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by Alan Ominous

I almost posted some metaphorical thought based shit. Decided nah, fuck that. I ramble too fucking much.

I almost posted some deep internal , dump my heart out shit. Ironic I’m not really comfortable with that. Besides so many new faces, filling in the back story… fuck it.

I almost posted a funny ass song, well, I think it’s funny. I kind of over did that though.

So, here’s Twiztid-Darkness. I like the song. I like the video. It’s not overly goofy, or too deep to me. Just posting up to post up. Thinking on getting blitzed wasted tonight. I haven’t tasted booze in 7-8 months. Haven’t been good and wasted in 3 years. Recovering alchy so, guess that’s a good fucking indication of what’s happening.

Enough. Here.


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Cordless 5/12/2016 - 9:26 pm

I feel powerless to help, yet I will be thinking of you and hoping for the best.

Assuming my Internet connection stays alive instead of cruelly fizzling out and laughing in my face, you can always email me to vent about anything.

Alan Ominous 5/12/2016 - 10:12 pm

If you like… paid for it instead of jacking the neighbors it might be more consistent.

Cordless 5/12/2016 - 11:17 pm

I’ll remember that the next time I have a wad of money sitting around.

rocketman 5/12/2016 - 9:48 pm

Cordless, i would love to email you! 🙂 just to say hi 🙂 recycling1000 @yahoo.com. if your up to it drop me a line. 🙂

Alan Ominous 5/12/2016 - 9:53 pm

Aw shucks, looky there.

Alan Ominous 5/12/2016 - 9:56 pm

On the real though. I’m up for some good chatter.

Cordless 5/12/2016 - 10:16 pm

I like chatting.
I’m downtown right now but am about to drive home, which is always fun seeing double and triple and struggling not to crash into trees and barns and large wildlife.
Assuming I can get the #^@&*# connection to work when I get home, I can chat for many hours, thanks to insomnia and eccentricity.

If you don’t hear from me later, either the wifi isn’t working or I collided with a surprisingly large object on my way there.

Cordless 5/12/2016 - 10:19 pm

@rocketman : I will try not to hit any rotting yaks.

Although…. that would make an awesome obituary.

Alan Ominous 5/12/2016 - 10:20 pm

Be safe. We can’t lose you yet.

rocketman 5/12/2016 - 10:28 pm

Cordless, Be careful! rotting yak’s are special! like us! 🙂

rocketman 5/12/2016 - 10:00 pm

Alan Ominous, I DO THAT ALL THE TIME, Think about posting something then change my mine, i don’t want to add anymore sadness to the site if i can help it, but added something that others might relate too is OK, you can email mail too. BUT ALL I CAN THINK OF IS GETTING INTO TROUBLE WITH YOU! 🙂

Alan Ominous 5/12/2016 - 10:02 pm

Nah, I’m O-G, I learned to avoid trouble ages ago.

rocketman 5/12/2016 - 10:06 pm

Alan Ominous, Then go for it, it’s nice to talk to somebody that’s crazy as myself. 🙂

Alan Ominous 5/12/2016 - 10:10 pm

Yeah, I’ll def shoot ya an email sometime. Side note, I’m a fucking light weight now…

rocketman 5/12/2016 - 10:15 pm

Alan Ominous, that’s fine, i’m not! 🙂 i’m getting back into the swing of things, with out getting arrested these day’s, we have to change with the time’s but remain old school at the same time.

Alan Ominous 5/12/2016 - 10:19 pm

I got some cheerleader beer. 5.5% fruity shit. Taste vok. Already feeling slight tingles

Cordless 5/12/2016 - 10:20 pm

I love fruity beverages.

Headed home now.
Wish me luck.

Alan Ominous 5/12/2016 - 10:30 pm


rocketman 5/12/2016 - 10:34 pm

Cordless, sounds like fun, but wait till you get home.

Morris 5/12/2016 - 10:39 pm

I wonder if it’s harder being a recovering alcoholic or a recovering Christian? Giving up heroin or quitting smoking? I dunno. They’re all difficult addictions to overcome.

Alan Ominous 5/12/2016 - 10:41 pm

Well, guess we need to do a comparison for scientific reasons.

Wintergirl 5/13/2016 - 12:06 am

I was actually born in the fall. My user name is actually just a reference on how I often just feel like the winter and half dead most of the time. I’ve lived in the same city my whole life so far. It’s not bad here.

Morris 5/13/2016 - 12:16 am

I see.
My all-time favorite Rage Against The Machine song just came on. “No Shelter”.
There’s no news to report here. I’m gonna get drunk then go to sleep then wake up early tommorow morning, then I’ll put in a long day doing work I’m tired of doing to make money. That’s what adult-hood consists of. If I could live in a tree-house I would, but I need money.

