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fuck it.

by Alan Ominous
written by Alan Ominous

I almost posted some metaphorical thought based shit. Decided nah, fuck that. I ramble too fucking much.

I almost posted some deep internal , dump my heart out shit. Ironic I’m not really comfortable with that. Besides so many new faces, filling in the back story… fuck it.

I almost posted a funny ass song, well, I think it’s funny. I kind of over did that though.

So, here’s Twiztid-Darkness. I like the song. I like the video. It’s not overly goofy, or too deep to me. Just posting up to post up. Thinking on getting blitzed wasted tonight. I haven’t tasted booze in 7-8 months. Haven’t been […]

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I’m so tired…

by thatonegirl98
written by thatonegirl98

i’m recovering. I’m recovering from self harm, and have attempted suicide twice. I’ve been clean for a while. I’m trying so hard. Life just seems to be getting worse and worse. Everywhere I go, I feel so mad and sad and I just want to explode. I’m tired of being hurt. All these people fuck me over. I hate it so much. Is there any true people out there? I’d love to meet someone genuine. Someone who isn’t fake and someone who’s not a liar. Just a true person. I’m so tired of being hurt. I’m trying so hard at school. I’m trying to find […]

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What makes Imp impossible?

by impossible_girl
written by impossible_girl

I think I might have made a post like this some time ago, but the last few months have been … odd, to understate the case. I have some facets, some core beliefs I’ve formed, that make me an impossible girl indeed.

1) I’m a grey ace. Grey asexual. I can feel some sexual desire, though largely when reading erotic fic or something, sometimes for someone I care about, but I don’t want sex. Romance, yes. Sex, no. It took me a very long time to accept that this doesn’t make me broken, it simply puts me on a different […]

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Advice

by kitsune
written by kitsune

I’ve stopped cutting for about 4-5 months, but I yearn to do it again. I want to feel the blade pushed into my skin. I have extremely bad problems with talking to my family. I can’t do that. I see a therapist only once every other week. I thought that I was getting better, that I was finally recovering but, I’m not ok. I’m not recovered. I need some help.

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It’s been a long time

by snader
written by snader

Hi (again),
This is my first post since the one I made somewhere in Octobre 2014, where i said i’d probably kill myself on Sunday. My brothers suicide, loneliness, school, stress and general depression were wrecking me.
Needless to say, i didn’t succeed. Alot has happened since then. Ah, where do i even start?
Okay so things were shit then (still are now so that’s stayed the same) and i felt very very very suicidal. My self harming had gotten pretty bad and i was making solid plans of killing myself.
I never mentioned this, but somewhere around a year ago i developped an eating […]

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help

by sunshine4
written by sunshine4

hello 🙂

what bullying and would you consider this bullying?

alright. since the start of the year I have met these group of girls (I am a girl) who have made me felt very upset. I am quiet and shy and normally don’t speak up about these things. it first started when they just stared at me, they would laugh at me and try to humilate me. 2 weeks after I had met them they would speak really loudly bad things about me then laugh. it really hurt my reputation and now I have no friends. I was recovering from self harm and it made me want […]

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Hello all! Long overdue intro..

by The Mad Hatter
written by The Mad Hatter

Just thought I’d introduce myself as I’ve been lurking and commenting for a while..

But yeah, Mad Hatter here, its been a pleasure hanging around chatting to the people here, I came here recently during a depressive episode looking for an easy way to kill myself – and I found the experience cathartic and decided to stay.

I’m 26 years old, bipolar & DDNOS and am openly gay. I’m a recovering drug addict, I took a vast array of illegal drugs every day for a decade before getting clean earlier this year after a major breakdown where I gave up my job and made a serious suicide […]

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Haunting Nightmares

by Halfmoon
written by Halfmoon

I woke up at 3:30 am jolted out of a sleep.  All I could see was my boyfriend stabbing himself in the arms, blood splatter, tears rolling down his face.  All of this because he loves me . A bad fight because I don’t trust him– a recovering drug addict who promised rehab but bailed and never went.    I feel guilty, helpless.  Was told to practice tough love and to cut the codependent role.  The codependent in me feels responsible for what he did.  The tough-love person feels manipulated.  Regardless of those two opposing forces, he entirely blames me for driving him to kill […]

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Imagining and recovering a better self…

by 77nearlyheaven
written by 77nearlyheaven

Just want to first say this:

IF YOU ARE ON HERE READING THIS PLEASE FORCE YOURSELF TO FIND REASONS NOT TO AND THEN COME UP WITH A RADICAL BUT ACHIEVABLE PLAN FOR BEGINNING TO LIVE AND EMBRACE LIFE AGAIN.

YOU ARE WORTH IT.  YOU ARE, EVEN IF YOU CAN’T RECOGNIZE IT RIGHT NOW.

PAIN, DARKNESS CAN BE OVERCOME.

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Have attempted suicide a few times, most recently 2007 (carbon monoxide, more impulsive and less deliberate) and 2012 (overdose, deliberate and methodical).

2012 was closest to date; received dialysis twice and woke up convinced I had irreversible brain damage.  Realize that my resolve to succeed each time is growing and […]

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My story

by KelseyPearl
written by KelseyPearl

8th grade was when it all started. It started in the middle of that year. My dad & I were fighting. He told me that the reason he tried to kill himself was because of me. At that time I started to believe it was me cause of the way I treated him. His mental health issues at that time were up & down. In previous years he was overdosing with his prescription meds which led to him getting into a car accident with me & he also fell down the stairs. Some other things happened like he ran into a tree with […]

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Morning panic attacks

by TickTock
written by TickTock

I go to sleep to escape this miserable reality, knowing damn well that I will wake up in the morning with a panic attack, resulting in a substantially worse reality than the one I escaped in the first place. After spending a painful day in this miserable world recovering from the panic attack, and very possibly not getting any work done, resulting in more anxiety, I go to sleep again to escape, et cetera.

Non existence is a perfect state, where such concerns do not exist, and nothing is known of them. Not even the idea of knowing, or the idea of an idea, is known, […]

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Seventh Time Unlucky

by roojay13
written by roojay13

Over the course of my short 26 years of life, I have attempted suicide on no less than 8 occasions.

From the age of 11, I was bullied at school, tormented and tortured by grown men who’d wait for me after school and not to mention the troubles I was working through at home and struggling to admit the fact that I am gay, even to myself.

All of this plus a few other reasons landed me in therapy.

From the age of 11 onwards I saw one psychotherapist after another and I’ve been on so many medications that it’s hard to be certain of the exact number. […]

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