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Puberty

Everything I’ve done has been made meaningless…

by z80 5/1/2013

written by z80

I told my parents that I am bipolar-2 and that they must not tell anybody in the family or outside the family before I explain what that means. Â People think bipolar = crazy, schizophrenic, split personality, criminal, nuts… Â you get the idea. Â These types of labels pretty much sink a person’s life completely.

Nobody wants to hire you. Â No one that was in your social circle would be a recommendation. Â No job prospects. Â Not money. Â No lady wants to be with a man who cannot even get a job. Â Family throws you out because they think that the reason you can’t find a job is because […]

5/1/2013 4 comments

I can’t do it anymore.

by Raven-Mapleson 1/20/2013

written by Raven-Mapleson

I’ve been suicidal for the past 7 years (ever since I hit puberty).

I need to die, now. I can’t do it anymore. This is what I want, this is my greatest wish. There’s just too much stress and no, I really do NOT care about how other people will feel and what will happen after I’m gone.

My only problem now is how to make this fool-proof, so that I don’t end up in a hospital again. I want my death to be certain.

1/20/2013 3 comments

Feeling like a loser, so why keep trying.

by cocoblair 9/24/2012

written by cocoblair

I just discovered this website and reading some of ya’ll’s posts called out to me and made me want to write stuff down. So why not do it for you people, someone who gets what im going through.

In less than 2 months I’ll be 22 years old. I’ve been thinking about suicide since i was 12. Depression and anxiety have been a part of my life since I was a baby. I remember being 4 or 5 years old, and feeling anxious and unsafe all the time. I grew up in a home where fighting, co-dependency, depression and hysteria was considered normal so I didn’t […]

9/24/2012 2 comments

its so FUNNY!

by evelien 7/8/2012

written by evelien

lately all i can do is laugh, its all so fucking funny,
its funny how i am such a pathetic person that has pity on himself while nothing bad enough has happened to me, its also funny how everything hurts, its funny that i am writing this and i am only now realising how terrible i am feeling, its funny how i can’t stop hating myself for a second. its funny how i never have any rest, its funny how i keep telling myself i don’t care , its funny how i love pain, how i love being treated like shit by my father, i […]

7/8/2012 2 comments

fuck me….

by robbiesoho 5/15/2012

written by robbiesoho

I started drinking and smoking pot around age 12. before I went into puberty, Now i am 23 and my bones have not developed. My wrists and hands are smaller than most childrens. I also have gynocomastia (development of breasts due to hormonal imbalances). It seems my hormones are fucked. I have no sex drive and no ambition. Ive been rejected by many females for my feminine qualities. My father killed himself when i was 17, and all my life since then Ive just wanted to be a man and take care of myself and my family…now im developing into a fucking woman! I had […]

5/15/2012 4 comments

Why me?

by Anonymous 1/8/2012

written by Anonymous

I grew up an average child, but gradually becoming more and more overweight as I grew. I talk to people about this, very few people I might add, but they keep giving me the same bullshit answer. “It gets better.” Well, I don’t think it’s getting better after 3 fucking years! I started cutting 3 years ago, during summer. I was on vacation and a fight went on between me and my mom, and I left, took out my knife and cut my throat. Ever so slightly. I didn’t want it to end this way. I wasn’t going to go down after the first cut. […]

1/8/2012 2 comments

Vanished Dreams

by osuterry 7/3/2009

written by osuterry

Â I thought my life would be extraordinary. I have looks, intelligence, and charm, yet it all went so wrong. I started puberty at an alarmingly young age-when I was 10 I looked 16. This really upset my father, so he decided to deal with it by putting loads of pressure on me to excel and by saying hurtful comments about my appearance and life. This shredded my self-esteem, causing me to spend my high school years scared and lonely.Â Then my freshman year of college, I met a 400 pound guy who was flunking out of school and decided to hitch my wagon to […]

7/3/2009 4 comments

my life

by alexis 4/30/2009

written by alexis

im sorry but i really dnt have neone to talk to nemore. since 2001 ive had serious thoughts of suicide. My life really sucks… when i was three my grandfather decided to molest me and then when my elder brother hit puberty he decided to rape and molest me for almost 5 years. i accidentally told the cops and he was arrestted but no one in my family believed me except my mother. everyone else just called me a liar because they didn’t like me as much as they liked him. When i grew into my teenage years my cousins decided to try ‘sstuff’ on […]

4/30/2009 6 comments