Hazy Day Sunflower 5/13/2016 - 12:20 am

@morris: you could live in a tree house. What is stopping you?

Wintergirl 5/13/2016 - 12:22 am

Rage against the machine. Haven’t listened to them in forever. I can only think of Bulls on Parade. I’m with you on the getting drunk, falling asleep and going to a job I’m tired of tomorrow. Been doing this job 12 yrs now. It’s only getting harder.

Alan Ominous 5/12/2016 - 10:42 pm

On the real, I wish I could like, fucking conference call y’all. Such fucking killer news. I’m fucking stoked. I’m pumped. I’m wet and I don’t even have a vag.

Morris 5/12/2016 - 10:50 pm

This world is a better place when people are happy, and you sound happy so I’ll buy you a drink and support your life choices. (No enabler here).
Rock on, Al. Here’s toasting you. *clink*clink*
Live long and prosper, bitches.

Alan Ominous 5/12/2016 - 10:53 pm

Thank you Morris, you have no clue what you’re words just meant to me. I’m going to share my news here soon. Kinda waiting to see if cordless pops back

Morris 5/12/2016 - 11:09 pm

Right on, sorry for the delayed response. I just walked to the Chevron and got another 6-pack of Anchor Steam. That’s a damn fine beer.
Do your thing, be you. It’s all good.

Alan Ominous 5/12/2016 - 11:10 pm

My thing is a fucking meltdown, fuck… not what wanted to happen

Wintergirl 5/12/2016 - 11:16 pm

Morris, I’ve never heard of that beer. What’s it like?

Morris 5/12/2016 - 11:25 pm

It’s a beer brewed in San Francisco. Like certain fast-food outlets and grocery stores, beers are often regional. You can only sample certain offerings if you’re in a geographical location where they’re available for purchase. Anchor Steam is one of those beers; I have a hard time finding them if I get too far away from the Gay Bay.

Moose Drool is an excellent beer from Montana.
Oregon’s got the Deschutes Brewing Co. which also puts out excellent beers. (I’m kind of a beer snob, which is better than being a wine snob).

Wintergirl 5/12/2016 - 11:32 pm

Now I know why I’ve never heard of it. I usually just drink Busch Light. I try specialty beers occasionally but have yet to find one I like enough to switch. Guess I’m a cheap date.

Morris 5/12/2016 - 11:38 pm

@Wintergirl; You’ve gotta expand your horizons. Like the bumper sticker says “Life is too short to spend dancing with ugly people or drinking cheap beer”. Those bumper stickers are almost as wise as fortune cookies.

Wintergirl 5/12/2016 - 11:42 pm

Good one Morris. I do like hard cider. That’s kind of a new thing for me. Now that the weather’s getting nicer here I’ll be more inclined to enjoy a few more different drinks while grilling out .

Morris 5/12/2016 - 11:48 pm

You like alcohol and barbeque?
Wow. You could be my future ex-wife.
(If you’re under 18 or from a foreign country kindly ignore this comment).

Alan Ominous 5/12/2016 - 11:51 pm

Sorry but Busch come on…. at least go Yeungling for mass beer.

Wintergirl 5/12/2016 - 11:53 pm

I’m probably older than you. Haha. I like your style Morris. I live near cordless.

Wintergirl 5/12/2016 - 11:58 pm

Alan, don’t know if they sell that near me.

Morris 5/12/2016 - 11:58 pm

Ying-Ling is good. It sounds Chinese but it’s from Pennsylvania.

@Wintergirl; I was born in the winter too, I’m a permanent traveler. I live nowhere but I favor the Pacific Time Zone.

Alan Ominous 5/13/2016 - 12:13 am

Winter girl, I assure you they do.

Wintergirl 5/13/2016 - 12:24 am

Alan, I’ll be looking next time I go to the store.

Wintergirl 5/12/2016 - 11:00 pm

I’m going to drink a few tonight too. Nothing fruity, just some plain old beer. Cheers!

Alan Ominous 5/12/2016 - 11:03 pm

What my fellow mitten one?

Alan Ominous 5/12/2016 - 11:03 pm

Fuck I suck, I meant what up?

Wintergirl 5/12/2016 - 11:12 pm

Did you get caught driving in all that crazy rain today?

Wintergirl 5/12/2016 - 11:14 pm

I’m just glad to be home from work, it hadn’t been a great week at the ole nursing home..

Alan Ominous 5/12/2016 - 11:17 pm

For a minute near Benton harbor

Cordless 5/13/2016 - 12:24 am

The rain WAS crazy today.

