The building is falling part by part, day after day, so the question is:
Jump now or die in the debris?
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i feel numb
all the time
now.
now that i cut
i feel like there’s
an ice-cube on my
mind.
like there’s an ice-
cub covering my
heart.
like i can’t feel any-
thing.
i can think, that’s for
certain.
like i said, this, this
cutting
has saved me from
ruin.
i can think. the cutting has
helped
me pull my life back
together.
mostly it was my school
life
meaning my grades and
whatever
that was falling apart when i
had
nothing to hold onto, nothing to
cling to.
and so now that the cutting has
numbed
my feelings and made it so i can’t
feel
i can concentrate on thinking
bringing
up those grades and being
less
stressed. which is a good thing.
but
it gives me stress, too, like
what
if […]
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OK, so I’ve decided to start posting some of my writing. I’m going to try to post something every night. I think it might help me to share it, and maybe it might help some other people here in their journeys. At least, I hope it will.
What I’m posting tonight is the poem I get my username from. I figured that was a good place to start. I know it doesn’t rhyme, so it doesn’t count as real poetry or anything. I wrote this a few months ago.
ANY AND ALL FEEDBACK IS HIGHLY APPRECIATED! (Also, any suggestions for a title?)
These subtle bloodstains
Soak the whiteness to […]
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