comments

my story

by xxxlonelyxxx 12/28/2012

written by xxxlonelyxxx

Hey everyone most of you might know some of this but i really just need to get this out. No one really knows some of this stuff in my life but I need to get it off my chest.. I can’t carry this weight forever. and I can’t carry this weight alone. I trust so many of you on this site not to judge me or even respond but just to.. understand. Sorry if this doesn’t make much sense either.. I’m just trying to purge all of this information to maybe make more sense of it.. don’t worry it won’t be too long ill try […]

12/28/2012 5 comments