How stupid of me
To really believe
All that he said
Was the reality
I gave it my all
He let me fall
I hit the ground
And he stood there tall
The same old rhyme
Still rings in my mind
As I make one more slit
And wait for my time
But I cannot wait
For I have no place
I might call for help
But it will be to late
I cry myself to sleep
I can’t even eat
And the end of my battle
Will be when myself i defeat
I lay prompt on my bed
Put the gun to my head
I happily pull […]
I was born to wander,
Between the broken hills and twisted tree’s
To obsess
Over the torments in my dream’s
To always seek
And never reach
In the lands of shadows Is where sleep
Though to whom
This may concern
Ive lost it all and learned to hurt
Ive been low
Ive had no home
Ive been weary right down to the bone
I push on,
Im still awake
For the needs I will forsake
Its what I want
That im after
I will not bow to the rapture
There is a term
A different breed
This I belong, this I heed
I fight […]
I’m almost too tired to cut…almost. But I need that familiarity right now. For no specific reason, I just do. That’s why cutting sucks. There’s no rhyme or reason.
theres nothing i can say or do is there? well it wouldnt matter if you said yes or no bec it doesnt change the fact that there is nothing i can ever say or do that is the right thing- i thought I was doing the right thing and now i have no idea about anything really. even though my life was screwy I had these constants that were just there…certainties that I thought well if this ship goes down at least these things will still be around. at least i have this or at least i have that. reality check you dont have anything […]
Life has died but really my hole life was just a lie. I am about to cry but all I can do is sigh cause if I cry I will certantly loose my pride. My sister hates me but she is to busy with her  dates Lately.life sucks but in life there is not much luck so what the fuck. I am sad because my life is sort of bad.
I once knew a piper,
He danced to his own tune,
Got bit by a viper,
Got caught up in his doom,
Don’t we all know a piper,
Who got bit by a viper,
Dancing to tunes,
In the middle of our rooms,
And I need a cappuccino,
Don’t touch my oregano,
Or I’ll kick you where,
The sun don’t shine.
And those two lines,
Didn’t fucking rhyme,
Oh, well.
I know. I has skills at the poetries.
I seem to stumble on this website at the oddest hours of night.Â
It’s only 4:43AM, and I can’t sleep. This is a self induced insomnia. For the first time in ages I scored Adderall and I felt like myself this evening. All good things come to an end, I’m facing the enviable come down. Maybe it’s my brain reeling from the dopamine flood it just endured. I’ve just gotten to thinking that being a depressed addict is probably one of the worst illnesses in the world. Use to live, and when the dope runs out, curl up and die.
It makes me nostalgic. I miss when […]
All hope is gone
Hoping to not see the days dawn
I am helpless in time
My life has no reason or no rhyme
My life is frozen in time
People say Ill get through
But they don’t understand what I really want to do
I don’t know where to go
Other then the place u all know
What happens next
Do I live or do I die
Is my place down below or in the sky….
Losing hope quickly …..
I just posted a book in a reply to a post I read on here. This site isn’t what I was looking for however I am grateful to have found it. This topic of conversation isn’t exactly what you feel comfortable or welcome to discuss openly with anyone. I don’t advocate suicide for anyone, it’s horrible in fact and when I think about the impact it has on the people who care about you it does feel selfish. I can only speak about my own situation. Today is a very dark, lonely day and I have never felt more isolated or alone in my life. […]
I hate this. I hate it all. Everything about life. And I just want to die.
I’m tired of being used. I’m tired of putting all my effort and heart into something and never having it work out my way. Not once. This life is crap. There’s no reason to live if all I’m going to experience is misery.
But I promised my best friend I would stay. Until at least the end of the year. And I don’t want to break that promise. She was so happy when I told her. So overjoyed. She hadn’t been honest with me about how upset she was over my […]
OK, so I’ve decided to start posting some of my writing. I’m going to try to post something every night. I think it might help me to share it, and maybe it might help some other people here in their journeys. At least, I hope it will.
What I’m posting tonight is the poem I get my username from. I figured that was a good place to start. I know it doesn’t rhyme, so it doesn’t count as real poetry or anything. I wrote this a few months ago.
ANY AND ALL FEEDBACK IS HIGHLY APPRECIATED! (Also, any suggestions for a title?)
These subtle bloodstains
Soak the whiteness to […]
In the darkness you see a light
A gun and a single shot is in sight.
Both hands for the table you reach
You smile and think of that day at the beach.
You load the gun and give it a spin
*Click* it seems this time you win.
You on the table your blinking phone
along with that beautiful and subtle tone.
You open the phone and there it reads,
“You are a good friend Zeke, indeed.”
But your feelings for her are infinitely more
Even when you look down the center of this bore.
Your purpose in life seems to be complete
To be a friend to someone that is joyful and sweet.
You give it a […]
When you just don’t care enough to carry on
And every road looks like the wrong way
You feel like you’ve got nowhere to belong
And you can’t get out of bed to face the day
When you drive away the ones that love you most
And you’re left staring into the abyss
You feel that you’d prefer to be a ghost
Because you know that you will not be missed
Then I’ve been where you are, without a doubt
And the way that you feel, ain’t no tongue can tell
It’s a darkened room with no clear way out
You’ve made it to the other side […]
This is the first thing I’ve written (if you can call it that) in over 6 months. I laughingly call it a poem. It doesn’t rhyme or anything. I’m sorry. I don’t even know why I’m posting it. I don’t normally share this kind of thing. I guess I’m just being sad and pathetic. Sorry.
I fall
into the pit of despair
it grabs my heart as it steals my soul
I’m lost
nowhere to go
no-one to help
and it’s my fault
no-one can know the pain I feel
no-one can know how empty I can be
the times when I look at the world […]
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