Some thunder with it, too.

Wintergirl 5/13/2016 - 12:28 am

It was….I suddenly found myself having to close a lot of windows quickly..

Alan Ominous 5/12/2016 - 11:06 pm

Well, shit, either cordless didn’t make it or her neighbors password the Wi-Fi

Cordless 5/13/2016 - 12:26 am

Or both!

Alan Ominous 5/12/2016 - 11:07 pm

Fuck I wish I had a fucking friend

Alan Ominous 5/12/2016 - 11:09 pm

Well, Al, you’re kinda a scumbag, so reap what you sow.

Cordless 5/12/2016 - 11:14 pm

The wifi is shaky and will crumble at any moment but here I am.
I made it home and I only hit a few yaks on the way here.
They’ll be ok. They have insurance, right?

What is the big news??!!! I must know!

Wintergirl 5/12/2016 - 11:11 pm

Hopefully she shows up soon..I’ll be around a while if you need to talk about anything. Can’t gaurentee I’ll be any help cause I can’t seem to even help myself lately, but at worst I will be able to listen. This work week is wearing me down.

Alan Ominous 5/12/2016 - 11:16 pm

I’ll just dump my happiness out now. Bottle up the negative and let it ferment.

As some of you know, I’ve been without an amp (guitar) for some time. Well, I played a ton at 5 different stores. I fell in love with the Peavey Valveking 100., used they were like $300-450 depending on condition.

I just won an eBay auction for one that’s looks great, allegedly play perfect for $175 so, I’m stupid fucking happy on that

Cordless 5/12/2016 - 11:19 pm

Fermented negativity tastes awful.
I think that’s now they make tequila.

But YAY for the guitar! 🙂

Alan Ominous 5/12/2016 - 11:21 pm

It does. But, it’s getting chased with other ferment. Booze.

That’s my world right now. So so many awesome things. Nobody to share with.

Wintergirl 5/12/2016 - 11:21 pm

I can’t drink tequila. Tastes like dirty socks smell.

Alan Ominous 5/12/2016 - 11:23 pm

I’m drinks hard Chery cola. Me 10 years ago would totally laugh his ass off

Cordless 5/12/2016 - 11:26 pm

My “thing” in college many years ago was Jack Daniels mixed with root beer.

Cordless 5/12/2016 - 11:30 pm

I remember also being sad that blueberry schnapps plus 7up didn’t taste nearly as good as I’d hoped.

Alan Ominous 5/12/2016 - 11:33 pm

I like fire ball and cream soda.
Jack coke.
Of course Tech N9n3 drink “Caribou Lou”
151, pineapple juice and Malibu rum.
That shit taste like candy and will fuck your world.

Wintergirl 5/12/2016 - 11:34 pm

Alan, that actually sounds good.

Alan Ominous 5/12/2016 - 11:40 pm

It is. I had a friend who didn’t drink. Didn’t like alcohol. I talked him into trying one. He loved it. Asked for another. I made it. He goes to get up, sits right back down. Whoa…
What’s matter, Lil tipsy?
Dude I’m fucked!
I just laughed and laughed

Cordless 5/12/2016 - 11:41 pm

It does sound good.

Cordless 5/12/2016 - 11:43 pm

LOL…. I have a hard time standing up even when I’m sober.

Drinking makes it worse, in a pathetic but hilarious sort of way.

Wintergirl 5/12/2016 - 11:46 pm

I stick to beer and/ or cider because the hard stuff doesn’t agree with me anymore. I get waay too trashed. Blackouts are not fun. Honestly I’d rather not go through one again..

Alan Ominous 5/12/2016 - 11:47 pm

Lol… for sure.

Cordless 5/13/2016 - 12:05 am

I’ve never had a blackout or a drunk-induced memory lapse…. Though I did have way too many hangovers before I learned how to prevent them.

These days my memory lapses are because part of my brain is on vacation in some vast arctic wasteland. It doesn’t even send postcards.

Cordless 5/12/2016 - 11:19 pm

*HOW, instead of now.

I am a little hopped up on caffeine right now.

Wintergirl 5/12/2016 - 11:20 pm

That’s great news. I hope it’s what you are looking for.

Cordless 5/12/2016 - 11:23 pm

Now that you have the amp, you simply must make awesome metal recordings of yourself singing something.
If you have no words to sing, just screech like a banshee. That’s what 30% of metal is anyway.

Alan Ominous 5/12/2016 - 11:26 pm

I have words but no confidence to sing

Cordless 5/12/2016 - 11:28 pm


If you change your mind, you have an audience of at least one.

whiskered-fish 5/13/2016 - 12:26 am

Make that two.

