* Secretly having mental breakdowns because nothing is going right and all motivation is lost* 🙂
Why movies are better than reality / real life / real world ?
Why movie is better than reality / real life / real world ?
Why reality is boring ?
What puzzles me the most is human’s mind / human’s brains and imagination better than reality ( human’s fantasy is better than reality )
for example:
just look at the movies, novels, comics, games, books, , animations (anime / manga), science fiction (sci-fi), fantasy , like Star Wars, Harry Potter, Lord of the Rings, Narnia, X-Men, Marvels & DC universe / movies , The Avengers , Final Fantasy, Kingdom Hearts, Swords Art Online, Naruto, Bleach, […]
I don’t consider myself as being mentally ill but doctors seem to think that suicidal people are just that. All I believe is that suicide is right for me and yet I will be considered mentally ill with being locked up as a possibility. I am not like an animal clinging onto life no matter what purely because of instinct; I am an intelligent human being that has come to believe suicide is right for me through logic and with thought. Life is meaningless at the best of times, others can’t see this because they have so much going on around them, I have little […]
i think it’s beautiful. It’s a deeper genre of black metal that seems to fit right in with how I’m feeling. If you wanna take a listen I’ll give you an example of my favorite – http://youtu.be/6YedXRq3Pbo / http://youtu.be/FWWCiZ0lLOo / http://youtu.be/xRYyCBoKslE
Life is like a wonderful toy. You give this wonderful toy to a toddler who loves playing with it until one day you take this wonderful toy away to the dismay of the toddler. It was the plan right from the start.
Why the flying fuck would you give the toddler the toy in the first place if your plan was just to take it away?
Life is caving in around me… the life I have has changed. The girl I love and the children I’ve raised don’t give me the time of day, the love has just vanished. I’ve done everything right but I have nothing more to give. I can’t take what this feeling is anymore… I’ve lost her once and now it’s happening again and I can’t go through it twice…Everyone tells me life is to short to dwell on this but I know i can’t do this without her… tomorrow doesn’t seem to look any brighter.
Ive been afraid to post here because that will mean the depression is surely back – well this sucks, I can think of a plethora of triggers that may have caused this to start. I don’t know what I am expecting from you all, maybe a little support, a little hope. Im afraid this might be the straw that breaks the camels back. So much pressure right now in my senior year at college, looking to apply to grad school and all I can think of right now is what kind of knot to use in my noose.. I feel so crappy.
This is going to be a long post. On Reddit it would be referred to as an “epic” post, but I don’t know who to talk to about this anymore. My friends are sick of my depression and the drama inside my house, so I guess I’m left venting at anonymous individuals behind a keyboard.
A little bit about myself. I have a hard time making friends and meeting new people. Maybe I wasn’t socialized enough as a child, but I’m an introvert. I also suffer from Borderline Personality Disorder, which is pretty terrible, not going to lie. I have an intense fear or hurting people […]
I just want to disappear. I’m crying. It hurts. I’m sad. Suicide? No… I can’t think of any excuses or simple solutions. I don’t know how to raise my voice, speak up .. I’m too scared… I wear a mask everyday, a mask where the smile never fades and the eyes of a 14 year old girl light up bright. In reality, I force myself to smile.. I think too much. Sometimes I feel like if I didn’t exist everything would be a lot easier for my mum especially… then I realise there are many cases around the world. ugh, this world. My home is […]
Everybody always says that’s committting suicide is the wrong thing to do, but what if it’s actually the right thing to do? What if that’s how we make it to somewhere good after we die? Maybe after people die naturally they don’t go to heaven or wherever you go because they didn’t kill themselves? I’m just saying this and I know some people might disagree, but just think about it. What if suicude is the right choice?
Everyday I think about killing myself and I think I’m coming closer to doing it. But maybe it’s what I’m supposed to do. I’ll at least be happy.
i’m not in a very good place right now. today i got on facebook and discovered ‘she’ sent me a friend request – the ‘she’ who my dad cheated with all those months ago, subsequently ruining mine and my mom’s lives. i guess she honestly doesn’t believe she did anything wrong that night… i don’t know what the hell kind of drug she was on… but how dare she. i saw that today and everything came flooding right back to me, all of it. i feel like i’ve been hit in the stomach and now i can’t breathe. what’s worse, my older sister is friends […]
Its been a while since I thought about suicide. I had a panic the other day tho. I went and got some help in july. Went to this psychiatrist and got some ativan for anxiety and he gave me welbutrin for depression. I told him I didn’t feel depressed anymore. Just normal sadness ocassionionly. Lots of anxiety but not the suicidal solution that used to be right there just last year. Idk. I don’t think I’m depressed. The welbutrin doesn’t do shit as far as I can tell and this is like 2 and a half weeks in. I think I have add. I can’t […]
Just thought I’d make a post for those of you suffering physical pain and discomfort.
Many people are ignorant to the “scientific fact” that the left hemisphere of our brain controls motor function to the skeletal muscles on the right side of our body and vice versa. If you were to accept that movement begins with the eyes (you look in the direction you are traveling or intend to travel) then we must also consider the optic nerve and the way in which nerve impulses are sent from the brain (visual corteX) to the eye muscles.
There are in fact 2 branches of optic nerve […]
the official name has not been solidified but my constitutional amendment proposal has. It has 5 main points.
1. Euthanasia should be an absolute right for those who are terminally ill or severely disabled (such as quadriplegics). This rule should also cover children who are dying as well. It must be there choice.
2. Euthanasia for the mentally ill should be an absolute right for people who agree to take a 30-90 day stent in a psychiatric hospital for intense therapy. If the mentally ill patient still wants to end there lives, than there wishes should be granted.
3. Euthanasia for criminals should be a choice for prisoners […]
Latin translation:
(Ancient)
“sui” (of oneself) “caedere” (kill).
(modern)
“suicidium” or “conscivit” .
Greek:
“Aftoktonia”.
My thoughts upon these words, well the obvious “thing” which comes to mind is the cide or SIDE in sui, an anagram of die or dies. This combined with the “Aft” in the greek translation, presumably adapted as a nautical term which denotes either movement towards the STERN or TAIL of a sHIP or AIRcrAFT.
We might say the human body has six sides in three dimensions, that is the top, bottom left and right front and back, with the additional of the inside and outside that makes eight.
Amongst translations for the top as relating to […]
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I suck, I can’t make anything right. Why wait?
fukk me you beautiful ***** — my darkness
i hate the organization im working for. i hate giving away my money to these fuckin organizations that cant be trusted. why i would i want to do that and get other people to do it. these organizations swindle so many people out of cash and there are so many looking for hand outs. its fucking annoying. its so true like we should take care of our own […]
Into the darkness,I walk alone,
Where all my faith and hopes are gone,
Into the abyss,I jump tonight,
I know nothing ever can be set right,
When I put the noose around my neck,
I can’t take my regrets back,
Why is it so difficult to kick the chair,
Knowing well my freedom is near.
Hey guys,
Honestly, i am not suicidal right now, but generally i feel empty.
I am 17 and there is very little good about my life right now.
Academically i have detoriated.
I have literally no friends, i like a girl, but she doesn’t like me.
Nothings going for me right now.
So ill be blunt,
DOES IT GET BETTER?
Do things become better. Does not getting into a good college mean the end of life?