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Psyche

Never Free

by theforgottenfew 8/22/2013

written by theforgottenfew

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Running in circles,

You fall,

Digging deeper,

Confused.

Lost.

Your lost.

Breathing…

Seeing…

Heart beating…

Blood rushing through your veins.

But what is this filth that your breathing?

What is this desecration that your seeing?

Why is your heart beating when you don’t really live?

Why is your blood flowing when you can’t understand your life or what’s left of it?

Life…

Living a terminal disease,

Everyday you live your moving closer to dying.

Try and show yourself why…

You don’t know why…

You can’t find the truth.

You don’t know whereÂ your going.

People lose your trust.

But who are you to trust when you can’t even trust yourself?

Your psyche […]

8/22/2013 6 comments

heavy duty shit in therapy yesterday. rejection, dismissal, self hatred etc etc. my psyche is fighting tooth and nail to keep some horrible thing secret. what that is i don’t know. saw the shrink last week. another appointment and a new script. losing faith in pharmaceuticals. there doesn’t seem to be anything out there for me. left the office angry and upset. felt rejected, dismissed, discarded. why exactly i don’t know. the doc didn’t do or say anything particularly egregious. it was like there was something i desperately wanted to communicate but i couldn’t find the words. then my 20 minutes was up. go away. […]

7/7/2013 0 comment

numb

by Blad3s 4/2/2013

written by Blad3s

well lets start this fucking bullshit shall we.Â Okay so what the fuck do you do when everything you touch or do fails? what the hell do you do when girlfriend after girlfriend leaves you? After they use the fuck out of you? Or roomates who wish to rip you off at every turn? what the fuck do you do when you’ve cried to the point where you can’t anymore? I fucking feel nothing anymore no joy no excitement no passion for my favorite things no expectation for good to happen nothing ever goes right anymore but when something fucked up happens to me it […]

4/2/2013 5 comments

I FUCKING HHHHHHAAAAAAAAAATTTTTTTTTTTEEEEEEEEEEEEE PEOPLE!!!!

by ouch 1/30/2013

written by ouch

After putting a gun to my head yesterday I decided to go see my psychiatrist today. Â I called the ombudsman in my area about his lack of ethical behavior earlier this year. Â After 4 months, the case was assigned a ‘resolved’ status without my knowledge. Â I MADE THE FUCKING COMPLAINT!!! Â How can it be resolved without me even being notified? Â The agency has lied to the ombudsman from day one and she told me that they told her the situation had been resolved. Â I asked her what the resolution was cause I sure wasn’t included in that decision. Â The agency told the ombuds that they […]

1/30/2013 11 comments

The doctors failure

by lostchild445 12/21/2012

written by lostchild445

The doctors speak a language all their own
Full of words and chemicals unknown
To vacant minds with drugged behinds
So they can fix their wretched soul
It will fix you they say
As though you were broken in some way and your mind could be replaced
With one more common place and less problematic
To them it’s just another day
In the asylum in which they stay
Day after day they prey upon the psyche of lost children and desperate parents.
Their duties to help the needy
To be carried out hastily
By giving them lobotomies
Through a poison masked as a remedy.
I was there, a zombie amongst the horde
The ER having me deferred
To a ward full […]

12/21/2012 1 comment

Feeling Human

by leiferikson 10/7/2012

written by leiferikson

Most of the time I feel permanent. Not like immortal or anything, but more timeless. Fixed, I guess you could say. Because of this, I’m not easily afraid of anything, even death.

Once I was out with some friends at a restaurant. I can’t even remember exactly what was said, but a friend of mine said something that humiliated me in front of everyone. Now, there are a few emotions which my brain simply cannot process and my body simply cannot contain. Shame is one of them.Â I stood up, walked out, and cold late autumn air immediately began to burn my bare arms. I didn’t know […]

10/7/2012 4 comments

The only two basic human emotions are love and fear.

by sansesperer 7/13/2012

written by sansesperer

This is what some people believe.Â When one cuts through whatever emotion one is feeling right now, it’s rooted in either love or fear.

I believe that the reason that we have come to this site is because we have let fear-based emotions rule our lives.Â Anger, hate, frustration, anxiety, sadness, shame, regret … theseÂ feelings are all fundamentally driven by fear.Â In my case, I’m angry at myself.Â I hate my work situation.Â I feel great shame in being a burden on so many people. I’m frustrated by my relationship.Â I regret not having the balls to be true to myself – this lack of […]

7/13/2012 9 comments

how the f-ck

by truthbetold 6/10/2012

written by truthbetold

am I supposed to keep going:

– when it feels like my drive to desire is broken (desire being the root of action) ?

– when my ego’s been getting weaker for theÂ past 5+ years ?

– when my mind cannot generate meaningful goals etc like it used to ?

I wanted to become a psychologist when I started going to college (sept. 06) .. it was my only and meaningful goal, my door into the future

I got to experience mental abuse & other bad things in an environment I started to hate .. unfortunately, I had no other realistic option than […]

6/10/2012 3 comments

Parents

by U.N. Owen 4/4/2012

written by U.N. Owen

Coming from a religion heavy city and family abortion is not a choice for them.

And very few of them believe in adoption because they feel like if a person has a child that person should have no option at all but to raise the child despite the circumstances. Their philosophy is “God will provide.”

Seems like reality in some cases is a bit different. On sites like this and in RL there are so many children who are neglected and abused by their parents.Â Which of course does not doom them but does give them a more difficult start than children without that problem.

To the point […]

4/4/2012 2 comments

Cancer

by jill90210 1/30/2012

written by jill90210

Today I found out about one more person I know who has cancer. Seems like there has been so many and so many deaths lately and I guess my point in all that is that I would trade them in a heart beat. It makes no sense to me why someone like me who could give a shit if I am on this crap planet another second lives and someone else who wants to live, gets cancer or some other illness. I am 39 years old and question everything I have ever done in my life. Question who I am, question it all. I am […]

1/30/2012 2 comments

level up!

by tphg 1/11/2012

written by tphg

work and play have lost all meaning. The barriers between personal and professional life have shattered. It’s all the same crap now, junk that’s in between me and non-existence. I work and play but don’t put my heart into anymore; nothing feels good. I am Anhedonia.

I can’t live like this, my life is not so bad that I have any “good” reason to kill myself but it’s not good in any way either. It’s been good but I don’t enjoy things.

I can go home after working and sedate myself and do it all over again but why??! FUCK! Friends don’t mean much to me […]

1/11/2012 4 comments