Morris 5/12/2016 - 11:28 pm

37% of all statistics are made up on the spot.

Alan Ominous 5/12/2016 - 11:36 pm

I don’t sing metal anyways. When I do sing I sound very grunge.

Cordless 5/12/2016 - 11:44 pm

“The trouble with Internet statistics is that you can’t trust anyone to be accurate.”
— Abraham Lincoln

Alan Ominous 5/12/2016 - 11:57 pm

I can’t help but fucking hate myself right now

Cordless 5/13/2016 - 12:08 am

The vast majority of people on the planet do not hate you (or me either).
I agree with the majority.

Be a good friend to yourself, just like you’d treat a good friend who was getting trashed and crumpled up before your very eyes. Let him know you’re there to take care of whatever you can, even if some things get messed up along the way.

Cordless 5/13/2016 - 12:09 am

Somewhere in that… there is probably a good song.

Alan Ominous 5/13/2016 - 12:17 am

I get that. But, I’m still stuck with the hell beast

Cordless 5/13/2016 - 12:29 am

Remember: The hell beast is no reason to hate yourself.
Circumstances, yes.
Self, no.

Alan Ominous 5/13/2016 - 12:32 am

True. But I’m the one keeping me here…

Wintergirl 5/13/2016 - 12:11 am

Why is that?

Alan Ominous 5/13/2016 - 12:15 am

It’s alot to explain. Basically I’m a sad lonely chuckle head

Hazy Day Sunflower 5/13/2016 - 12:09 am

nice song. Like it. I should draw something for you. Before I pass out. Anything you want me to draw for you Allen before I pass the fuck out?

Hazy Day Sunflower 5/13/2016 - 12:10 am

BTW Loved the throught porcess on the post. Been there. Understand.

Alan Ominous 5/13/2016 - 12:12 am

A porcelain doll eating sushi on a surfboard in the desert with a honey badger

Hazy Day Sunflower 5/13/2016 - 12:22 am

you would not believe the freaky shit that came up when I googled that random bunch of shit. I am going to choose one of these really disturbing pics and paint it for you Alan, because you are important to more than a few people here and deserve a little fucked up beauty in your life today.

Alan Ominous 5/13/2016 - 12:30 am

That’s fucking awesome. I’m genuinely excited

Cordless 5/13/2016 - 1:17 am

I would LOVE to try drawing that, but Hazy can probably do a better job….

Hazy Day Sunflower 5/13/2016 - 1:21 am

Done. I went in a total different direction. Blame it on the bucket of white Russians I drank.

Cordless 5/13/2016 - 6:36 am

I ended up drawing it too.

I’m blaming mine on insomnia, unreliable wifi, and general weirdness bouncing around in the neurons.

I’ll probably post it a little later today.

Wintergirl 5/13/2016 - 12:37 am

I lost my beer for a minute. Guess that means I’m finally feeling it. I hate when the beer gets lost.

Alan Ominous 5/13/2016 - 12:38 am

Were you holding it in your hand while searching for it?

Wintergirl 5/13/2016 - 12:42 am

Not that drunk yet. But I did laugh.

Alan Ominous 5/13/2016 - 12:44 am

I remember s party. We had a keg, keg went dry , we fundraiser, we found car, soberish driver. Got another keg. Woke up and had like 80% left…

whiskered-fish 5/13/2016 - 12:37 am

Well, Alan, I definitely don’t think that you’re a scumbag. I think you have a lot of good qualities. But don’t take my word for it: look! 94 comments and counting. You have friends here.

Alan Ominous 5/13/2016 - 12:39 am

I know I know….just fucking wish it was real world

whiskered-fish 5/13/2016 - 12:43 am

That’s understandable. I’m sorry that we can’t be with you in the flesh. Just know that you’re not a scumbag. Because friendless or not, I don’t think you are one.

Alan Ominous 5/13/2016 - 12:45 am

Lol. Good times

Alan Ominous 5/13/2016 - 12:42 am

You know, you’ll be OK Kat? I feel it. In ten years you’ll look back, you’ll laugh, you’ll cry, but you’ll be alright.

whiskered-fish 5/13/2016 - 12:45 am

Thanks, man. I really hope you’re right.

(Ten years. Boy doesn’t that feel like a forever-long time to live.)

Alan Ominous 5/13/2016 - 12:46 am

What’s scary is when ten years ago seems like yesterday….

Wintergirl 5/13/2016 - 1:09 am

Yeah, 10 years ago I was a different person in some ways, but yet I’m still the same and if I turn on the station I used to listen to back then, surprise, same music.

Hazy Day Sunflower 5/13/2016 - 8:43 am

This entire thread made my morning.

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