How stupid of me

How stupid of me
To really believe
All that he said
Was the reality

I gave it my all
He let me fall
I hit the ground
And he stood there tall

The same old rhyme
Still rings in my mind
As I make one more slit
And wait for my time

But I cannot wait
For I have no place
I might call for help
But it will be to late

I cry myself to sleep
I can’t even eat
And the end of my battle
Will be when myself i defeat

I lay prompt on my bed
Put the gun to my head
I happily pull the trigger
Are you happy? I’m dead.